My son may be dying

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Just that.

He has cancer, they have not been able to control it.

They have given him one last chemotherapy to see if it can turn a corner but his body may not be able to tolerate it and it may not work.

We have been told to prepare ourselves for him to deteriorate suddenly.

My husband can't be with us because my son also has Coronavirus so we are in isolation and he is with our other son.

I am so sorry, this is absolutely awful, thinking of you all

He sounds like a brilliant boy. I'm sending every bit of love & hope your way 💙❤️💙

I'm so sorry you're going through this, and I'm praying for you and your family

My heart is breaking for you after reading this. Life can be so unfair and cruel sometimes, I'm praying for your boy x

Praying for you all x

This is heartbreaking. I'm so, so sorry. I hope the chemo works and turns it around.

I'm so sorry for you, try and enjoy the moments you have x

I'd love to hear more about him and about you. About the present and about him growing up. I know there's nothing we can say to change this, and that change is everything you need, but many here to hear you and bear witness with you

I feel so lonely. I wish my husband was here.

I'm so sorry

I am so very sorry 💔

Tell us about your wonderful boy ❤️.

I'm so sorry. If you would like to, please tell us about your wonderful boy. I am thinking of you & sending you my very best wishes x

Oh dear OP, I am so heartbroken to read your story and devastated for you in this moment. Your son sounds amazing. I'm sending you both a hug across the miles. I have said a prayer for you both. Please keep posting to us here and tell us all you want to. Would you like to tell us more about your wonderful boy? Would you like to tell us about your fears and anger? Whatever you want to share, we want to listen to you and support you.

He has always been so invincible. Always climbed too high, gone too fast and pushed every boundary he could find, jus so he could tiptoe on the edge of it.

He's never still, always wants to be outside, and even through chemotherapy has been go karting and out on his bike.

He loves his friends and always makes up the best games to play in a field

He's a good brother and wonderful company, even now.

I don't know how to do this.

You are doing all you can and are doing it perfectly.

Sending all my love love to you all

He sounds wonderful. You must be so proud.

You are with your boy, you are doing all you can. I wish there was something I could say that would help. I'm reading & I'm sending strength to you xx

You must be so so proud of your boy op,I fervently hope and pray you get more time

OP I hope that even in this isolation this message can penetrate through your aloneness and you know that others really do care and were praying for you both and thinking of you both.
I'm so sorry I can't offer practical help or even bring you a cup of tea. But please know this, you are loved, your fabulous boy is loved and if good wishes could bolster you we will send them in droves.

Please do ask if there is some pastoral care available and if there is a team to help with practicalities such as laundry/clean clothes.

He sounds amazing.. fingers crossed for you all xx

Your son sounds a wonderful young man OP 💔

He's had another dose of chemotherapy today so hopefully tomorrow we can see it turn a corner.

It's been the longest day stuck in this room. DS has felt awful all day and we are both shattered.

Hopefully better news will come tomorrow.

He sounds wonderful op. You are there with him. Loving him. That's all he needs from you.

I'm so sorry to read this. Sending thoughts to your all.

However you are doing it just know there is no right and no wrong way to do it, I know this from seeing it many times in the children's hospice I worked in. Much love and strength to you, your boy and your family OP