cant eat or feed dd. Please help

[littlelamb]

I really feel I'm at the end of my tether and i just cant cope. I had problems with bulimia as a teenager and now i'm on my own with my ten month old daughter i just feel so low that all the old habits have slipped back. I have to do twenty miles on my exercise bike a day and I'll only let myself drink diet coke and eat sugar free jelly and i just don't feel able to get out of bed yet alone look after dd. it doesn't help that she's teething and very clingy and i have so much guilt that i cant cuddle her and be happy. I'm so scared she's getting fat I don't know what to feed her and don't want to cook in case I end up eating some of it. I just feel i want someone to take her away but that terrifies me. Please help

how old is your ds? I knew my eating was way out of control. There were nights when I had nothing to binge on and I considered leaving dd in her cot so I could run to the shop. I never did, but it was something I seriously considered. I think you should get help from whereever you can. I promise the helpline I rang were lovely, and they really have heard it all. I still have some nights where I get the urge to eat, and i've started to eat salad when I feel like that, because i know in my head that i can't possibly be hungry. I really feel for you I've been there x x

Hey juicychops , sorry to hear you are having a tough time .I think you have to just take your time to make a decision .Arm yourself with all the knowledge over how you would manage on your own .Some people in this situation find they cant deal with the eating till they leave an unhappy relationship .Some find the strength to leave only when they are recovering from the eating disorder .You just need to be kind to yourself and figure out which one you are , maybe?
I got better then found i had courage to leave .LL -yes its normal to be scared of new relationships !! I made my dp jump through hoops before i really fell for him!
sending you good vibes juicychops -keep strong .