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[Jamon]

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I 😍 Legoland!

Totally negative today. Will obviously give it another couple of days incase of a miracle but think I'm out knowing I had a strongish positive on 5dp5dt with a singleton last time before the chemical and this time was with two.
This process is so tough. I have two lower grade Frosties left and then we're facing giving up which is a scary thought.

Oh geeup I can’t imagine how tough this must be. It’s still really early though, or? If hcg increases 2-fold daily, I think there’s still time for a good outcome from this. I’ve still got everything crossed for you!

kwick awesome news - hopefully this is the one!

roule yeah Legoland! Seriously though, it’s maybe not such a silly idea. Very easy to neglect your relationship and ‘normal’ stuff during this mess, isn’t it?

Hope you’re doing ok babipot. Have you got anything a little more pleasant planned for after your scan tomorrow? I always found it helped to take myself off shopping for an hour or get a sauna after appointments.

Thanks for the best wishes, guys - I really appreciate it. This wait is driving me insane. I had a bit of a meltdown last night on account of my negativity about this cycle. I’m so scared of losing my little eggs and honestly don’t know how the hell I’ll find the strength to pick the pieces up again if this doesn’t work. It’s scary... I also think this progesterone is making me a little crazy.

Good luck in your 6 @frau, I hope you’re feeling a little better today.

How is everyone?

I had my first scan today, 10 good looking follicles and 4 tiny ones. Lining is looking great too which is a relief.

Instructions from clinic is no change of dosage on Menopur and start the Cetrotide tonight as well, at the same time. Another scan on Friday and fly out on Saturday.

I’m having a blank moment as I can’t for the life of me remember, do you inject Menopur on one side of the stomach and then Cetrotide on the other side? So opposite sides? I’m sure that’s right but I think I might be over thinking it and have for myself in a bit of a tiz

Great to catch up on your news, guys; kwick excited for you, flights booked and everything!

roule welcome - and thank god there's no fucking baby dust in your wake

babipot how are things today?

Frau wishing you lots of luck with your 6 frau-lets

jamon, pyjamas81 and others, hope you're doing OK!

And I know I said it already, but yay for you @polkadotpixie cracking news!! A selfish question from me (and for anyone else who's had an HSG) - were you also told to abstain for the test cycle, and were you given rough cycle days to aim for? Did the dreaded Googling (Bad Quiet) and seemed to be conflicting info...

geeup I have everything crossed for you, I can't imagine the pressure of these few days. Sending a massive hug xx

@QuietTime I was told it needed to be done between CD7-10 and any sex before the test in that cycle needs to be protected

After the test they told me to it was fine to try and really make the effort to do it as much as possible because it was most effective at helping fertility the first month but has a positive effect for a few months 😊

@QuietTime Sorry, also forgot to say they said it can delay ovulation a bit (it did mine from my usual CD14/15 to CD17)

Thanks folks! No phonecalls today to tell me it’s all been cancelled (been staring at the damn thing all day awaiting bad news - really need to snap out of this negativity!)

Antonia fab that everything is looking good so far! For the injections, my clinic told me to start at the edge of my stomach and work inwards, alternating between left and right (also alternating between gonal f and cetrotide to spread them out). Tricky to remember which side to do on any given day, but I found a great advantage to this .... when I did my final hcg jab, I knew I could go straight for the middle directly under my navel and because I hadn’t used this site before it therefore made things a lot easier.

I found this also negated going for a spot I’d already used, although that did still happen on occasions - auuaaa!

geeup- I have my fingers crossed, it must be so difficult having been through this before. I really hope it works out for you.

Thanks for the welcome quiet, yep, no baby dust or fucking baby dancing here- who thinks up these ridiculous terms?!

Antonia- great news about your lining & being ready to go

kwick-A fan of Legoland eh? Seems it's not to be missed!

Frau- glad it's been positive news (or no negative news). It's hard to look on the bright side amongst all this shit isn't it? Agree it's good to have some normality with OH's otherwise it all becomes about ttc/infertility.

Hope everyone else is well

Well, shag week has commenced in the roule household. Mustn't overdo it- managed to give myself a uti last month due to being a tad overzealous. Not that it made any fucking difference.

Hi quiet got my scan today so am bricking it really and truly. That’s why I have been wide awake at 5 am.

Hope everyone is doing ok??

@geeup oh I do so hope you get your BFP!!!

@FrauNeuer how you doing? This is such a rollercoaster ride!!! And hate those!

@Babipotjam best of luck with scan!

Good luck today @Babipotjam - please try not to worry. It'll be ok.
I'm afraid I'm bfn again. Defo not worked this time again. Am so sad.

I haven't been on this thread for a while but I'm so sorry to hear about the BFN gee. Take care of yourself

Thanks polka that's really helpful to know

Hope the scan goes OK, babi, and the anxiety eases

Oh gee I'm so so sorry - are you working today? Take care of yourself xx

@Geeup I am so sorry I'm devastated for you. This is all so unfair xx

So sorry @geeup .. there are no words 😔

Gee I am so so very sorry, I really thought this would be it for you. I'm angry and sad for you, you don't deserve this.

Have you got a follow up wtf appointment booked?

Fuck fucking infertility 😠😞

So sorry to hear this gee. It's just not fair. There aren't any words but I just wanted to send love x

geeup I’m so sorry to hear that. Absolutely gutted for you. This whole thing makes me so angry, it really does. So unfair. I really hope you manage to get some answers when you’re ready. Take care in the meantime xxx

kwick thanks mate, feeling a little better today. Bloody hormones all over the place.

Hope the scan went ok babipot

God, I hate this shit.

geeup- I'm so sorry. It's shit, horrible & unfair.

Gee I'm so sorry. Be kind to yourself. Do what you need to do. Laugh, cry, scream...

Hope scan went alright Frau.

I'm heading to our ivf info meeting. And my parents are trapped without power, gas or water after the mudslides which have destroyed my hometown. Which is also shit...

Thanks everyone especially those of you who aren't on here much anymore who came to give me your support. It means a lot.
No further action at the moment. OTD isn't till Tuesday (which is ridiculous) so I have to keep taking the oestrogen and progesterone till then despite the fact it's very clear it hasn't worked.
No idea what I'll do next. Still 2 remaining Frosties left for one more FET but with three failed cycles behind me, it seems mad to just go again with no change and there's nothing left for the clinic suggest. Am considering maybe looking into immunes testing to do alongside my final FET (but my clinic wouldn't support that).
The hardest thing is I'm also starting to consider what plan b is as not sure we'll do further private treatment after four failed NHS cycles. We're not currently open to adoption or surrogacy (although very supportive of others doing those things!) so we need to start considering what life looks like with no children in it. So hard when I never ever considered that as a life. A big thing to get our heads round.

Oh god I am so so sorry gee, my heart breaks for you. Take care of yourself and do what you need to do - scream, cry, I find punching pillows helps too. There are no words, but I'm thinking of you.

Sorry everyone not on the thread much these days, but hope you're all doing ok. Starting round 3 tomorrow with sniffing Synarel and after no improvement in DH sperm dna fragmentation, Dr Ramsay has recommended surgical sperm retrieval which we're going ahead with. Hopes aren't high, but will give it the best we've got. It's all we can do.

I am so sorry gee - I know there's not a lot I can say to help, but sending virtual love to you. This is so hard xxx

It's a massive thing to get your head around gee and I'm so sorry it's come to to this. Are you having any counselling? It might help both of you to work out next steps.

Did the hospital give you much steer on trying another fet or not, or why it's not working?