Evening girls, hope you are all wrapped up warm somewhere and taking care of yourselves.
lilac my DH has also suggested counselling. I had first mc in Feb, but got pg again quite quickly in May, so did not really have time for it all to sink in, but when we went for our 12 wk scan in July were told I had mmc around 6 weeks. Somehow the message reached my insides and I mc naturally over the next couple of days after the scan, but it was hideously painful, so in the immediate aftermath I was just relieved not to be in pain. Picked myself up, went back to work after 2 days and didn't even begin to deal with the sadness...just threw myself into ttc, bought all the books, learnt all about charting temps and cervical fluid etc etc...what DH calls my "steely determination" to be pg. Then over dinner a few weeks ago, he says "um, do you think maybe you should talk to someone about this...."
I haven't had any counselling so far but I think it is a good idea. Actually, MN has been a great start for me! At last, there are women who know exactly how I feel, and write about their lost angels as real people who they have lost...and I think acknowledging what we have lost is a big step on the road to living full and happy lives (one day!).
Since writing on MN I have found I am being more honest about how crap I feel with people in the outside world too. Had a long chat and a good cry on the phone to my mum this week, and it was such a relief to say no I am not fine, I am not coping very well, and I feel sad a lot of the time. Mum lost my little sister at 7 months, and even tho that was 26 years ago, she still remembers her.
curlywurlee hello, and I am sorry to read what you are going through. So much worse when it is all drawn out. Make sure you take all the time you need to be kind to yourself, physically and emotionally. I am sure it does get less painful with time, and meanwhile there's MN to pour your heart out to.
barbie I cannot believe your boss said that!! I hope you sneezed all over her and gave her your flu. BTW what are you doing back at work if you are ill?! Stuff her and her silly figures...take tomorrow off.
vickyjane I like your thought that our time will come, its always hard when girls close to us are pg and villagemum thank you for your hopes for this month! Right now I don't feel quite so desperate to conceive this month, but no doubt that will change in a few days! Have struck a deal with DH that the ov test kits and thermometer have been put away, and in return he guaruntees to do the necessary at least once every 2 days over what I think will be my fertile time! He has also just got back from a lads night, stone cold sober....I think someone has abducted the real DH and replaced him with a lookalike.
sabs how are you hon? As you will have gathered, we are ttc now but no luck so far.
ooh, nearly forgot I had my first acupuncture today, and I do feel nice and calm. Bad news is that she thinks I should avoid sugar to balance myself out, so no more cakes for a while, boo.
That's all for now on a momentous day in history - one thing to smile about anyway! xxx