The Anxiety Club- part 3!

[blissa]

Couldn't think of a more imaginative title!

Hi girls

I posted a reply on the other thread and now it's too big to reply to, so here we are a nice sparkly new thread!

xx

Evening Ladies,

Good this threat is getting busy again Take me half an hour to read thought before I post then I forget everything I want to say, so sorry in advance for anyone I miss out

Piggy - hope you have a lovely time n London The train will be fine, just take plenty to keep the mind busy

neverenoughMEtime - welcome and love the name! Reading your first post just reminds me of what I went through! ould have writen that myself! I am getting better all the time, but still have the dizy spells especially when I am stressed! Sorry you had a bad session, but dont; beat yourself up for not making Tesco! Tomorrow is another day and you can try again!

Kildare - Glad everything is okay down there! lol! I often get spotting after sex too, glad its not just me as I was actually beginning to think there might be something wrong!

Armadillo - 3 weeks?? How exciting! Try not to worry too much about the hospital experience! I have c section with boy my boys and the way I viewed it was if anything went wrong I was in the best place! IYKWIM??? Everything will be fine! You will be too busy thinking about the little bundle of joy

Blissa - how sad about your DS going to school My DS goes in next year and I am already sad at the thought of him leaving nursery, funny how attached you become to places! How do you think he will cope with the transition??

Pelvic - hope you are feeling better! Thoes poor wee birds! I hate to see any animals hurt! We had a wee stray dog arond our back the other day, my DH tried to get it over to see if it had any ID tags, but it snapped at him and my DS2 got a real fright, anyway it ran away and I have seen it about a few times since. Just feel sorry for the poor wee thing!

DH has gone diving for the night some peace! DS1 has been in bed since 7.30 for telling lies and DS 2 been in bed since 8.30! Do you think I am being over the top grounding a 4 year old for telling lies??

It has been beautiful here today, so warm We were down the park most of the day trying to teach DS to ride his bike without stabilisers. He is almost there if he would just keep peddling! lol! We have promised him a new bike once he gets it!

I am off to watch the finale of Desperate Housewives

Sorry for spelling, punctuation, etc!!!!
Bye x x x

morning all .

neverenoughtime --hope your feeling bit better thismorning and had a good nights sleep ...
i would do the tescos first thing , then you havent got to worry about it all day and its done and you can enjoy rest of your day

Glad your ok yoummy , sounds like you had a quiet night with DC in bed early ... mine never drop before 9 at moment ...so light , got lackout blind for DD room now so hope that will help .
i remember when our DD started to ride her bike , we took her to the field opposite r house ,just incase she fell would be a soft landing ....once they get the confedence she was off , now both mine wizz around on there bikes ..
(special time when they do for first time

off to work soon , so will look in later ..

Yommy - thanks!! Glad to hear you are getting better!

Choclab - Thanks, i had a good nights sleep. Woke up feeling bad about yesterday arghhh! Trying not to dwell on it means i cant help dwelling on it haha. Anyway felt very anxious this morning and had a bit of a wobble at nursery but nothing major. Dreaded tesco after that but suprised myself!! I did the whole shop with no panic!!!!! Im thrilled and now feeling confident again! I must remember that the only reason i feel bad the day after a set back is because im expection the next day to be the same!! But it doesnt have to be. I can do it

How are you today choclab? Hope you are having a good anxiety free day. Even though i know you have the results thing hanging over your heaD. One more day hey? Then the waiting will be over. Waiting is the worst!

Thanks for reminding me we need to take DD out on her bike to practise! Wow a new bike yommy, i bet he is so excited

Hope you are all ok today, and you are all having a lovely anxiety free day?!

Hi girls

I know it's a bit late Piggy, but I hope you're having a lovely, relaxed trip.

Yommy- I think ds will be fine starting school. He is going to the same one as dd2 and so knows it well. His new teachers came to visit his pre-school yesterday and I found out that instead of them doing half days for the first term (like his sister did), they have changed and he will go full time after a couple of weeks! It was a bit of a surprise but I think he is ready, can't believe it's come around so quick. How is ds getting on with riding his bike? My ds isn't ready for that yet

neverenoughMEtime- well done for getting through the Tesco run. I think that place gives us all the wobbles! It does boost your confidence big time when it goes well, long may it continue!

I think my anxiety started when I was 18 and I experimented with a couple of illegal substances. For weeks afterwards I remember feeling like I couldn't breathe and was terrified to go to sleep incase I didn't wake up. Drs couldn't find anything wrong with me and said it was stress.

Since then I've always had occasions of feeling lightheaded, dizziness, tight chest, etc, but never realised what it was until last year.

Choclab- Hope you are ok today, not long til tomorrow now. There is no need for you to be ashamed of how you feel, you are not the only one and, in time, you will feel better. I am doing really well now thanks, I had tests done to determine the cause of the PEs and it turns out I have a mutant (haha) gene which makes me more prone to clots. I don't need to be on meds for life, unless I have another episode, it's just a case of letting people know if I need to have surgery or am pregnant (another cause of anxiety now for me). If I let myself think about it, the possibilities of what possibly could happen would totally overtake me and I know I would be back to square one. I just try and be positive and minimise the risks as much as possible.

kildare- Glad your appointment went well. I have no idea is the answer to your question! My periods have just started changing, I have now had 2 25 day cycles when I have always had regular as clockwork 28 day cycles. My smear test is overdue, I need to book an appointment. I also need to see the dr about maybe getting a copper coil fitted. I can't take the pill any more and I just don't trust condoms, but after reading some peoples experiences about it on here, I am a bit scared!

Lola- that is a very insensitive thing for the mw to say, but I'm sure she didn't mean to worry you. My smear is very overdue- haven't had one since way before I got pregnant with ds and he is 4! I hope the next 3 weeks go smoothly.

Feeling very tired today, still not sleeping too well. Off to my friends later with the dcs for tea

Hope everyone else is ok xx

Hi all,

wow its busy!

kildare and choclab- I've had many an internal trans vaginal scan( I know, lucky me) they are not that bad just a tad uncomfy. The scanner looks a bit scary I would say not to look at it tbh.
Anyhow...
Glad you're feeling bit calmer now after seeing the gp. I've always had funny periods I just put it down to anxiety and PCOS.
Neverenough so sorry your CBT app. didnt go to plan, you took a few minutes but you got it back together- which is more than I can do! I'm sure next time will be better. Glad your DP helped, sometimes another point of view makes seeing through the fog a tad easier. Hows the meditation cd? Sounds good.

Yommy hope you're ok and enjoyed DH. I know 3 weeks really isnt long- am kidding myself he will be early. I just hope the mw's are nice and understanding. I always feel a fool in hospitals. Sounds like you had a lovely time in the park, lovely to hear your ds is nearly there on the bike front

blissa it is a shame they dont do half days for the first term anymore I always thought it worked quite well. I'm sure he'll enjoy himself. Reception is probably my favourite year- so full of energy and fun. sorry you're feeling tired at the moment, I've always found sleep an issue.

Ok think I've remembered everyone, Armadillo and pelvic hope you both are ok.

Had a good morning until my boss called to say hello and asked about an event tomorrow evening of which I cant really go to I'm ready to drop as it is. Asked me to take some things to work- cue more anxiety for me now. I cant get anything to them until next wk and tbh they are at fault for not asking for the things much sooner. I think I'm getting braxton hicks- pains either side of bump, period pains and pain right down there? Im restraining googling. Am making cake this afternoon once I've washed up

Hope all are ok

Lola x

Sorry forgot to add- choclab hope you are ok and work goes well.

Enjoy the sunshine everyone

Hi blissa,

Thanks

I also didn't find out what my symptoms were until only a couple of years ago! Not knowing what was wrong with me made me feel so anxious on top of everything else!

I can understand you being anxious about the PEs, anyone would be wouldn't they but sounds like you are dealing with it well!

Hope you get a better nights sleep tonight and have a nice time at your friends

I have DD's little friend here today and am realising that my DD is not actually that exhausting compared to her friend!!

Hope everyone is having a nice day!

Hi littlesisterlola, Thanks for your kind words I only got it together enough to stick the rest of the session out, then went straight home Never mind, today is different, im having a great day anxiety wise!

Sorry to hear your boss has caused you to panic, i felt some anxiety rise just reading what you put so can imagine how you must be feeling!

Those pains sound exactly like what i had at the end with DD2! Went to get checked out but wasnt dilating so they said its just end of preg discomfort! See your midwife incase things are starting for you?

Meditation cd is FAB!!!

Oh and my DD is starting school in sept too!! Time has gone too fast!

hi all ,

Blissa-- thank you for advice , i think your doing really well to cope/ get over your anxiety with your PEs , must have been awful for you until,you knew what was going on ...
im due my smear this october ...i always worry around this time ...time just flies ..

thislittle--thanks for advice about scan , i have had one 2 years ago , but still not looking forward to it i must say ...hope it all ok ....getting anx already ..

neverenough --well done for getting through tesco ...and glad you had a good sleep ..

work was soo busy so no time to think , but am little anx about results tomorrow , also had missed call from strange number think may be clinic wanting to book scan ..have to see if call back ...i do feel as though its hanging over me ..but have to keep thinking ...well its better to know than not ..

got to take DD for swim lesson now , check in later .

hello to everyone els to

Hi choclab - glad work went ok. Hope you manage to sleep tonight despite your anxiety. It sure is better to know that not! Will be thinking of you tomorrow and will check in at some point.

Littlesisterlola - how are your pains tonight? Hope you are not too uncomfortable!

Piggy - hope the trip is going well!

Everyone else - sending some positive anxiety-free vibes your way! Hope everyone has a good night. I am really tired tonight and aching. I think maybe i was so tense at CBT yesterday and thats why im aching now...Going to get an early night with my meditation CD. What an exciting life i lead

Good night ladies!

thanks , nevereoughtime.
yes am bit anx ,i must say and will be tomorrow , anyway going to snug down with my DD in bed as my DH still house sitting .

hope everyone els ok .

sleep well to NET and must tell me what your cd called may give it ago if helps to relax..(if you dont mind that it )

Hi ladies

whoa so many posts i feel i may not catch up
appologies
Sorry for just popping in
Had CBT yesterday so got more homework to do
Been a bit in a daze and very irritable this week.It is my sisters anniversary today(7 years since she killed herself)so i guess thats why i have been so irritable.

Hope everyone is ok?

Good luck for tomorrow choclab

hi all ,

need support today really in a state get blood test results later , hormone one and the CA125 test so really worried , specially as there is another thread going on about poss OC i read it and now feel evon worse ...feel sick ..

will call later this morning , think you have to ring after 12

then its my DC sports day ...love to watch them , but hate all the mummy clicks , people take picnicks and chairs drinking to ...and yes i will be alone ....i am going to get my chair out there early though as i live opposite the field so thats good ...i tell you bet there talk to me when theyv had a few drinks and need the loo ...my house is closest ...
this i will find hard ...want to say no but bet end up saying ok ...
thats if im not stuck in my house crying ..

Pelvic - sorry to hear about your sister, must have been a really hard day for you no wonder you were irritable! Hope you are ok today.

Oh Choc, you sound so very down and anxious (understandably)

I will be around to listen for an hour or so if you want to vent..Sorry you had to read the OC thread, i can imagine you feel much worse now. It will be ok im sure, sending you lots of positive vibes and a big hug..

The sports day, im going to be just like you when its our turn If only we could go together! Ah well. I would also want to say no but end up saying yes to the mums...arghh. You wont be in your house crying, you will be on that field feeling as if a big weight has been lifted off your shoulders knowing that your blood results were normal!! I will keep thinking that for you. Im sure positive thinking leads to positive outcomes!

Im not sure if im making all this worse for you choclab.. Not good with words me..just know that im thinking of you and willing your results to be normal Hope you are ok.

oh i almsot forgot, the meditation cd i have is called

"meditainment, Guided meditations."

If you type that into amazon it will come up and they do others too. Mine is the one with the green cover, it has a winding pathway in a rainforest.

thank you neverenough ..very tearfull at moment , trying to keep busy ...cleaning house then will aim to do tesco ..then will come back for sports day then pop in to make THAT CALL ..

I just saw your post on health choc, i have ibs too and get the bloating. Its quite painful and goes down by the next morning. Hope that reassures you? Along with the other anxiety symptoms its easy to think something serious is going on isnt it. Im just the same. Hope you have an anxiety free trip to tesco. Get yourself something nice to eat tonight and maybe a magazine. Could be quite relaxing after a hard day.

Will check in around lunch time to see if you have updated.

thank you , your very kind x

shaking and crying at same time here ...just called for results all NORMAL ..and fine ...

i got her to say it again as wasnt sure was hearing right ..
so hope thats a good sign then ...im hoping if something really bad would get picked up on hormone tests along with the CA125 .

i had FBC and liver , kidneys , thyroid ..the lot checked end feb all were fine then ..

just scan to go now ...

i dont know to feel happy or still sad , anx bad but must put to back of head now and cheer my darlings on in sports day with out crying ...

thanks for listening

YAY!!!!!! Fab news!!! Be happy choc!

Oh im sooo relieved for you! If you had something serious it would have shown up on your blood results!!

Brilliant, must go feed my starving children now, DD going mad because i dashed on here straight after nursery run to check on you

So so pleased for you. Scan will be fine now you will see.

Thank you NEMT ..bless you for checking on me as soon as you got in ..your very kind ,

so you think is all good , i guess i hope anything ovary would get picked up in hormone test and the CA125 is a rough guide i know for C . i know some people say its not accurate ....but if was so unaccurate , why do doctors still do it ?

anyway got to go put my chair out in field before the other more popular mummys bag the best seat ....and as i live dead opposite i get first dippings i think ....oh and the head has put sign up saying no alcohol to be consumed this year at sports day, so they may not ask to use my loo afterall..

hope you ok ?

Well you have a scan next to make double sure so focus on that bit now. I think all will be well. You'll see Did you do tesco? If so how did it go? Hope ok.

Im amazed that the school allow alcohol at sports day!!! Forgot to say when i read it before! So thats good then, no strange people wandering through your house

My DD says she has been practising today for sports day....i think (hope) i will be ok there because its outdoors and i can walk around with DD2 in pram....seem to be a bit better now in situations where i can move around incase i get anx. Really struggle when i have to sit in room with people eg parents meetings, school plays and CBT.....need to work on it before the parents evening and school plays next year....arghhhh.

Anyway im am having a good day thanks! No wobbles this morning at nursery run! Feeling good today.

Hope you are feeling a little better. Hope sports day goes well for you!

yes made it to little tesco not far away just grabbed some bits for tea. , just stuck my chair out ready for sports to start.

looked on few othere threads about CA125 all sorts of mixed reports , made me anx again ...i wont rest till i have scan ...

im due in this weekend so bloating maybe cos of that ..

i know what you mean about the parents meeting things , im the same , whens your next CBT ?

i had a call today from private clinic my doc recomended me , but my health insurance wont cover payments ...
she said the first consultation is 160 and then each session would be 125 ...an hour ... i am on NHS waiting list they said could take 9 months to get started ...so debating to try this clinic ...i have little xmas money saved for first appt , and could only go once a month to other sessions ..but if it going to help would be money well spent ...BUT is alot of money ..will think over weekend ...

right going to watch DC now be back later

Ok dont read anymore threads on OC choc. Its doing no good. Its tempting to read them isnt it when your so worried but it will only make you feel worse.

That is a lot of money! But like you say it will be worth it if it works for you.

My last CBT session is next wednesday. Dreading it incase same happens as last time The homework has got really complicated (or maybe im stupid!) now and i just feel its not very relevant for my anxiety! I bought some books by claire weekes and these are really helping me, the difference is amazing. It is after reading those books that i can do tesco by myself And the school run. Im getting there.

Have you read those books?

back , DC did well on there races ...and no one asked for loo so was ok .

i still worried about everything at moment , i guess made worse as period due to ...got IBS side cramp to , that i know is stress as get this when i am ...

thinking about calling and going for the CBT session as im so bad and really dont know if can wait 6 or so months for NHS .
this is the clinic my doctor highly recommend as she has seen otheres have very good results from seeing this lady for anxiety.

just the initial outlay i guess , can justify it if it works though i guess.

will look at cds and books to .