He was supposed to be our rainbow

[KittyandTeal]

After loosing dd2 last year at 22weeks (T18 and a tfmr) I was told I probably couldn't have any more.

I made myself ok with it. It would just be 3 of us.

Then I found out I was pregnant. It has been anxious and stressful. All tests came back clear, found out he was a boy. I had a really good feeling that things would be ok.

Routine antenatal clinic today the doc said at the end of the appointment that he could give me a quick scan if I had time and it wouldn't make me too anxious.

Turns out our baby died, the day after our scan at fmc where everything looked great. No reason they can tell.

I actually don't think I know how to do all this again.

I'm so so sorry that's really crap.

How many weeks were you? Do you have a name. Please take it easy xx

14 weeks. He died a week ago.

He was possibly going to be Leo. I think we'll stick with that.

So very very sorry for the loss of both your DD2 and DS1. I cannot image the pain and heartache you are going through but you have my deepest sympathy and condolences.

Oh shit Kitty, you don't know me but I've seen your story on here. Please be gentle with yourself and take all and any support offered. Life is a bastard sometimes

Thanks. We truly are finding out just what a bastardlife can be right now.

I think I'd kind of assumed things would have to be ok this time round because it would just be too unfair to have to do this twice. Apparently not.

I'd just like to step off the world for a bit right now.

I'm so very sorry to hear of your loss of DD2 and DS1. there are no words adequate to say xx

Kitty So so sorry to hear this. I've seen you on other threads being such a support for others and I hope MN can be a help to you now too. It's impossible to comprehend how you must be feeling. Sending you

Oh no that is truely shit. I'm so sorry for losses.

Oh kitty.

I've read your threads and not commented before but I couldn't stay silent.

I am so so so sorry. It's not bloody fair. It just isn't.

OMG Kitty, I can't believe this. I'm so so sorry to hear this update. It's devastating. There are just no words. Keeping all of you in my thoughts.

Kitty I am so very sad to read this. Sending good vibes andd xx

How bloody awful for you all. Life is so unfair. Be kind to yourself.

Oh kitty I am so sorry. Life is so unfair.

Thank you all.

Mn is a wonderful place.

So sorry, love. That's just so unfair. Be kind to yourself x

I'm so sorry

So sorry to hear this Kitty. Sending you lots of love and

Kitty I've read your other threads and I am so sorry you are going through this.

Thanks

It just doesn't quite feel real right now. At least with dd2 we had a reason. It seems like we will possibly never find out why our little boy died.

Oh Kitty, I'm so sorry. The others are right, it's not bloody fair. I hope you have plenty of RL support.

Oh, Kitty, that's beyond unfair! I'm so very sorry xx

So, so sorry Kitty

I do have lots of rl support which I am very fortunate for.

My sil is due in 7 weeks. I'm not sure how I feel about it now. I desperately want to know that I'll be ok with it but realistically I probably won't. It's really shit

So sorry Kitty. Life is really not fair