The Anxiety Club- part 3!

[blissa]

Couldn't think of a more imaginative title!

Hi girls

I posted a reply on the other thread and now it's too big to reply to, so here we are a nice sparkly new thread!

xx

Hey choclab
feeling ok today- heartburn but minus such all is well. got cuddles and icecream
Sorry to hear about your day... hopefully you will find the bag. Clothes shopping can be a nightmare. Good luck hope the head feels better.

Hope everyone else is well today

Lola x

Hi everyone!

Choc and Kildare, im SO pleased for you about your scans!!! Fab news!!

Its good to be back ive missed posting here! Dont know how DH fixed it but he said it may happen again Hope everyone is ok!

Ive had a good few days, have been to a big shopping centre with my girls which is amazing really, i havent been for so long because of my anxiety and have only ever rushed through it with DH. DD's and i had a look around the disney store It was lovely. Kept thinking "i cant believe im here and calm!" Haha. Then i went alone with baby DD2! DH gave me his card and told me to treat myself to new clothes so off i went Spent 2 hours there and then started to feel funny Couldn't shake it off so left. Im still proud of myself though

Had to send DH on DD's school trip though, didnt feel i could manage it so feeling bad about that Although DD was thrilled that daddy was going with her. I should have been there though. Keep telling myself that i have been really quite ill with this and am doing so well, baby steps and all that...

My anxiety is bad today and i dont know why...feel breathless and shaky...lightheaded etc. Hate feeling like this. Tomorrow is parents evening at school so its probably because im worried about that. Dont want to go Hoping i can keep it together while there..last time i was in the hall at school watching DD's play i had to leave for a few mins to get a grip. I was heavily preg though so that didnt help...

Sorry for the essay about myself!

Sooo how has everyone been? Congratulations piggy!!!

Hope you are all well

NEMT nice to have you back missed you ...

sounds like a good day out with DH and DC , i love the Disney store my 2 love it in there , not many around near us as so many closed down ..
did you get any nice clothes ? dont worry about the little wobble at the end , think of how well you did shopping mauls are always the worst so i think you should be very proud of yourself

Your prob feeling a little anx about tomorrow evening i expect ,try to think of it another way ...think your going to hear how well your DD is doing and what shes been up to ,im sure it will be worth going and you will be pleased you did ...try deep breaths before you go into hall i find that can help alot .

i went back to shopping maul to find bag ..which i did and managed to go in a couple os shops and bought some clothes ..sooooo much easyier without the DC ...so lesson learnt there lol..

feeling bit anx again today , saw something on SC ...freaked me out a bit as i have many moles and freckles ..BUT i do go every 6 months for scanning (for my own peace of mind ) as i worry ...got burnt when i was younger and went on sunbeds to havent for many years now though ...i know cover up and where factor 50 everywhere ...
i ordered sun tops for us all and factor 50 hats came today..which was quick so that will be good ..
i cant do any more than i doing i guess ....but still worries me ...

anyway must snap out of it...posotive mental attitude

how is everyone els doing ?

sorry for my big waffle ...

Hello ladies,
choclab - glad you found your bag again and enjoyed a bit of shopping. I sometimes worry about my moles and get DF (fiancé!!!) to check them for me (not that he's medically trained or anything ).
Lola - glad you got your ice cream and cuddles - I'm too hot, sticky and irritable for physical affection at the mo hehe
Neverenough - glad you're back and have had a really positive couple of days - maybe the anxiety today is just because you had a good day pushing yourself a bit yesterday? - I sometimes get a 'come down' day if I've done something I find stressful or difficult recently. Just another day that will pass and you can rack up the positive experiences

I finished another book club book today and am feeling pretty positive but got to do a long drive on Friday to uni and back so a little bit anxious about that but trying to put it out of my mind until it actually comes to Friday! xx

Ah thanks choc and piggy Yep will be doing the breathing thing before i go into the hall. It is the same hall where my whole anxiety problem started which is rather strange....DD is at my old school. The hall where i saw the boy faint all those years ago....eeekk.

Glad you managed to get some new clothes choc and sorry to hear you are anxious again. At least you know you are being scanned often so if anything does crop up it will be caught quickly

Piggy i think you are right about a come down day! Seems to always happen after a few good days!

What kind of book club are you in piggy? What do you do just borrow books or meet with a group? I need to start doing something, living again haha..bloody anxiety makes me try to avoid everything in life..would like to join some classes/clubs

How spooky for you neverenough that you have to go back to that hall where it all started. I'm not sure I would be able to so you are super brave for doing it!!
The book club is a children's/teenage fiction book club with me and four other people at the mo. I set it up when I moved here to try to make some friends and get some interests. It's the only thing I did for a while as I work from home so had no friends and didn't know anyone and was super anxious about going out and meeting people (I figured that an hour once a month in my local pub was about as 'safe' an option as I could get!). It was really scary sending random emails to people to try to start one up but a lovely school librarian was super keen and we sort of started it together. Just meet in a pub once a month and chat about books and general everyday life too

Ah good for you piggy!! Thats so brave, making up the club yourself! Wish you lived near me, i would come Sounds nice getting together once a month for a chat

Ive only been back in the hall once for the school play and had to leave for a few minutes...so not sure how i will deal with it. Thats what worries me...arghhh i just wish it was over. DH has said he will go alone if it makes me feel better but i already feel like im letting everyone down, and myself so i am going...i managed to smash my bottle of rescue remedy last week so haven't got that now..will take a bottle of icy water with me i think. Even though i know im using it as a "safe object"...whatever gets me through at the moment though i reckon..

Thanks for listening and sorry for going on

I have a 'safe object' - my smoky quartz crustal. I put in in my bra when I'm at work But I feel that as long as I get through the day and feel good then what's the harm?!
Whereabouts is everyone on thread? I'm in West Yorkshire. Wouldn't it be great if any of us were near each other!?

evening all

Piggy -well done for starting the book club ...i am so slow at reading and if dont read every day i loose the thread of the story and have to start over ...
i lve book shops though and have a number of half read hard back books by my bed lol
good distraction for anx i should think though .

NEMT- what time is your parents eve appt ? maybe if poss could you go into the hall at another time ie..day time , with a friend to maybe take time to look round get familiar again with it, slowly work through your fears and memories there , then maybe when you have to go there for something els you may not feel so anx ? just a thought , confronting the fear before it comes to you ..(if that makes sense )

im sure you will be fine , and good you have your DH support and understanding to help

wrapped up my sisters pressie ready to send tomorrow , put goddies for her DC to nice getting things through post , specially when your a litttle person ..

hope everyone els anx free as so quiet on here ?

It would be great if any of us were near eachother..im in manchester. Where are you choc? And everyone else?

Choc thanks for that. Its at 6pm. No time now to go there in the day..plus i'd be ok i think if it were just me and a couple of others but its whole rooms of people i cant do..where everyone is sat being all calm and normal and then there is me, wriggling around bright red face hot dizzy feeling sick and numb and screaming inside.....sat there silent holding it all in and afraid i will run screaming out of the place and look a complete fool......eeek.

And breathe. I struggled badly in each school assembly every single day for the rest of my school days after that one time the boy fainted...there was one teacher who i used to ask if i could nip to the loo before assembly (to try to calm myself down) im sure she knew i was anxious about something and i often caught her staring at me frowning..i wonder why she didn't speak to my mum about my wierd behaviour and try to help...that teacher often helps out in DD's class now. I feel sad and sick when i think its been 17 years, that teacher is older and has moved on in life, and thinks ive grown up and changed...yet im still the same anxious nervous wreck, nothing has changed if only she knew. 17 years is a long time.

Sorry on a bit of a downer tonight Thanks for listening. Night all, hope you all sleep well tonight

NEMT - i think your doing really well , and you will be ok tomorrow , deep breaths ... and just look forward to all the good things they will say about your DD
funny how things stick in your memory from years ago ..
hope you sleep well and feel bit better tomorrow .
night x

Afternoon everyone! Haven't been on internet as we had problem with our broadband. Don't ask me what!!! Anyway was onto Vodafone just now and got it sorted it out eventually

In great form myself, my ds1 finished school today (In Ireland, primary school kids get 8 weeks off!!!) We are heading off on our holidays to Spain on Friday for 2 weeks and I cannot wait!!! Flight is in the afternoon which is great.

Piggynad - Glad you are ok. Don't mind the Deputy Boss. Delighted you didn't quit. Keep strong, you are doing great.

Choclab - Shopping with kids can be very stressful. Glad you picked up more bits and pieces for your self. When and where are you heading off on hols?

NEMT - How are you today?

Right I have loads to do before Friday, so I need to get my arse in gear!!!

Hello all .

Kildare- bet all excited about your holiday and busy busy sorting stuff out ...hope you have a great time , 8 weeks off hols wow thats alot we have 6 weeks here .
were going away in 3 weeks to portugal so must start sorting bits out to ..

NEMT - how you doing today ? how tonight goes ok at parents evening .

Piggy- how you today ?

Blissa , yoummy, everyone els hope all enjoying the sunshine

Hi all,

piggy- the book club sounds great. Am gutted I live down south so bit of a commute to the pub! DP has banned me from buying anymore books- put me in a Waterstones and just that new book smell, ahh I'm a danger to myself and the bank card Hope you're ok.

Nemt- good to have you back hope the parents evening goes ok. I have various safe objects- mainly a long sleeved cardie to hide my hands and a scarf and sunnies if I can get away with it- no idea why. I must look like some kind of crap spy!

choclab- oooh portugal, sounds lovely! a beachy type affair? Portugese tarts are soo yummy. A sweet baked custard tart type thing. So am hungry now! Although by then I will definitely be a mummy by then hurrah! Hope you're ok

Kildare- spain oooh you lucky ladies off your hols- i love the packing and organising bit. Is yours a beachy, chilled out affair?
Sorry im so nosy! I get so excited about holidays even when they arent mine!

Blissa, Yommy hope all are well.

Am ok here tad extremely peed f'ed off dp didnt calculate my mat pay right so instead of having enough for the month I now have, well pretty much nothing. Not that I mind- I'm having a baby not going to be going far tbh but I had allocated money for a much needed cheapie haircut and a nursing bra. nothing I can do. Just save it and wait til August I guess. Wanted to treat myself, last babyfree time and what not. Half of it I'll need for hospital car parking sorry whinge over.

Hope everyone is ok in this heat. Though, tutt, tutt looks like rain coming our way soon.

Lola x

Hello ladies,
kildare and choclab - jealous of you off on your hols We're not off on a big hol this year (my fault as didn't think I could handle the stress of planning one and travelling ) But we're off to visit bro at the beginning of September on south coast near Chichester. Also should really be saving up! We're thinking of March next year for the wedding and was initially hoping to do it for under 2k but have found lovely venue and think it might have to be 4k

Neverenough - how are you today? Leeds to Manchester isn;t too far - we might have to do anxiety meet up !

Lola - I have hundreds of books but embarrassingly have only read about half - I just love buying them and touching them and sniffing them (sound like a fetichist!!) How annoying about the mat pay Maybe someone will treat you with a voucher for your hair done as a post-baby treat? (Maybe hint to dp!?)

I'm ok but am dreading July to be honest - it's July last year that my anxiety kicked off badly and I know this is irrational but I keep thinking that maybe it was the time of year that set me off or maybe the 'funny turns' that started it off will come back. Just going to take one week at a time I think.

Hope everyone else is ok xxx

morning all .

how is everyone ?
NEMT -how did Parents evening go ? hope your doing ok ?

not to good today , been up in the night with worry ,crying my mum is going into hospital today to have range of tests and bood transfusion , i have full details on another thread ..(general health , alcoholic mum)
got to go to work to , may have to call in sick i dont know if i can cope today ...

sorry in need of vertual hug please and someone to listen ...

sorry called alcohol concern , if want to have a look , just read last post by me or your be there all day , explains roughly where im at .

dont have to though , a hug will do

thanks for listening

(((hug)))
sorry to hear about that choclab. Hope you are feeling ok and don't go to work if you can't face it - no point making yourself feel worse - but it might distract you and give you a break from your worry for a while?xx

Haven't read the other thread yet, but I will. I will be around for a bit if you want to talk.

Feeling all funny today. All lightheaded and dizzy. Sure it is psychological as worried about drive to uni tomorrow, worried about it being July and probably anxiety induced by wedding planing.
Not sure what to do to feel better...

Hey choclab- big hug! I'll read your thread in a mo. Am with piggy on the work situation.

Piggy- maybe treat yourself a bit this month for coming so far since this time last year?
A cup of tea and a cake might make things a bit better? Am starving today sorry if most thoughts are food related! Sorry you're feeling a bit funny. How far away is uni?
Chichester is lovely btw

I was doing well today, I wrote the letter to work I needed to write and sorted the money situation outish. Then the HV calls- I didnt even know I would see one before the baby is born! She is coming for an antenatal chat. I have to say MN has made me very wary of them they are hot debated species. posted on the pg threads to see if anyone can tell me what she is actually going to ask etc.
Am going to tidy the house but I dont know what else to do. The baby's room is done.
Just getting myself seriously worked up about it She'll be a stranger in my home judging me. I hope she doesnt ask any medical questions

Sorry v. long whinge!

hope everyone else is ok

a rather worried lola

oh my word I have googled, it makes no sense I dont even know what a health visitor even does. some kind of nurse?

Hey ladies,
I'm feeling a lot better after a walk round the park and a nap Just been struggling to get a proper night's sleep and then tiredness makes the anxiety so much worse. Uni is about 1hour 40 away on the motorway - so not really far but I get a bit panicky about the drive. Have convinced dp to come and meet me when he finishes work and drive me back up

Lola, doesn't hv just check the baby's head size and weight etc? (am totally clueless!) Is she the one who takes over after the midwife signs you off just to keep an eye on both you and baby? I don't think she will be judging you or your house - just trying to put you at ease and introduce herself before the whole birth and post-birth madness starts!xxx

hey piggy hope the drive tomorrow goes ok. I would of got my dp to do the same. Naps are fantastic tiredness always makes my anxiety worse too. Feel better about the hv visit now. Calmed down made a jam sponge pudding which helped. House is spotless and im ready for her questions. I think its just a meet and greet kind of thing. The worst kind of social situation for me but I need to be strong and get on with it. Im being hard with myself to keep myself going. Hope everyone else is ok. Lola x