I have just spent a few days in bed, wallowing in a bit of self-pity, but the doctor did say it was cellulitis(sp?), what ever it is, it is quite painful but the antibiotics seem to work and are starting to take affect now.
Cheeseball is well, she has told me I can tell you that she has made contact with an 'outreach worker' from a womens aid organisation. She seems to be getting some support as far as her home situation is concerned, which is good. She often asks about the MNetters and I tell her that you lot are ALWAYS asking for news about her, because that is how much you care.
I think that the thread I started, 'Southall Guilty' should be linked to this one somehow. I do not know what to think at the moment. I put my reply on that thread but I guess that it is as equally as aplicable to this one.
"....., I turn on the computer and start to read through all of this and I am rarely, as most of you realise, 'gobsmacked' I must admit when I first posted my story and heard about Meadows being exposed I thought, 'Great' but did not expect it to change anything, or for it to have affected too many people. As things have gone on, over the last 6 months, I am in disbelief!
How could a group of doctors, who we entrust the most precious thing that we have, our children, unto them, betray us like this? Why? I really do not understand WHY? Was it self-advancement in their proffession, or was it for money, as has been sugested by one mother, when she told me how much they got for a court appearance as an 'expert'. How could they have hidden this from everyone for so long, and that includes me, as I said I thought I or at least my case was a mistake and I did not expect it to generate the support I have received.
I think I need to go and digest this some more (and then be sick ) ".
I really do not understand how this happened in the first place, then it was hidden for 15 years and now that the truth is becoming known, no one wants to know, such as the Local Authorities, and I get the feeling if they could bury it, and they are trying very hard to, that they would.
Looking back I think it was easier to cope with my feelings when I thought that I was an isolated case and it was all just a mistake. Now that I know about the 'Munch Bunch' all of the families they have destroyed. How no one in a position of power really seems to want to uncover the truth, like MP's or Social Services. It seems that which ever way you turn you are in the wrong, because once you have the MSBP label you will never be right. Anything that you do and say will always be twisted around to their advantage.
I think I need to get back to my 'bed-rest' and I need to think things through as the last few months have put such a different perspective on things and I almost feel as if I must do what is right, for my children, but I also owe it to the other parents to do what I can, which is not much. Had other parents not already 'stood up' and told their stories or I had not received your support I would have given up. I now know that I owe it to everyone to do what is right. That is the hard bit. Doing something, like writing a letter of compaint to the solicitors who destroyed my notes without getting emotional. I think It is for me a very emotional topic and one that brings out all sorts of emotions but that is NOT what I should be writing. It is hard to stick to just the plain facts when you know that they are incorrect, so how do I cope?
Sorry, this seems to have turned into one of Bunglies Lo-o-o-ng postings. I should skip this one if I were you and wait for the next one. I have sent ds 2 texts and a birthday card as it was his 19th birthday yesterday. I am sad because for 13 years I have never been able to celebrate his birthdays with him. I want my son back but now I realise I am never going to have that, I am going to, if I am lucky be able to build up a relationship with a young man, who will never know how much he and his sister are and always have been loved.
Better stop now, I need a good cry ....again!