Emmsys angels xxx support for mummies of lost angels part 3 xxxxx

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so here we are on part three, let this one be fun of happy news.....

VM- book? Do explain

Hello everybody I'm new here I found this website couple days ago trying to find answers I had CMC and a MMC with is 4 months, D&C was done this past friday, it is sad that all of you had to go thru this.
and Gingermumi I have a friend that is currently 47 and she had 2 Mcs before she had a healthy Pg her son is now 5.
Good luck to you!!!

thanks lo, Welcome to the thread, you sound like you've had a terrible time, everyone here is so supportive so feel free to share what ever you are going through. Big hugs

hello ladies, hope every1 is having a good weekend...

mermaidspurse need to find a herbal tea that taste mosts like english breakfast without the caffiene! I do love fresh mint tea, but find the teabags for mint never taste as good. You made me laugh with your tea comments and not feeling calm

vjay hope the spotting has stopped and hope you're feeling a bit positive. Good luck for the 6th, i bet it seems like a lifetime away...ive booked in for my 7 week scan for 10th feb, hopefully i'll reach 7 weeks stage by then and beanie will still be around

curly so sweet of you to remember my nan, im touched! Nan's ok, better than she was a few months ago. My grandads gone to india for a little while, he left yesterday and she's missing him already. She's got people staying over with her, so wont wont be on her lonesome. Let me know if you do decide to go to india anytime, can give you some good tips! I really would recommend a holiday to anyone, but know times are quite tough for lots of people financially so not always possible. No more hols for me and DH for a while now! Hope you had a good weekend at your parents. Did you buy some pregnancy tests then?

blue hope yesterday went OK for you...

barbie ive added you on on facebook. Anyone else feel free to add me on, my name is obvious if you check barbies list of friends! Good luck with trying to get net connection barbie..

ginger sending you lots of babydust anyway in the hope that time is on your side...

vm complain away, youre allowed to on here! hope youre feeling better

lobeove sorry you have had to join us. The ladies on here are wonderful and will hopefully get you through the dark times...

thanks to vm, vjay, gingermumi, blue, mollie and everyone else for your kind words. Well i'm 4+1 today and im just really scared and anxious. Read on another thread about chemical pregnancies and kept on thinking that might happen to me because i tested so early So i did another test yesterday. It was still postitive thank god. But i'm just so scared i might lose this one as well. Ive booked to see my GP this friday and like i said before a scan at 7 weeks at my EPAU where i was treated for my mmc.

Back to jury service tommorow!

Hi and welcome lobeov, we posted on same thread yesterday.. How are you feeling today? Everyone on here has been through what your going through and I've found it so good as although well intended, RL friends don't know how you feel or what to say most of the time. This thread is also very positive in a looking to the future way as you can see by the number of ladies on here who have fallen pg since their mcs

barbie and sabs - I've fb you both. Not been on it much lately but look forward to having a peek at your photos.

Yesterday was fine, did great session at the gym and snuggled up on couch with DS watching Pixar's 'Cars' starring Lightening McQueen - it was fantastic, oh my word I am so not cool anymore

Again bluesatinsash, thank you for words, i feeling better I guess... it has been only 2 days but I will be ok soon, I'm happy I found you guys...

thanks again

lobeov Hi and welcome, sorry you have to had join us, but you are amongst friends here so feel free to cry, rant, moan and shout Just make sure you take the time to grieve, it's a long slow process
Sabs Hello new FB friend! Your pictures are lovely, it's so great to put faces to names. You must stop reading all the bad news threads as it will drive you crazy
Blue I've added you on FB too, how are you feeling at the moment?

Welcome Lobeov It DOES get better every day - with some humps along the way.

Evening everyone Just popping in quickly before I retire to bed with a hot water bottle as the evil witch has arrived and seems to be hell bent on making up for the fact I haven't had a proper AF since August I've been a hormonal sobbing mess today - just glad the 2WW is over and I can stop my futile symptom spotting and concentrate on real life for a while

On the upside, I think my cycle is now back to normal, as my luteal phase was back to being bang on 13 days.

barbie - I think I joined Facebook but never use it - may try to find my login and look for those photos of yours

Oh and Sabs - I've had one CP when I tested positive at 3+5, but AF arrived 2 days later. I'm guessing you are probably safe from that if you are over 4 weeks, ie past your AF due date

I'm so sorry Jools it is totally crushing when TEW arrives, especially when like me last month you convince yourself of pregnancy symptoms. How about you and me become the February BFP'ers instead? I'm about 9 days ahead of you and feeling determined. Poor DH won't know what's hit him

Blue, I read your post as I got on the plane and was thinking of you yesterday. I'm glad you got to spend some quality time with DS. You have such a beautiful little boy there

Mollie, did you get through all the ironing? Come around and do mine too - I'll put on the dvd.... and the soundtrack

Welcome back Barbie (or should I say becky!!!). I don't think I could ever call you anything but Barbie. I'm not on Facebook despite my addiction to the Internet but hopefully you'll get that 24 access and can keep us posted on mn.

Gingermumi, I know the chances of a miscarriage are higher over 40 but you still have good odds. My mum had my lovely little sister at the same age - though she was a surprise! There is nothing like TTC for making us aware of our ages even though we are all fine young things really. I am suddenly totally aware of being 35 and in a whole new age bracket for miscarriage odds.

Lobeov, I'm so sorry about your miscarriages. This is a really lovely thread, and as blue says lots of positive vibes at the moment, but please talk about stuff as much as you need. I was a basketcase for at least a month after my mmc and erpc, and still get sad sometimes. It will get to the point in RL where people expect you to move on, but you can take all the time you need on mumsnet. None of us will ever forget our little ones. I think we have all hung onto this thread, even our lucky pregnant ladies, because we need each other to get through this scary business of trying again. If you have any questions or just need to get stuff out, we'll be right here.

VM morning sickness is pretty much the equivalent of a bad hangover every day!! Feel free to rant all you need. I know I will

Sabs I'm so glad your nan is doing better. I hope when I am that age I still miss DH when he goes away - I do now but then we are still in the honeymoon period. We will definitely be going to India at some point so will be bugging you for tips on where to go And yes, I bought more pregnancy tests - digital ones - the height of sophistication!

Big hello to MM, Scamper 4ever and everyone else xxx

Thank you very much for your support, I wish you guys were closer(I'm in USA) I really need a hug!!!

good luck!!!

There's a massive hug coming your way Lobeov Where are u living in the US?

Florida

Thanks!!!! for the hug!!!

I spent three months in Tampa a few years ago. I miss the warm weather

Anyway time to drag DH to bed. Hope you are okay Lobeov - take care of yourself and pop in whenever you need a chat. If you want to talk about what happened, maybe get it all out as well. It helped for me. Or just lurk if you need cheering up

Hello all !!! probably everybody is sleeping but here it is only 7:53 pm, I don't know if any of you is christian .. well I'm catholic I don't really practise but when I feel lost I found some confort in prayer, here is something that I found and I will like to share with all of you:
His name is Saint Gerard he is the saint for motherhood.
"For Motherhood
O good Saint Gerard, powerful intercessor before God and Wonderworker of our day, I call upon thee and seek thy aid. Thou who on earth didst always fulfill God?s designs, help me to do the holy Will of God. Beseech the Master of Life, from Whom all paternity proceedeth, to render me fruitful in offspring, that I may raise up children to God in this life and heirs to the Kingdom of His Glory in the world to come. Amen"

www.saintgerard.com/stgerard.html

Here is the link

{angry} so i didnt get 24 hour internet access after all! However dh realsies how much i miss you all and is getting me 5 hour blocks to uses.....im trying to have an hour a day but its never enough

lobeov welcome, you will find much love, laugher, hand holding and hugs if you need them, without each and everyone of theses girls i wouldnt be the strong, positive person i am today, they are wonderful and im proud to have them all as friends (and no girls im not drink no alcohol licence yet!)

vm you do not moan everytime you come on here, i want to be part of your journey, sickness and all........

To all the girls who added me, what a gorgeous bunch of people you are, i will have no trouble spotting you when we finally meet up!

mm where are you my lovely, i miss you? hope you are ok...

blue i too sat and watched the same film, i love it! ha ha i guess we are both nutters!

gingermummy my gosh you dont look that old???? relax im sure it will happen, you are young as you feel.......

Well girlies, i want to save some time to come back later, so ill bid you all a good morning and a happy monday

barbie waves to everyone while checking to see if its beach weather .....

dont know how to type this,just even begining to type is making me cry. dh rushed me into a&e at 5.30 yesterday morning dreadful pain, bleeding, the works, moved to gyni ward and left on a drip. at 4pm told no room for a scan until my scan date on wednseday and then of course all the emergencies started coming in. At 9.30 nurse goes mad and demands dr come and see me. the lovely lovely ladies all in for their hysterectomies, cant spell today, are also going mad on our behalf, big bonding of general female angst. finally after much dr debate aout me and RN blood they released me. Got home at 11 absolutely in bits.
This morning sat up in bed and fairly sure that I have had a full/partial/ mc.
just numb. I sat there in hopsital yesterday thinking about you all and I cant tell you enough what this forum has meant to me on and off over the last few months.
I am sorry to bring anyone down when so many of us are fighting to be positive. I dont think I could have tried any harder for this lo. xx

Good morning barbie, I'm not on facebook, well I don't think I am, I signed up last year sometime but didn't do anything with it, now I don't know what to do with it!
Welcome lobeov, stick with us and you'll be fine, sending you lots of {{{{{hugs}}}}}.
vm I am feeling soooo sick, how are you today? Usually my breakfasts helps, but today it hasn't, I dropped off ds at school looking very green. I haven't been sick, just feel it ALL DAY!
Hi blue I love curling up on the sofa with ds watching one of his dvd's. I tried to get him into Mary Poppins when he was little, it worked for a while, but then along came transformers, Mary didn't stand a chance.
I'm supposed to be studying now but would much rather chat to you lovely ladies.
Vjay waves to mm curly 4ever ginger sabs and jools and anyone else I've not mentioned

oh mermeaid I am so so sorry. What is happening next, I take it you've not had a scan, that is ourageous, they should have scanned you there and then, I am so shocked and upset for you.

Oh Mermaid

You are in my thoughts x x x

dont know what to do next - little tupperware box is sitting on the table, found one solitary rose in the garden, spose I have to take it in... I have an 'open invitation' but cant face going back today. not much physical pain.
womans hour has just informed me that today is the most depressing day of the year so I have just put the icing on the cake sorry girls.

mermaid you do what you feel you have to and want to. If you want to go back in then do, if not then don't. I just can't believe thay won't scan you until Wednesday. Where's the help and support in that?

Mermaid I am sending you a very non-mumsnet hug, oh my love I am so sorry this has happened to you again especially the circumstances i.e. at home. Is DH with you?
Of course you are going to feel numb, and the terrible thing is you know exactly how you will feel once that wears off, remember we are here for you all the time .Like Vjay said do what feels right. I also can't believe that they can't scan you til Weds that is just awful, surely they can squeeze in one little scan