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He was supposed to be our rainbow
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KittyandTeal · 07/03/2016 18:22

After loosing dd2 last year at 22weeks (T18 and a tfmr) I was told I probably couldn't have any more.

I made myself ok with it. It would just be 3 of us.

Then I found out I was pregnant. It has been anxious and stressful. All tests came back clear, found out he was a boy. I had a really good feeling that things would be ok.

Routine antenatal clinic today the doc said at the end of the appointment that he could give me a quick scan if I had time and it wouldn't make me too anxious.

Turns out our baby died, the day after our scan at fmc where everything looked great. No reason they can tell.

I actually don't think I know how to do all this again.

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AStreetcarNamedBob · 07/03/2016 18:24

I'm so so sorry that's really crap.

How many weeks were you? Do you have a name. Please take it easy xx

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KittyandTeal · 07/03/2016 18:26

14 weeks. He died a week ago.

He was possibly going to be Leo. I think we'll stick with that.

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Twitterqueen · 07/03/2016 18:27

So very very sorry for the loss of both your DD2 and DS1. I cannot image the pain and heartache you are going through but you have my deepest sympathy and condolences. Flowers

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TrashPanda · 07/03/2016 18:28

Oh shit Kitty, you don't know me but I've seen your story on here. Please be gentle with yourself and take all and any support offered. Life is a bastard sometimes Flowers

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KittyandTeal · 07/03/2016 18:35

Thanks. We truly are finding out just what a bastardlife can be right now.

I think I'd kind of assumed things would have to be ok this time round because it would just be too unfair to have to do this twice. Apparently not.

I'd just like to step off the world for a bit right now.

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Chottie · 07/03/2016 18:40

I'm so very sorry to hear of your loss of DD2 and DS1. Flowers there are no words adequate to say xx

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Grumpelstiltskin · 07/03/2016 18:40

Kitty So so sorry to hear this. I've seen you on other threads being such a support for others and I hope MN can be a help to you now too. It's impossible to comprehend how you must be feeling. Sending you ThanksThanks

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shutupandshop · 07/03/2016 18:42

Oh no that is truely shit. I'm so sorry for losses.Flowers

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RJnomore1 · 07/03/2016 18:42

Oh kitty.

I've read your threads and not commented before but I couldn't stay silent.

I am so so so sorry. It's not bloody fair. It just isn't.

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FoggyBlue · 07/03/2016 18:44

OMG Kitty, I can't believe this. I'm so so sorry to hear this update. It's devastating. There are just no words. Keeping all of you in my thoughts.

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sugar21 · 07/03/2016 18:46

Kitty I am so very sad to read this. Sending good vibes andd xx Flowers

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Lilipot15 · 07/03/2016 18:48

How bloody awful for you all. Life is so unfair. Be kind to yourself. Flowers

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BitchPeas · 07/03/2016 18:49

Oh kitty I am so sorry. Life is so unfair. Flowers

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KittyandTeal · 07/03/2016 18:50

Thank you all.

Mn is a wonderful place.

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Fugghetaboutit · 07/03/2016 18:50

So sorry, love. That's just so unfair. Be kind to yourself x

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Finola1step · 07/03/2016 18:51

I'm so sorry Flowers

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GobiasIndustries · 07/03/2016 18:54

So sorry to hear this Kitty. Sending you lots of love and Thanks

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lilygirl81 · 07/03/2016 18:57

Kitty I've read your other threads and I am so sorry you are going through this.

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KittyandTeal · 07/03/2016 19:00

Thanks

It just doesn't quite feel real right now. At least with dd2 we had a reason. It seems like we will possibly never find out why our little boy died.

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LetThereBeCupcakes · 07/03/2016 19:03

Oh Kitty, I'm so sorry. The others are right, it's not bloody fair. I hope you have plenty of RL support.

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chipmonkey · 07/03/2016 19:06

Oh, Kitty, that's beyond unfair! I'm so very sorry xx

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NaraDeer · 07/03/2016 19:06

So, so sorry Kitty Thanks

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KittyandTeal · 07/03/2016 19:08

I do have lots of rl support which I am very fortunate for.

My sil is due in 7 weeks. I'm not sure how I feel about it now. I desperately want to know that I'll be ok with it but realistically I probably won't. It's really shit

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BeautifulLiar · 07/03/2016 19:11

So sorry Kitty. Life is really not fair Flowers

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eightytwenty · 07/03/2016 19:12

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