Support thread for those abused (whatever the abuse)

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There seems an opportunity here to join together and provide support for each other wherever we are on our journey to recovering.

Post whatever you need, ideas, coping mechanisms, books you've found helpful, therapy techniques .....and anything else.

I went, clamed up, messed up

I tried soo hard to tell her but I couldn't
Leaving her offices felt like a lost little girl
I have to take him with me, I cant leave him there by himself, its not fair on him, he will be lonely

I'm sorry

Don't worry, it will come out when it's time. You didn't mess up.

I 100% understand you feeling like a lost little girl.

I'm so scared, I feel sick
I can't get what I did out my head,
She asked me today if there was something I wasn't telling her?
She was right, there is but its too disgusting,
I'm disgusting

Counsellors have seen it all, heard it all.

She will know that it is too painful right now, and she will not be judging you. She will know that you are feeling disgusting and ashamed.

Right now you are doing the hardest part. Once I was where you are, and today I am at the stage where I can (try) to help other people. There were lots of times that I never thought I would get here.

You are not disgusting, what happened to you was.

I am glad that you are still on here talking to us though

rkhs wanna talk or are you hiding on purpose? You're not disgusting silly woman!!!

rkhs have the feeling you're on your own, feeling cr*p and probably sh. Come talk to me, please.

safe hug for you rkhs x

rhks worried now

Haven't been on here for a while. I've had a bit of a struggle.

Hope everyone is ok. I started with an emdr therapist this week and have 3 books to start to read and CDs to listen to.

Hi,
hope you find emdr helpful and get on well with the therapist.
I have done a little and found it very helpful.

Am doing much better, hope everyone is.

Finding the right treatment/support as well as good distraction/coping techniques helps keep me well. Just need to remember that

Keziah

Glad to hear you're doing a bit better. I ambeginning to understand more about recovery from child abuse and also about depression.

I liked the therpaist and will see her again tomorrow. Must go and finish thechapter I have to read!

rhks - I think you are coping well given the things you are having to cope with at the moment. All the children need at the moment is you - but this might be hard for you to believe right now. They need you - not anyone else. You are the best person for them.

Please try to take care of yourself.

ADQ

Hi,
my hsorrible time got worse, been crying for day, totally irrationally, as my cpn said she would no longer see me as I not made enough progress. This is without asking me, just a phonecall to tell me. Will be given someone not trained in therapy to just monitor me. Not allowed to go to therapy group now ...

just becasue i was honest for once about struggling, and was in hospital for 2 weeks this year.

Got told can use crisis team, but they told me off for using them instead of my cmht, as I am not in crisis they said last time, it is just ongoing suicidal ideations.

Don't know what to do - dh got an advocate involved, but apparently they are allowed to do that. Not even see me, just leave me - cancel any therapy I began (3 sessions) and give me nothing. Just reinforces my belieft that I dont' deserve anything, no child (ttc for 2yrs seriously, 6yrs without contraception), no career and no support.