Ah congratulations Bear!!


Blue I hope you're doing OK after your gas shocker - you poor thing!


CSA - fabulous news about your scan, so happy for you


Lolly what a fabulous cake! So glad you had a lovely evening - you deserve it!


I'm so SO thrilled that you ladies have got BFPs and are now navigating the (albeit fucking terrifying and frantically anxious) stages of early pregnancy and beyond


And as one always hopes with a cycle buddies thread, it's just the best outcome when ladies who've been able to support each other through treatment, can the continue to support each other through the ongoing rollercoaster post BFP


But as I'm not even remotely close to being able to cycle, and just sat on the bench of boredom trying to thrash my stupid ovaries and uterus into gear, I think it might be best for me to haul ass back to the long-term barren corners (failure stories and mind numbing boredom) . I don't want to bring the thread down with the latest crap updates in the sorry saga of my reproductive organs. And to be honest, I think I need to step back from the thread for self preservation, as I'm feeling very very low at the moment, and I'm not sure I'm strong enough to follow ongoing pregnancy updates. I so, so, very much want to hear all your good news. And hope I will pop back in to check in on how you're doing. Please, please, don't feel you're doing or have done anything wrong by talking about your BFP experiences. That's what cycle buddies threads are for! It's all on me. I'm just not feeling resilient enough, so please forgive me for bailing on you lovely, wonderful, fabulous and oh so supportive ladies.


My latest, FWIW, is that despite a promising scan, my bloods were a shocker. My oestrodial was a paltry 89. For context, when you're checking someone is sufficiently down regulated - ie the ovaries are completely quiet - oestrodial should be under 200. So 89 would suggest mine weren't just quiescent, but completely switched off at the mains. Except they weren't. There was a 10-11mm dominant follicle, some smaller ones that had begun to recruit, and lining of somewhere around 6mm. So apparently my follicles might as well not be there for all the oestrogen they're not producing. I am totally baffled by these results, as it seems is my consultant, judging by the explanatory letter which accompanied the results. Just have to hope the Gonal-F gives some of the follicles a kick up the arse and we can get my natural oestrogen levels up. Urgh. I just feel utterly defective at every turn. I can't metabolise artificial oestrogen. I can't produce enough oestrogen. And even when my lining does eventually grow, or doesn't shed


Stabbing with 100iu Gonal-F nightly and back on Weds for more bloods and a repeat scan.


Sigh. Anyway that's the latest in my depressing saga. FUN TIMES!