Starting the journey thread 3

[squirrelnutkins1]

Don't want to lose touch so new thread ready x

Oooh that sounds like a lovely surprise evening @2fingers22018 🍾🥂😎 We've been going to a fair few comedy shows recently too and, like you say, it definitely helps take our minds away from TTC stress 😊

Not insensitive at all @veeboo ❤️ I'm a manager too and I don't think he'll be able to get cover for me if I ever do go on mat leave, so all the staffing issues we currently have (and all my normal duties!) that I deal with will become entirely his problem 😣 Our management meetings have purely been about how we're going to provide a service with all the short term absences we're facing (we do a pretty specialised job that's nearly impossible to get mat leave cover for), so I guess I'm feeling a bit guilty for potentially dropping him further in it 😔 He's even jokingly said (and he really was joking!) "please don't tell me your pregnant too?!" when I went into see him the other day 😳 He apologised for saying it as soon as the words were out of his mouth - it's a really stressful work situation at the moment and it was just a kind of black humour way of dealing with the stress - I'm very sure about that. I absolutely know he'd be delighted for me if I do manage to get pregnant, despite the extra work stress it'd cause for him.

The stupid thing is that if we'd been successful in TTC when we started nearly 2 years ago, I would have been the first one off on mat leave and not just another one of many! 😒 Meh. C'est la vie 🙄

@veeboo thats exactly it everyone wants to outdo everyone nowadays and they dnt care that it costs theyr guests in taxis trains planes and hotel stays thats before u even buy an outfit or gift! I know i sound like a right grump but ive just been thinkin recently know what im bein more selfish and lookin after no1 lol i need to put my own needs 1st and saving for ivf is top priority even if we re lucky enough for nhs ivf to work some extra savings to spoil a baby with is never a bad thing..

@BambiOnIce80 work is another headache durin all of this but as i said to @veeboo ive just made my mind up that i need to put myself 1st during all of this u should try and do the same i know its hard to do that if ur not a selfish person tho💜 bottom line is we gotta do what we gotta do lol

I drive myself crazy with all that too lol

It's the first time I've been asked to a destination wedding and now there's bloody 2 😬 Poland is not so bad because my cousin is marrying a polish guy and has learnt polish, so it's meaningful for them to do it there... Antigua is a while different kettle if fish!! My cousin was verg sweet and was apologising and trying to find us the cheapest way by booking ahead, but thats awkward because we cant plan. I think we'll see what thd deposit is line, if its smallish to cancel then maybe. Extra difficult because they've asked me to be a witness, i cant inagine its hard tp rustle up another one though right? I will have no problem missing it if we get a baby out of it, but if I can't go and don't get a bfp I'll be really sad to have missed it on top of everuthing else

@CloudsSway i wasnt meanin that rude to ur family/friends btw i know it mightve sounded like that but do u know what i mean? I feel like ppl end up feelin guilty obvs if they miss someones wedding but i wish ppl(that i know) would take into account its a lot of money.

Lots to catch up on today!

@veeboo ooh exciting! I'd def book an early scan, I'd be too inpatient to wait til 12 weeks!

@CloudSway I can totally imagine the bitter sweet of it 💔 it must be hard being the only one making decisions as well. Maybe it's easier in a sense but must be hard not to have a sibling to share the load with xx

I think it was helping, well I know it was as I came out feeling better but that last 2 times I just can't quite put my finger on it but I just didn't agree with what she said.....kinda along the lines of any feeling is ok, there are no bad feelings, which I get in principle but if I felt so low and fell into a black hole of despair and felt I could never get out again, then that's ok cus that's how I feel.... It just doesn't sit right with me. I thought it'd be more coping strategies as well. I'm glad I've been tho because I couldn't just sit at home feeling low and not trying to help myself. I'm quite proud of myself for doing it tbh.

I don't know if that makes sense, but I know what I mean 🤣

@2fingers22018 what a lovely friend you have 💕 so pleased you enjoyed it x

@BambiOnIce80 yeah the just relax, or maybe you'll get twins, or it'll probably happen just before you start treatment comments, arrrggghhhh!!!!

I've told my line manager what's going on, I had to when I had the mc, well I guess technically I didn't have to but I didn't have the brain power to think something up at the time. She's not the best in work terms but tbf she's been really good about everything to do with this. She even asked me if I need 'rest time' before or after any monitoring scans!!

I've never been invited to a destination wedding. Part of me thinks it's super cheeky as often they cost a fortune but maybe I'd think differently if it was a close friend or fam member. I don't envy you guys having to make decisions! @veeboo @CloudSway

Hope everyone is having a fab sunny weekend. We're going to see the Lion King tonight! I know we're adults but I'm quite excited!!!

@squirrelnutkins1 i know exactly what u mean it gets to a point they repeat themselves or dribble nonsense like u said about feelings yes its gd to aknowledge them but its important to not get dragged down x did u enjoy the lion king i think it looks great im jealous uve seen it😂

@2fingers22018
Agreed!
It was BRILL thanks! I absolutely loved it!!! 🦁

Having a lazy morning today, just had Nutella on pancakes 😋 def not slimming world friendly but 🤷🏼‍♀️! Seeing some friends later for a walk and some tea so that should be nice.
I'm pretty sure AF will be here by the end of the day so just trying to make sure my mood doesn't go downhill. Positive thinking positive thinking!

What's everyone else up to?

Morning all I am back in the uk! Am absolutely shattered as got back at 4 this morning! Hope everyone is ok will try catch up probably later xx

@squirrelnutkins1 gd glad u enjoyed urself! Oh god my diets out the window atm and theyr checkin my bmi nxt wk not gd lol i wnt b over the healthy bmi but ive gained nearly a stone this yr i dnt know whats wrong with me i cant even seem to stop knowing ivf is comin up. I think its stress related..fx af doesnt rear her ugly head for u hun x @FinallytakingtheplungewithIVF welcome back!

@FinallytakingtheplungewithIVF welcome back! Xx

@2fingers22018
Yes, def stress eating. My first thought when I get stressed is to eat junk! I've lost 11lb since about May but I feel like pigging out totally now af has arrived, urghhhhhhhhhh ☹️ she didn't even wait til the end of the day 🙄 you up to much today or are you working? So glad you're nearly there with all your appointments! How's OH doing? Think you said he was struggling a while ago x

Glad you had a lovely time at the lion King @squirrelnutkins1 and I'm very jealous of your scrummy sounding breakfast 😋 I have the pleasure of working today, so no lovely bank holiday plans at my end 😏

I'm the same with food at the moment @2fingers22018 - I just can't seem to stop! 😳 I need to start dragging my arse out for a run again and get back to normal 👟💪

Hi @squirrelnutkins1 yea I just want the early scan just so I know everything is okay. I still havent let myself believe it is true to be honest. Sorry AF arrived.
Have you got another letrozole cycle now? Sorry If I am mixing you up with someone else.
@VenusStarr how are you doing?
Hope everyone is enjoying the sun!

I've been at a beer and cider festival since Thursday helping behind the bar and living on burgers and fry ups, don't mention slimming world!! 🙊🙈🐖

Just found out Antigua has the zika virus btw so think that's a big fat no then! Although lovely DH said if we have a sprog by then, I could pop over for 3 days to see the wedding while he looks after. Nice idea but can you imagine! 😆

Morning all,

So back to reality today and work!! Starting a new job so am kind of excited aswell!
How is everyone?
@cloudsway isn’t zika only an issue if your pregnant? If you have your baby by then it shouldn’t be an issue unless I’ve missed something?
@VenusStarr how are you doing?
@veeboo hope your ok?
@squirrelnutkins1 my sis took me to see Lion king a while ago we absolutely loved it!!
@2fingers22018 hope your ok?

So my new here and am counting down the days to start we had a great holiday but i still feel quite stressed I think because I’m waiting to start the meds and start a new job and also have an exam very shortly! I’ve realised I don’t make life very easy for myself 😂 and should maybe look at that!!
Diet wise well holiday undid all my good work before hand so am goibg to try for half a stone (maybe a bit more) before et think I’m just trying to do everything this time I know what happened is common but I am bit like did I do something wrong, do I need to lose a bit of weight, did I not eat right, drink right, rest enough! It’s so hard!!

Hi @finallytakingtheplungewithivf glad you had a good break. Holidays are not the time for dieting! Being happy is just as important. In the book I was reading 'it starts with the egg' the main theme is do what you can rather than do everything to the nth degree because the pressure of that can be really damaging to your wellbeing. It's good to be healthy but you did nothing wrong. Hope you have a good week.

I am okay but getting anxious now as scan still 11 days away. I was explaining to DP yesterday how common it is for things to not be okay. He has no idea.

We've been trying since January - saw the GP in June - I've had ultrasound of my bits, DH has had sperm count done, I've had blood tests of hormone levels - second one to be done tomorrow, and I get the results in a couple of weeks.

My GP had said that then I will be referred to our local fertility centre but a friend really freaked me out when she said there is nothing in our area available on the NHS if you're over 35 (I'm 41).

YES it would have been great to try 15 year ago but that wasn't an option on multiple levels (first being, we've only been together 5 years).

Is everyone here on IVF or are there other things you can try first?

FWIW I'm overweight and on a diet - lost 1.5 stones so far, still fat though (BMI of 31 now)

@FinallytakingtheplungewithIVF we were told we couldnt get treatment if we d been to anywhere near zika outbreak areas so it could postpone treatment. Wow studies new job and new cycle thats a lot!@squirrelnutkins1 working sadly..my bdays comin up tho so tryin to make plans to keep busy, my OH has been a little bit better of late still low sex drive tho(tmi) hows ur OH coping? Works been stressing me out theyr bein a bit awkward about appts already feel like telling them to sod off its like ive got more important things to worry about but they think life should revolve around ur job 24/7 emailing me at all hrs 😠😥 hope everyone else is gd! 💜

@veeboo true they are not and I did enjoy myself lol! I have read that book aswell but I am quite an active healthy person normally but since starting this process it’s been hard to maintain that!
I think it’s a man thing my dh is the same when o say stuff he is alway so surprised lol!

@2fingers22018 yes I get that part as we went Mexico last year and had to wait 6 months before we could start! I was just saying if cloudsway already had a baby by then I don’t think zika would be an issue as it harms unborn babies! I was just interested in I had missed something about once they are born of that makes sense?
Sorry work are being a pain already!

@finallytakingtheplungewithivf I agree I have experienced the same with my health since ttc. Just do your best. Don't aim for perfection.

@BambiOnIce80 it was yum! I've fallen off the wagon and feel all yucky and bloated but hey ho! If you can't have a treat when AF is here then when can you! Hope work went nice and quickly for you!

@veeboo ooh exciting! Yes one more round of Letrazole starting tomorrow 🙄

@CloudSway oooh sounds wonderful!!

@FinallytakingtheplungewithIVF how did your first day go? Yup you've got a lot on your plate at the mo!! The lion king really was ace!!

@TigerJoy Welcome! Yup, no point thinking about the what ifs and buts etc. You are where you are now. We're a mixture on here. We've got a couple of lovelies who've recently got their BFPs. We've got ones about to start IVF. I'm on stimulants for 3 months. Nice and supportive thread here 👍🏻

@2fingers22018 glad he's a little better xx mines okish. Just got a lot going on in every aspect of life at the mo but doing ok thanks x sorry about work 😡

Hi ladies; sorry I’ve been away for a while. I was getting myself all worked up after hearing horror stories of ivf. So I took a abit of a internet break.

I’m day 6 of down regulation now :)

Hope everyone is ok x

@veeboo progress not perfection is a motto I like lol!

@squirrelnutkins1 awww thanks for asking yeah it was ok you know what first days are like long and a lot of talking and being shown stuff that blow your mind 😂 fingers crossed for your next letrazole! So is this the last one then? What happened then for you?

@GreyC can't blame you! But glad to have you back 😊 how are you feeling? Xx

@FinallytakingtheplungewithIVF yeah I remember the feeling, quite overwhelming! I'm intrigued to know what you do! (But obv you don't have to say!!!) Did you get a nice send off from your old place? Hope day 2 goes well 😊
Thank you. IUI x 3 should be the next step. I might ring today to book in for a consultant appointment as the wait is normally 7 or so weeks.

Hope everyone has a good day xx