The mind numbing boredom of infertility II

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This is a thread for peole who really want to get pregnant but can't, who have tried pretty much everything, and are really fucked off about it.

Have you ever nearly punched someone for advising you to "relax", "go on holiday" or "just get drunk - that's what we did"? Well then this is the thread for you.

You won't find much sentimentality here and there's no baby dust, but there is empathy, a lot of swearing and a surpirsing amount of glittery dog shit.

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four I'm so so sorry for your losses

Have you had any investigations for recurrent miscarriage? I know the NHS tests are somewhat limited, but the RMC clinic at Coventry with Prof Quenby and Brosens takes self referrals and they are absolutely terrific.

Sorry if I'm teaching grandma to suck eggs - I have two friends who also suffered 4 devastating losses, and it was only once they got private investigations done that they got the relevant treatment (and I'm happy to say both are now in their second trimesters after having said treatment)

I've only had one loss, but the tissue testing showed the baby was chromosomally normal and so wasn't just 'bad luck' - and other investigations identified potential problem areas, that hopefully with relevant treatment will give us a better outcome after our next embryo transfer (antibiotics for ureaplasma, thyroxine to get TSH under 2, slightly elevated NK cells so adding in steroids, clexane, aspirin, intralipids and extra progesterone, endometrial scratch to help lining)

Keeping everything crossed for your upcoming cycle x

I have had all the nhs tests and everything is normal. Apart from the first mc which was eight weeks, the rest were very early.

They are aware of it so hopefully can guide me when and if we get to that point.

I am breaking all the rules tonight and I'm going to drink wine and eat crap and watch BGT with niece and nephew. Was not drinking but af arrived so stuff it.

My Facebook is showing me more appropriate adverts for a change:

shit the bed potatoes, I've not been on for a while but your ordeal sounds fucking horrific. You poor thing, glad you got into a hospital & proper attention.

Not much from me. Day 10 of downregging and starting to feel it. Tummy is getting v tender & trying to find a bit that's not been stabbed yet is harder! Still having to psyche up for it, so getting OH to do it for me when he's in. I can do it when no choice, but frankly it's one less thing.

Feel like it's catching up with me now. No symptoms last week really but today I've wanted to cry twice, I'm bloated, I feel shit and it's horrible. My boss has 3 line whipped me into going to some fucking "meet the lawyers" drinks. I tried to duck out but to no avail. Dreading it. Baseline scan on Friday then phase 2. karla how you doing? You said no symptoms this far, hopefully it'll stay that way!

Apologies other barren fiends, not being active Fred member. Welcome lurkybarrens, sorry you're here, but since you are I've got your membership present [doles out glittershit]

Potatoes> Hope you are recovering ok, what a horrible thing to happen. Your EPU sounds like it's utter shit, and you should complain if you have enough energy (or the inclination) left after all the crap you've had to put up with over the last few months...

Checking in to see how everyone is doing and esp potatoes.

So AF arrived and I made the call to the clinic. Going in on Friday for baseline scan and to get stabbing bits and pieces for IUI round 1...

I guess it's really real then? I am going to voluntarily stab myself with hormones? On Menopur I think - any advice / things to watch out for?

Glittery dog shits all round. X

Hi everyone - mind if I join? I am about to start my fourth IVF in 18 months (the previous three being BFN) and my God I'm bored of this. I feel like I'm existing in a fog: doing all the usual human activities (staying employed, etc), but with my mind constantly on this other thing.

I start injections this week, just waiting for AF, and after hovering over this thread, thought I'd join properly.

Hope everyone is doing OK. x

Hi ladies
been pottering around a few threads on here but i think maybe this is the one for me!
Feeling bloody fed up after 2 years ttc#1. Had all the usual prodding andpoking about and got no explanation for my infertility. Got given 3 cycles of clomid and on 3rd now. Cd16 and cbfm still no blooming LH.
In RL work in an office with two other girls who have both announced unplanned pregnancy this week. REALLY??!! Does that even happen!
Not been telling anyone as tbh feel ashamed and can't be arsed with all the questions and patronising advice.
totally get what you mean about the fog pepper. ..

Hello all, especially new folk. I see that you're as mind-numbingly bored and over it as the rest of us barren IVF fiends. Sorry to hear about your travails but you're in the right place to offload. Especially about those smug effortless instadiffas. They can fuck right off.

Icy, loving lurkybarrens as a collective noun. I'm going to use it wherever possible clearly only going to be on this thread

Potatoes glad you're home and really really hope the sodding medical professionals have sorted you out.

Glittery dogshit to everyone else and all the lurkybarrens (

Hello all, especially new folk. I see that you're as mind-numbingly bored and over it as the rest of us barren IVF fiends. Sorry to hear about your travails but you're in the right place to offload. Especially about those smug effortless instadiffas. They can fuck right off.

Icy, loving lurkybarrens as a collective noun. I'm going to use it wherever possible clearly only going to be on this thread

Potatoes glad you're home and really really hope the sodding medical professionals have sorted you out.

Glittery dogshit to everyone else and all the lurkybarrens (

Potatoes sorry to hear what you're going through

So just returned from a surprise meal for my friends b day. I was the only barren one there and boy you could tell! 95% of the time was spent talking about their children. It just all feels so far away for us. It's day 109 of my cycle today so hoping the inofolic works soon! Rant over...

Potatoes I've just seen your awful ordeal. I'm so sorry and hope you're getting help with this. You poor thing

icy stabbing is going ok for me at the moment. Not really any symptoms that I have noticed but then again, only on day 10 of stabbing. Got my first down reg scan on Thursday, fingers crossed the ovaries are doing their thing!
Hey to everyone else out there, old and new!
Snow in April... What the flip! 🌨🌦

Ooh you're leapfrogging me on baseline scanning! I'm going on Friday. Got "dentist" in my diary.

Currently applying for a job for the foreign office that would require travel three times a year to Africa as my back up option. If IVF doesn't work then I'll need a big change to make life bearable I think. Cv drafting at the moment. Snow, sleet, rain. Was a gorgeous crisp February-esque day on the way in today. Ah well at work anyway! Might as well shit it down.

Loving the use of 'dentist'. 😄

Oh yes, I am forever at the dentist. My teeth are immaculate ;)

Still no AF. If it doesn't come soon I will have to start on the AF inducing pills and they make me really farty, so hoping to avoid that really.

Hi all, thanks for your lovely messages and good wishes. I'm doing fine, back at work, in total denial about what happened and trying to get promoted cos baby clearly not on the cards for a while. On the plus side, I lost the final half stone of pregnancy wieght in five hours of heavy bleeding so that's nice.

I appreciate everyone's anger on my behalf, but honestly the doctors and nurses have all been great. Someone has to be the 0.2% for whom it all goes wrong. They followed their protocols, for some reason my tests showed something different from what my body did. And when it did all go to shit, A&E were fucking amazing. I am very grateful for the care I have received, and I am safe and well now. Tomorrow I'm going to the picket up at the hospital to support the junior doctors with cake.

I do read all the posts and wish everyone well on their ivf journeys. I feel a little out of step with the thread at the moment, not really knowing what's next and not on the ivf road or even moving forward at all. So I might lurk for a bit and pop in later. Perhaps when we debate if it's going to be midnumbing 3 or mindnumbing III

However I will still be here cheering you on from the side lines. And I will leap in again later when I get the fire back and move out of denial into righteous indignation once more. Good luck, Infertility Fiends.

potatoes so glad to read you're on the mend. I can understand that you need a little break from all this for a while. Best of luck with the job promotion.
I am sure the Jnrs will love some cake. I am supporting them at my hospital today 🤘🏽
icy and karla best of luck with you scans this week. Hope they show things are progressing in the right direction.
banana how are you? I am I correct in thinking you're having another ERPC today? Apologies if not, but if so, I hope it all goes ok and you're home recovering v.soon.
laura you still out there? Hope everything is going well!
pepper Sod's law that AF will not show. Plan a romantic night and it will show up to ruin it
barsons the company at your meal sounds dreadful. Hope you had a few drinks to get through it.
mandy your office sounds like a real living nightmare. I know what you mean about not sharing this with people in RL. Makes me mad that we feel shame or guilt. People should be more aware of how many people are affected by infertility and that it is not our fucking fault
Hello to everyone one else. Hope you're all plodding along.
Dog shit to all of you.
I am still waiting for a call re delivery of my drugs!! GIVE ME MY DRIGS!! They're no use to me yet anyway, but I want them in my possession ASAP.

Hello, please can I join ? I was on another IVF thread but it's gone very quiet there

I had mild IVF last April and due to ohss had a freeze all. FET on October last year and feb this year both bfn. Doing mild IVF again in June after 3 months of supplements for me and dh.

The waiting is awful!

Mind if I join ladies. I'm currently on 100mg clomid and 1500mg metformin and yesterday I got my first ever positive opk! But I've had sharp crampy type pains on my left side only. Is this just ovulation pain I'm having?

Hello fiends - old, new, and lurkybarrens

Hope you're all doing OK - wilkommen und bienvenue to the newbies, happy stabbing to the stabbers, to those joining me on the bench of boredom and glittery dogshit to you all

Hysto yesterday went well . 'Hysteroscopy with curettage' sounds so much more elegant than 'D&C with vag cam'.

The good news is that there were indeed some teeny fragments of retained tissue, so minute that makes sense they didn't show up on ultrasound. Consultant said he might have got them first time round if he'd given the bowl a damn good scraping clean - but as I've said before, that would have left my lining in tatters, which would have been a disaster. He said I was in theatre a bit longer than usual as he took quite a while because he wanted to be really super gentle, even with the camera - now everything's had a clean and polish hopefully will get on track. Everything looked in decent nick apparently, he's done a uterine biopsy which will serve as a turbo endometrial scratch.

Follow up for 2 weeks when he'll scan me. If hormones are normal and ovaries are quiet then we can crack on.

Sod's law my hCG will now drop to zero in record time and my cycle will start up again, and ovaries won't be quiet, and I'll be back on the bench of boredom. Will email secretary to see if I can come in for a beta or two in the mean time.

Hope you're all doing ok x

Can I join you?

We've been ttc for over 9 years. We've had three cycles of clomid and 2 IUI's. Our third IUI was cancelled as I'd already ovulated at my last scan. We decided to try naturally and I ended up conceiving. I miscarried the baby about 10 days ago.

I have a hospital appointment in June when I think we'll get the go ahead for IVF.

I'm terrified of miscarrying again and at 36 I feel as though time is running out.

Welcome newbies. Sorry your here but glad you found us.

Went for my first down reg scan today. Lining nice and thin and ovaries are sleeping. So starting the gonal F and menopur tonight.
Having a demo of all the mixed and shaking at 7.30 in the morning prob not the greatest plan but I will give it a go!

Evening regulars and lurkybarons,

I'm meh tonight. I feel I am having a hard time at home, and at work, but I also have this voice in my head saying it's not the it's you......I don't know if I'm justified in my tears. Fairly new as a poster to the thread but would appreciate a sounding board if anyone's around?

Sophie, I'm not so clued up on chloride but welcome and I'm sure more knowledgeable people will be along.

Finding my feet, massive glittery hand hold to you, again, much better people,will come along but you sound at a similar point to me, except my last mc was a 18 months ago. We are next at hospital 6 May and have decided to go ahead with IVF. Please give yourself sometime to rest, and process. I also feel time is running out and think that's contributing to my tears. I don't even trust my own judgement anymore, gah.

Waiting, june is when we start, can I ask a really stupid question, what is mild IVF? Is that what I will be doing? God is so confused.

Potato, glad you are feeling on the mend.

You are all an amazing support and I do truly appreciate it.

Hello all, I'm ashamed to admit I've been lurking throughout my last (2nd) IVF cycle, which failed this morning. We got to a 2dt this time, which is a step further than last time when we got fuck all fertilisation, but despite the positivity from the clinic I think the 2 embryos they put back were a bit shit.

I (obviously) tested early, so got a false positive last week, followed by a negative the day after, and I started spotting from my shit body yesterday, so pretty much knew there was a negative result heading my way. I should say our way, because as my other half keeps reminding me "it's not all about me", even though I kinda feel like it is. Selfish, I know.

Anyways, will be taking myself out for a run later, which I hate, but have missed during the past few weeks, and eating through my pain for one day only, then I'm on a mission to shift the weight gain.

Hello to all bored folks, love that I get to throw glittery dogshit around, although I'm afraid there isn't much glitter on mine today, and it's stinking. But still, rather that than the dreaded baby dust. I mean who even came up with that? Surely that's dust made from crushed up babies? Wtf?