He was supposed to be our rainbow

[KittyandTeal]

After loosing dd2 last year at 22weeks (T18 and a tfmr) I was told I probably couldn't have any more.

I made myself ok with it. It would just be 3 of us.

Then I found out I was pregnant. It has been anxious and stressful. All tests came back clear, found out he was a boy. I had a really good feeling that things would be ok.

Routine antenatal clinic today the doc said at the end of the appointment that he could give me a quick scan if I had time and it wouldn't make me too anxious.

Turns out our baby died, the day after our scan at fmc where everything looked great. No reason they can tell.

I actually don't think I know how to do all this again.

No. No. No!!!! I'm so sorry, I can't believe it. As you know we had our 2nd late loss on 24th Feb too. So sorry Kitty. Please pm me if you want to and we can support each other through this utterly crap time.

Thanks marmite. One loss is something no one should go through but 2 is feeling unbearable

Kitty im so sorry to hear this. I was on here last year as gingerbreadmam. We discovered our son died at 27weeks. I cant believe this has happened to you i am very truly sorry. You gave me some great advice and support when i went through my loss. I wish i could do the same for you.

My db found out his dp was 5months pregnant 3months after i gave birth to lucas. They never wanted any more dc, were adamant. Felt so cruel at the time but the due date is fast approaching and i am now looking forward to her arrival. I know u have much less time than that and things are still fresh but just saying try not to focus on it too much right now.

It is unbearable. There are no words.
I've just pmd you.

I remember you dexty. I'm glad I could help a bit. Hopefully I'll get there again.

It's good to hear that you are excited. I'm sure it will be bitter sweet but in the end I will be excited. And I'm glad dd1 will have a cousin as we will definitely not be having any more.

Kitty I am so sorry for your loss. Leo is beautiful name. Sending you lots of hugs. You've commented on a few of my posts and always been so supportive, I'm so sorry you have to go through this pain again x

I'm so sorry

I'm so sorry for your losses. It's just so cruel.

Time will tell but you are more imortant right now. I hope ur dp and those around you are giving lots of support.

Im so sorry i have no words really. Leo is a lovely name x

I'm so unbelievably sorry. I'm so so sorry x

Oh, Kitty that's utterly, utterly shit. I'm so sorry - my heart is breaking for you. Leo is a lovely name

Kitty I am looking at this wishing it weren't true. There are very few threads on MN that bring me to tears but yours has. I am so very sorry for this latest loss for you and your family. You and baby Leo are in my thoughts xx

Oh no. You don't know me I don't think but I've seen you on various posts, and always admired your grace and ability to somehow say the right thing, even when there is no right thing to say. I am so, so terribly sorry this has happened to you again. It's so bloody unfair. Leo is a gorgeous name.

I'm so so sorry Kitty. Truly don't know what to say other than that I'm sending love and thinking of you

Oh Kitty, I'm so very sorry for your loss of your little boy. You don't know me, but I always look out for your threads. I'm so sorry.

Sorry for your losses Kitty x

I'm sorry for your loss op. Leo is a lovely name

I'm so sorry kitty. I've followed your posts on here. You and your family are in my thoughts tonight x

So sorry to read this kitty. I know there's nothing I can say that will take your pain away but I'm thinking of you

Oh kitty no no no, there are just no words I am so sorry, we have only ever 'chatted' here on mnet but I was so pleased for you when I saw you were pregnant. Life is so unbelievably unfair and cruel.

No words are enough. I am sending you love and strength and thinking of you and your family.

Oh Kitty

Like so many others on here you don't know me but I've seen your posts and been touched by how kind and supportive you are.

This is such awful news. I'm truly sorry for your loss, I am thinking of you and Leo tonight

I'm just so so sorry. Leo is a beautiful name for your beautiful boy. I'm thinking of you all tonight and wishing there was more I could do.

I'm so sorry Kitty, I've seen your posts and I was hoping things would work out what a sad thing to happen. Take care of yourself

Thank you all, it is strangely comforting to think so many people out there care.

I guess it's normal but I'm feeling utterly broken right now. I'm wondering if this is the thing that finally breaks me. I'm not quite sure how you come back from this.