Not long now. .

[Ludoole]

Had paramedics out to dh this morning as he fell and i couldnt get him up safely. Hes now completely bedbound and slurring his words. I think he will be gone within the next week... im completely devastated as it is now sinking in that hes actually going to leave me. My head understood the terminal diagnosis but my heart never truly believed it.

Inlecto Birthday greetings, even if you dont celebrate i wanted to acknowledge it
Im taking boys to the chapel of rest on saturday to say our goodbyes. He will be wearing his wedding suit
My anger has subsided even though ive found out he's left more than i thought to sort out
I suppose sorting all this out is the last thing i can do for him and it will keep me busy.
I bloody miss him though. Everything about him. Even miss him waking me up every 10 mins because he has something else to tell me.... I miss getting his meds for him, miss sorting out his colostomy stuff for his bag change... i miss his awful jokes...but most of all i miss the feel of his arms around me and the touch of his lips on mine and the way i would look at him and find him staring and smiling at me with a soppy grin...
I was loved. I was so loved by him. I am blessed to have found my soulmate and best friend wrapped into one. I just wish we could have been old and wrinkly together...

(((hugs))) Ludoole

Ludhoole
you know that for the time you had together you were greatly loved-and l do believe that wherever he is now he loves you still and you will find evidence of this in the days to come when you least expect it..
Better these memories that a lifetime together of misery.
I will be thinking of you and your boys on Saturday.

Ludoole it sounds like you two had an amazing relationship, that's so precious.

I think being busy with all the organising does help, but I can't imagine how you are getting through the day.

Sending you lots of strength for the next few days

Ludoole, I'v just read your posts and I'm so sorry for your loss, you, your boys and family are going through. I was in tears at your last post, I can't even imagine how you feel right now.

I hope the visit to the chapel of rest went okay today with the boys. I know when I went to see my stepmum I really panicked and was scared to go in. I did in the end though and im glad I did.

Thinking of you all

Exasperated He looked beautiful in the chapel of rest. I held his hand and kissed him so many times.
I put a letter in his coffin along with a photo of us and the boys on our wedding day. My eldest son, 15, had also written a letter and asked for some time alone with him. My youngest, 12, held onto me tightly and fought back the tears.
Im so proud of them and i know my darling husband was too.

So glad your DH looked spiffy at the chapel.

Well done Ludoole, another really big day for you all.
Wish I could say something wise and profound. All I have is that you are in my thoughts.

Oh Ludoole I'm in tears reading about your chapel of rest visit. I glad your boys did what they needed to it must be so hard for you to see them like that. I hope you have the strength to carry on the next few days. I will be thinking of you.

Ludoole, I am so so sorry for your loss. I don't have any words really but you, your brave boys and your amazing strong husband are in my thoughts.

I'm so sorry 💐