The Anxiety Club- part 3!

[blissa]

Couldn't think of a more imaginative title!

Hi girls

I posted a reply on the other thread and now it's too big to reply to, so here we are a nice sparkly new thread!

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Quick post! Choclab - Well done on results, I am delighted for you. Stop reading other threads! I would try and go privately to the therapist if I were you. I know its a lot of money but as I have said before mental health is worth it. Thanks to everyone for the advice and good wishes. I have to book my scan yet, will do it next week. When is your scan Choclab? Welcome neverenoughmetime, join the club!!! Back later. xxx

hi kildare ,
waiting to here about my scan , hope soon ...doing my head in all this waiting (only been 1 week) still anx though ,

when is yours do you have to see doc first again to refure you ?

how have things been ?

yes think will book appt as im so bad right now ....im thinking all sorts ...

should i be happy that results all normal , im so unsure as read mixed reports ..

sorry for sounding so desperate ....

Hi Kildare

Choc-get a nice hot bath and try to relax (i know easier said than done..) And stop reading! The fact that your period is due wont be helping either, i get more anxious at that time too.

How is everyone tonight? Im in need of an early night, im so tired.

On a more positive note, DH and i have arranged a little night out together next week We haven't been out together for about a year!! Its also a big thing for me too being in a restaurant surrounded by people....im looking forward to it though which is an improvement!!

Hope you are all ok tonight.
Choc am thinking of you. Keep posting, get it off your chest. You are not alone with it.

thank you NEMT..

Glad you r having a night out anywhere nice ? long time a year be really nice for you and you will be fine nice to get dressed up and go out , your DH will be with you so im sure you will be ok ..

DH and i and children been out for curry , i had a glass of wine so feeling bit calmer , going to get ready for bed and have cuddles with my darling children and DH very tired to as all the stress and worry all day .
still worried ...but got my family here now so thats alllll good ...love them so much ...

hope everyone ok , again sorry for going on today , but you have been a real help NEMT so thank you xx

hi all on phone so just popping in. Choc- so pleased your results were normal. At my folks house, watching football. today has made me realise my folks really stress me out. 1 on 1 fine but together Im a wreck after spending the day with them. Dp is picking me up after the match. So anxious, i just want him to get here safe. wish he would come now. I was brave and asked him to move his car nearer where he was watching the football because i worry about him/feeling very anxious today. It was really hard but i was honest. So so sorry for my long selfish rant. Will post properly tomorrow. Hope all are ok x

thanks , thislittle,
sorry your evening not to great with anx etc ..how is your pregnancy going , how long have you left ?

dont worry about rant , i havent stoped ranting the last 2 days ....but has helped as everyone on here is so nice .

Hi just a quick note for choclab to say I'm so glad your results were ok :-)
re. Cbt. It's great that you've had someone recommended. I would be tempted to spend the money. It's something I'm seriously considering too. I haven't got definate prices but assuming it would be similar amounts

Hi choc,

We are going out for dinner Am so looking forward to it. Its been a real struggle just to go places i NEED to go like nursery/park/baby clinic etc so im feeling much better about things now i can do tesco/go shopping/restaurants etc. Feel a bit more normal!

Dont apologise for "going on" ! Im glad i helped you a little yesterday. Hope you are feeling a bit better today.

Lola-sorry to hear you've had a stressful time. Feel free to rant here! Whatever helps! Ive got parents meeting coming up and im sure i will be ranting my head off on here then

morning all ..

Thank s kizzie , hope all ok with you ?

NEMT , when r u going out for dinner ?have you got a baby sitter ? hope you have a lovely time

had bad sleep kept waking ...then thinking ...letting things run in my head , bad devil time again ....

im working today till 2 anyway so thats not to bad , DH home with children . then may try pop out with them to get FD bits for them to give tomorrow ....

hope all are ok and have nice day .

Were going out next saturday night, my mum is having DD's

Sorry to hear you had a bad night. In my CBT you have to write down your worrying thought and then a list of evidence for and against it. You have to think long and hard and ask DH too about the reasons against, because naturally anxiety sufferers are experts at finding reasons for our problems!!
Hope this helps a little.

Hope work isnt too bad. Hope everyone has a good day. Ive cleaned my house and hoovered each room, done 2 loads of washing and now going to get ready to take DD's to the park! Feeling good today. Sending good anxiety free vibes to you all!

Come on here and post some updates/have a rant whatever! Would like to hear how everyone is getting on

So pleased your test results came back clear choclab . It is good news! Am I right in thinking that this is the second time you have had those tests done? And that both came back ok? If so I would say it was very unlikely for a test to be inacurate twice. Please stop reading the other threads, what is happening to someone else does not mean it will happen to you. I hope you get a date for the scan soon.

Good to hear you sounding positive this morning NEMT, have a nice day.

How are you today lola, hope you are feeling calmer.

I am so sorry to hear about your sister Pelvic.

I have so much to do today but can't get going. Need to get it all done as we are going to my sisters tomorrow for the day, so wan't have time to do anything. Trying not to think about the drive round the M25

Hi blissa! And thanks

Hope you have a nice time at your sisters. Are you doing the driving? Hope its not too bad..how long does it take?

Hope work was ok choc...

thanks ,

blissa , NEMT , thank you , yes had same tests done 2 years ago all were fine then ,i had similar symptoms and fear then , ,i wasnt going to go to docs cos i think its just how i am and as i had tests done 2 years ago have thought was ok , then i read something on OC and symptoms and got into my head i have OC , so went to docs , who said only way to be sure is do another scan etc ..
so here i am , having all done again .got myself in a state as read other threads on CA125tests being inaccurate , and some scary stuff ...so thinking the worst again and anx so high , due on today to , so thats not helping , only been 1 week since i saw doc so should here on monday i hope , but wont do scan if i got period i expect so going to be another week till i find out .. this is doing my head in ...,
anx taken over , i keep reading for reasurance i guess ,
thought that normal test results was good but now i just dont know .. i could cry im feeling so shaky and stresses ..

sorry another rant by me , thanks for listening

Hi choc,

Sorry to hear you are still feeling so bad Just try to reassure yourself that you had these same symptoms 2 years ago, you really believed you had OC then but got the all clear from tests and scan...it will be the same this time too. Easier said than done i know but try to believe. You will get there, once you have reassurance from the scan.

thanks , i just feel like crying i really do theses irrational feelings and anxiety are so strong ...

i hate it im looking everywhere for a thread or on line for something to say ....

as tests came back normal its99% that your ok ... but i cant its all scary stuff , feeding and making me worse ...
sorry im so scared thats its all going to be bad news and im going to die ...

what a mess i am ...

Hello ladies,
Wow - so much to catch up on! Had a fab time in london (even though convinced dp we should drive rather than get the train ) But it was worth it as I had a couple of wobbly moments but everything was fine. Saw Grease musical, went to museum of the history of childhood which was really interesting (but quite small) spent a small fortune in Lush and met up with a couple of girly friends for dinner. I actually felt 'normal' .

Yommy - how is the non-stabilised biking?!. What did ds lie about that he got sent to bed?!

Blissa - hope all is well with you. I think my anxiety is affected by heavy drinking - don't really drink at all now. Also guilt trip myself that wonder if it was triggered by the few months I did of weed at uni. But my mum suffers from panic disorder so think it is probably hereditory.

armadillo and lola - wow 6 and 3 weeks left - eek! Hope you are both taking it easy and lola, your boss should not be bothering you when you're on maternity. What a dick.

choc - glad the blood test was negative. Try to take things easy and don't stress too much about the scan (easier said than done I know)

kildare - glad you're feeling reassured after visiting the docs. I've had the spotting thing before too.

pelvic - sorry the cbt homework is causing you so much trouble Maybe mention it to your counsellor next time and ask why it is relevant?

neverenough - hope you're feeling ok - I know what you mean about the feeling hot and unsteady and a bit faint. Not nice.

Hello to anyone else I have accidentally overlooked
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Hi piggy!

Great news about your trip! So so good to feel normal isnt it!! Really pleased for you. Doesn't matter that you got DH to drive instead (i prob would have done same) you had a fab time and only a couple of wobbles so who cares!

Oh i dont drink now either because i found it makes my anxiety worse..i havent touched alcohol for over a year now but am starting to have the odd baileys on a sat eve...am ok with just a little

Choc, sending you a big hug. Try to keep busy if you can? Roll on scan then peace of mind

Hi neverenough - I used to be quite a big drinker but don't really miss it anymore. Don't think my friends quite understand my change of attitude! Hope you are well xx

piggy i used to be a big drinker too oh those were the days!

I kinda miss getting drunk because i felt calm and happy at that time. until the next day..ugh. Headache plus major anxiety/shakes.

I quite like having a couple on a sat night now though

Hello

Choclab-So pleased about your results
Hopefully when you get the scan results then it will sink in that you are fine.I always find that my anxiety over a particular thing can take ages to fade.The only way i can decribe anxiety is like a haunted sick to the stomach feeling.

NeverEnoughMeTime-A night out to look forward to then?Have you decided where?

Piggymad-Sounds like you had a great time

Hope everyone else is doing well?
Kildare,Lola,Armadillo,Blissa
Hope i havent forgotton anyone

I wasnt very well yesterday
Ended up rowing with my mom and my dp and felt so low i could have jumped off the bridge up the roadI just feel that everyone would better off without me as i only make people unhappy.

Oh gosh pelvic What happened? Hope you are feeling a bit better tonight? Sorry to hear this!

We are going out for a curry There is a lovely indian restaurant nearby so im looking forward to that.

DD has a party to go to tomorrow and we have to stay as it is quite far away...im hoping i'll be ok there and not pacing around messing with my hair etc trying to distract myself as usual! as it will be very busy! bit nervous tbh.

Hope everyone is having a nice evening. Choc hope you are ok too

Evening everyone! Weather is absolutely gorgous at the moment. Lets hope it stays that way. Piggy - Welcome back! Great to hear you had a fab time in London. I love London, myself and DH were there nearly 2 years ago and we had a great time.

Choc - You do not have OC. I know me saying that won't convince you until you have the scan. I know I have said this before and forgive me for being blunt, but I really think you need to take the anti depressents AND go to CBT as well. Even though I don't know you in RL I hate "seeing" you so upset as I know all my fellow MNetters do . Did your GP mention your health anxiety again to you?

I am going to be online for a while so feel free to vent.

Howdy to everyone!

hey ladies,
pelvic hope you're feeling better
neverenough - the indian sounds great! I really enoyed going to lots of restaurants and having our nice brekkies while away. When are you away? I bet the party will fly by - there's bound to be some drama with a kid or two that will take the pressure off you feeling 'exposed' (that's how I sometimes feel in social situs)
choclab - totally agree with kildare and maybe you need a bit of extra help at the minute with the anti-ds? Were you considering taking them a few weeks back? Can't remember what you decided?
When's your scan kildare? Is it a 'hands in on' type on or just like an ultrasound? Hope it goes ok. Bodies are funny things aren't they - especially the bits you can't see!
Got wisdom tooth spiking its way through at the minute

Hello ladies

Thanks for your support piggy You are right, i feel exposed too. Im so conscious (cant spell that?!) that everyone can see me looking anxious...because when it gets quite unbareable and i cant "escape" I start wriggling around in my seat kind of messing with my hair, scratching my face ANYTHING but sit still and let it wash over me! Im working on this at the mo after reading claire weekes books..it is SO hard to sit still and look normal when you feel you are going to explode with panic...

Hope scan goes ok kildare..let us know when it is? Sorry if you have already said!

Piggy i have 2 wisdom teeth coming through, and 2 almost totally through. Its hell isnt it!