Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

Sorry blissa~ it's general anaesthetic but I realise now you mentioned local anaesthetic

The thought of general anaesthetic scares me too, so I was relieved to read that you could be awake

the local anaesthetic I had for ds2 emerg caesarean section was brilliant,no problem whatsoever

It doesn't affect clotting does it? I'm so paranoid

no it was a spinal anaesthetic so apart from your legs not moving for that time[and I guess it will be short acting] I don't see a risk

Dear mooseloose
I suffered from anxiety and depression after losing my first baby last year (late miscarriage at 17 weeks). I couldn't see a way out, just cried and felt angry all the time. Went to see a counsellor who practised cognitive behavioural therapy - and it helped me sooo much. After 6 sessions I was able to get on with my life. I hope you get better too! Counselling really is the best option. Take heart - hang on in there, it'll get better.

I think I read they inject it into the cervix?

oh def no risk then as I see

mouette thanks for posting.Glad you are better after that sad and difficult time and that cbt helped you so much.

blissa, just popping in to wish you all the best for this afternoon.
What an awful position for you to be in.
I remember before I had children I couldn't imagine that being pregnant or having a baby could ever be bad news yet as I have grown older I have realised that there are so many shades of grey and that nothing is ever black and white.

FWIW I had a termination nearly 20 years ago I had to have it under GA because I couldn't bear to face the responsibility of my actions. You only have to focus on hwat is right for your family group.
Thinking of you this afternoon.

Thanks morning, I really appreciate you talking this through with me. I need to go pick ds up now and then I'm going to nip into town to get some invitations. I'll come back later and tell you how I got on at dr. Hope you are ok xx

Thankyou Greyskull. I have never and didn't think I could ever contemplate a termination before. You're right it totally depends on stuation and circumcstances, and to have a 4th dc just isn't right for us.

I hope you are well. Have you heard from your friend that you were worried about?xx

that's ok blissa hope I don't scare you as I am health trained and it tends to pop out

You haven't scared me with anything you've said this morning . It's better for me to have facts rather than me having the what ifs I come up with running through my head!

Dear Blissa
Just wanted to give you a big hug. It's a difficult decision to take. I'm sure you will feel very relieved once it's over. Don't worry about the anaesthetic, I had a local when I had a C-section and didn't feel a thing, no side effects afterwards. I had surgery under general anaesthetic too when I had my miscarriage, it's nothing to be afraid of either, you just go to sleep and then wake up and it's over. Sometimes you even have dreams!
The foetus was 17 weeks when it died, and the surgery was fine - it's very safe. At 5 weeks there shouldn't be any risks. xx

Thanks morningsun - I now have a beautiful 3-month old son - thanks be to God and to modern medicine!

Congratulations

don't know where moose is but she may be having problems with the computer

Dratted technology! Hope she's OK.

blissa hope your appointment has been ok.

Ok, not sure if I feel reassured or not!

I asked the dr if a termination is safe for me, and he went quiet for what seemed like ages. He said there is some risk and I just have to be vigilant for any symptoms.

He said that having a termination won't make any difference to the thrombophilia screening, so I don't have to wait 6 weeks afterwards, so that is good.

I said to him that the clinic have said they may not do it, and he asked why? He said he thinks they will.

So I just have to see if the clinic says yes and then hope and pray that nothing goes wrong. I am so worried that I will get a clot. I keep looking at my dcs and questioning whether this is the right thing to do? But having another one definately isn't

Have just seen that some of the stuff I have been reading from googling is from the 1970s/80's/90's. So not really relevant as medicine has moved on so much!

Dear Blissa

There's always a risk to any operation, but these days they're usually very low for that type of surgery. The clinic may be able to give you more information? The charity Marie Stopes International may be able to help if the clinic isn't. www.mariestopes.org.uk.
Can't believe a termination at 5 weeks could be that dangerous - I lost a baby at 17 weeks and was physically absolutely fine, didn't even have any pain afterwards. Big hugs, good luck, hope it all goes well.

Thankyou Mouette, Thans for the site. I've had a look at the bpas website, that is who I am going to see tomorrow. I have been so scared of clotting again, even when I was on warfarin- I didn't believe it would work! I'll just have to wait and see what they say tomorrow