desperate fag quitter! Anyone similar, fancy mutual support group?!

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To my shame it's about my 167th attempt to quit fags... anyone out there trying the same who would like to start a support thingie here where we can rant and vent our frustrations and praise each other? I'm starting tomorrow...

I do short pieces when I get asked mm which isn't very often. have to start another book - publishers want another novel by jan which is atcually a bit of a rush. gulp.......

will be fine tho, brain is feeling in better shape & (this is v weird) I always thought I couldn't concentrate when I stopped smoking, but have recently found that concentration is better -also not wasting a third of a work day chuffing outside by that bin!!

Now spending half of day posting on MN instead FG
Nervous breakdown here, crying etc Gonna go with it though, the sooner its out of my system the better

oh cc, don't feel blue! good idea to get out of system though. these things are worse pented up and are rather like the toxins your body is getting rid of. actually, it's quite liberating to cry time to time, v. healthy i think. that's probably because i'm ALWAYS crying about something ciggies or no ciggies

are you just down or is there something in particular bothering you at mo?

I wasnt down I was fine, Dp said something to me and I took it the wrong way, apparently, and I just thought ffs, at least once a week he says something and I just think What a Bloody Insult, you wouldnt say that to anyone else...the "go and have a fag" was the other days...and so, without my nicotine patch I just dissovled into tears, tryed to smash a dish on the way out the back door and had a big old cry.
Better now

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not at all cc, i was just thinking yesterday was i the only one who has arguments like that. dh does it as well! i don't know if it's because i'm a SAHM, in which case we deserve MORE respect! i keep telling him he's got to talk to me better than he does sometimes - he doesn't talk to his colleagues like that!!

we're always divorcing over this. at LEAST once a week

Its not good though, is it? I dont do it to him...it wouldnt occur to me too...anyway, went to sainsburys and realised I was nearing the fag counter, couldnt help but do this: as i strolled right past

yeah cc, you just walk past those kiosks...they're for MY cravings only!!! well done though, i seriously know what it's like when you've had a 'discussion' with the other half, if anything deserves a fag, it's one of those. But, being the angels htat we are now, no more temptation for us

Did you find your oils?!!

I didnt and ive been down the back of the pc, I had the bottle yesterday morning b4 we went out...and of course no memorie of where I may have put it down, house is tidy as well, its very odd and very annoying. no I could understand if it was a teensy bottle but...

is your magnum opus finished yet or wot fg?

are you okay cc, did you stick a patch on in the end and what happened to the gum? too much jaw-ache...?!! always a problem

where is everyone else?

Watching dvd with kids, scooby doo.... had a herbal ciggy tonight cough cough...made me feel ill...was ok without patch, been chewing when I can, on phone to friend and dont want to interupt dvd....missing scoobs though..

cc these feelings will go and you'll wake up tomorrow feeling so glad that you resisted. Could you sneak off for a nice long bath, get some time on your own? Am sure that this is your mind going as bit doolally cos you don't have a patch on today and for the first time there's no nicotine in your system. It makes us crazy. Every time I've given up I've had crying fits like you describe. Crying - over fags!! But it's not that of course - it's the awful anger & tension withdrawal symptoms create - just an illusion, as your sugar daddy A.C. might say!!

Maybe you need to follow the patches instructions by the letter & gradually reduce your dose. One time I had the bright idea of cutting the patches smaller & smaller each day until I was wearing one the size of a little finger nail. Of course I went out and bought fags & smoked myself daft!

Come on cc, you've been brilliant for the rest of us, so strong & supportive - you can do this. It will be out of your (and all of our) lives and we'll all be so pleased & proud that - as I think you said - we all met in such a positive way. You've been a massive help to me and you can do this.

sorry to be so late posting tonight - went for run, helped tensions no end, managed 50 minutes! Shouted at boys though cos it's doing my head in that they settle to sleep so late (10pm, they are seven & knackered in morning for school). Have enforced playstaion/gameboy ban for rest of week or until they can be asleep by nine... nothing to do with fags of course!! It's ust that when I quit, I start banning things...

DH on day 2 and in furious temper, maniacally ironing his shirt for work tomorrow. He can barely speak or see properly.

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mm, by magnum opus do you mean book?! Sorry to be dummy... Yeah it's done or at least sent to editor, she is v 'thorough' tho and I fully expect that I'll have to make more changes... lion's share is done tho.

Was looking forward to lovely eve with dh cos don't have to work - some wine & nice chat & other stuff etc (!)- but he's too furious to talk to anyone. Have massaged his back. Have yet to receive massage...

Awwww poor DH!!!! Herbal fag as in hashish...didnt dive for it the way I have in the past just thought...mmmmm ill have one of those later, so I did dont panic, not going back to 30 a day would rather chop my head off, to echo your feelings about having more kiddies...
WoW running for that long, I salute you, 5 mins and id be laying on the floor begging for mercy.
Could you put all the clocks backwards half an hour in your house tommorow? Then you could get the boys in bed earlier and they if its mind over matter settle earlier...then you could put the clocks back?!!!
Bizarre idea, just remembered I used to put the clocks forward to 8.55 so I wouldnt have to go to school Told my mum id get into more trouble being late than I would not going in at all
P.S I want my oils....

nice idea re clocks cc but they can't tell time yet as I - bad mother - haven't taught them yet... maybe PS/gameboy ban sounds a bit severe but we really are at end of tether. I have a real aversion to kids being up late!! We get no time on our own. What time do your girls go to bed?

is the 'herbal' with tobacco?! I know someone who smoked it in a pipe thingie cos she didn't want to encounter tobacco... sounds a bit 'undilted' to me - makes me paranoid and unable to communicate anyhow.

I meant to type 'undiluted'!

Both of mine go to be at anytime between 7 and 8.30, Tasha stays up till 9-9.30 in bed reading and writing in her diary, tanya falls fast asleep instantly. Tasha probably should get to stay up later than Tanya, but I cant be bothered with the agro of Tanyas...thats not fair...and im not 100% convinced that Tasha would fall asleep any earlier. And as noones mentioned it...well I wont either
Tasha needs her own space to chill b4 she goes to sleep...honest nah, she doesnt complain...who am I trying to convince here??!!
I had it with some Old Holburn, would have had it with a pipe if we had one, but we dont.
Cant have put that much in it as im still funtional, usually I lay on the bed dribbling and giggling and then wake up thinking Jeesus, now I know why I dont do that very often

Oh Congratulations on finishing your book! Glad mm had you stuck on a word too...not just me and my Phillistines then is it?! Thats nice to know!
Does it have a title yet? Have I already asked that? De Ja Vu..

ha ha, when you said herbal, i thought you meant those yucky things you get that are supposed to be a substitute for the finger twitching! LOL when i realised. mmm...that sounds good tho, i haven't done that in ages. last time was about 3/4 yrs ago and i did it in front of the tv on my own whilst dh played playstation. packed a bit too much in and promptly chatted myself to death whilst sliding off the sofa unable to control my jelly body. mean stuff that last lot didn't know if i'd get into trouble talking about this here but it's legal now isn't it? the bong's not too undiluted fg, but then i've never done it on my own and since you're supposed to pass round, i guess you'd get high pretty quickly if you had no-one to share with! shall i stop now, sounding a bit too enthusiastic

ds1 now goes to bed at 9.30 which is too late really but assumed it was summertime. people have told us that it gets earlier the older they get, but you've put paid to that idea fg!! i don't fancy my chances with 2 boys and their energy levels

wow for 50mins tho!! that's brilliant! and well done on the draft too, hope ed's not too ruthless

off to bed now - if you don't find your oils soon cc, i'll make up some more, but you'll have to hang on in there for a week maybe as i haven't ordered the carrier oil yet!

oh guys, forgot to ask - can you think up some names for what i can call my oils if i sell them on ebay e.g. other companies are called aromakids, earth mother aromatherapy etc... Cheers!

Got my thinking head on...but a bit fuzzy, you know usually I think of something good when the deadlines passed so dont hold your breath!
I have been known to post small samples of herbal, and once I even recieved some in a goverment agency envelope
So I guess youve had a good day then MM? How often is it in your head now, like on a scale of 1-10? Id say im still about 9 with good bits of the day and bad bits but never quite forgetting, I cant wait till I get those 3 hour long stints when you realise you havent thought about fags. I will be so if any of you say your there yet!

No am def 'not there' yet cc but it isn't too bad, around an 8 (if 10 is feeling completely okay & normal!) Would love to be free of ciggie thoughts by my 40th in oct.

You make me feel better about late bedtimes girls - have softened now & am gonna make it a one day ps/gameboy ban and not a week (hard hearted mother! always stucks to her guns....) & also take them out on bike ride at end of today so their day's not too horrid! Have to fix a ruddy bike first - hate fiddling with puncture repair kits. Would ask dh but he went off to work sweating madly & looking like he was about to explode.

apols for lack of photos girls, am rubbish at sending pics but will get act together... better get some work done folks, good luck for today - keep on chomping cc, and avert your eyes from them kiosks mm!

Had a nice moment in co op (!) yesterday when checkout girl said, 'Do you want anything else?' and I glipsed all the silk cut packets and said; NO THANK YOU!!

Fear that dh will crack up, hope he doesn't. A friend is coming round tonight to give us each a massage, she does v cheap deal, what a treat!

cc I fear there is an oil thief in your midst... please nip out & buy something from boots to tide you over, you'll feel a lot better...

really MUST work now!
xxx ps no title yet cc

will have a think re aromatherapy names mm!

I had a look through all my smellys last night and there wasnt anything vaguely as lush as MMs oils so I ended up just dusting the bottles and tins as there was just no comparison. I am going to sort out 2 piles of clothes that are in the hall waiting to be put away, im hoping I might have put it there and then put more stuff on top. if its not there, then im totally lost as to where it is.
Those supermarket moments are Excellent makes it all worth it.
Has dh spoken to you about how hes feeling or is he just a big raging bubble waiting to pop?
Has he read Allen Carr? Sounds like hes going to get so stressed when he does have a fag it will have the illusion of being sooooo goood it will be a while b4 he trys again
Hope he doesnt though.
MM, havent thought of 1 decent name yet, how are you today?