I have come to stay at my parents for Easter so I weighed today. I'm now in a bad mood.
I started the year off at 12.5 (having been 13 stone 6 months before that). Last year I got stuck. I got stuck at 12 stone 2 for ages and then I got stuck at 11 stone 12. I was eating too many carbs but only marginally too much. I was still trying really hard.
Two weeks ago, having been much stricter with my carbs, I hit 11 stone 6. I was so happy. I've had 2 really strict weeks since then. My trousers are definitely baggier by maybe an inch, maybe a bit more than that. I really couldn't have done much better. I must have lost weight.
Weighed myself today and I'm 11 stone 10.
I do not understand my body. It has ALWAYS done this to me. My weight on the scale just doesn't seem to correspond with anything. I am due my period and I know it could be water retention, but 11.10?? I had geared myself up to see 11.3. It's so demoralising. In previous years I've ended up putting on quite a lot of weight because the scale has so upset me I've ended up binging. I am working really hard to say to myself that the scale weight doesn't matter if my clothes are getting looser, but I feel like crying. I really badly wanted to hit 11 stone by the end of April and for a wedding I'm going to in June I wanted to hit 10.7. Is that even possible for my body?
It feels so unfair. My background to this, by the way, is I joined weight watchers at 18. So a low fat diet. I was so strict and every week I'd stay the same or lose half a pound or put on 1 and everyone else there seemed to lose easily eating much more than me. It was honestly very upsetting and I ended up putting on masses of weight at the end of the year because I binged. So I have a long history of feeling very frustrated over just this issue.
I'm NOT going to binge. I'm going to KOKO and hope so much in a couple of weeks time the scale will be reading under 11.6 again but I feel so cheated. I wish I had some answers that either this is definitely water retention, or no, I've actually put on weight because of eating dairy or something. I feel so baffled.