Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

Hi

Well am still cutting down on the mirtazapine and last few days have felt really anxious and nervous. Least when I'm off them I will know what is me !

Doctor has prescribed me new anti depressants Dolsupine AD to help with the anxiety and Diazepam 2mg for the change over.(Too scared to take them!)
Just read that Dolsupine can make anxiety worse! Great!

Taking my little boy swimming later, what's happened to the weather?

How is everyone?

he was ok

Hi girls. Morning how old is ds? Did you go in? Don't you just want to wrap them up and keep them at home!!! I feel so helpless about ds - he is so cuddly when he is home. But then I wonder if I am mollycoddling him - should boys stand on their own two feet a bit more and get braver without mum cushioning them?

He sobbed in bed tonight about his friend who left school at Easter to live in Spain, I know he misses him desperatly... .

Isn't life just horrid at times.

I have been feeling off again today, but I have just come on so maybe that is making me worse? I also have either a cold or hayfever and my face hurts! I also have a migraine niggling - Dropping to pieces I think!

I went to Tesco and couldn't breathe and wanted to cry. i thought I had got over this....

I know it's work revving me up, because they are on my back to do more hours. But on Saturday i was niggly all day too. But I need to work the hours because I need the money. I am about 1.5 hours short a day at the mo -6. But it's too much.

I feel quite cross that work/me could make me like this (again). Makes me feel worried and horrid. makes me wonder if it will ever go.

Am in tears now I've written this.

Send me a cyber hug girls please .

poor you moose.Going off how I felt this morning I guess you must feel pretty worked up over your ds.Is he your middle boy who had the accident?Do you feel that affected him at all?I very much hope the bullying has stopped ~ was it occurring in school time?

My ds is 7 ,the youngest.He is sensitive,but in phases and over certain things,or maybe with a cold etc.Its the second time he's cried over going to school in the last 2 weeks.He came out of school happy though so I don't know if he just got worked up at the prospect of it today or what.His teacher shouts a lot apparently and he doesn't like it.

I don't think you are mollycoddling him at all moose~he has had a difficult time and he needs you thats all,it will pass and he won't be this sensitive forever.Anyway,sensitive is good,it shows intelligence and deep feelings.Keep telling him you will support him with any problem like you are and it will pass.

Hi, I haven't readmuch of the thread, but I am hoping you will let me join.

Yet again I am stuck in a cycle of anxiety and depression. I am on sertraline, but haven't taken any since I went on holiday with my parents during Whit week (I don't want them to know as it's been off and on for 13 years and I think they might be a bit sick of it even though they are the most lovely supportive parents ever).

My DS3 had his 2 year check today and the HV (she has a career background of mental health) is going to request a referral to the CPN.

I hope to skim-read the thread over the next few days and look forward to hopefully getting to know you all.

Hi Rialentless and welcome to the thread!
Feel free to join in the chat with us and get to know us

Morning Girls!

I have my appointment today so feeling positive about it so far! Keep your fingers crossed for me!

Moose - I am really feeling for you right now! I know exactly what you are going throug with work - not fun! And it def sounds like its the cause of ur anxiety becoming overwhelming again! I really feel for your ds too! I hope things settled down for him soon! Is it today you are going to the school? Let us know how you get on! P.S. I think the time of the month def hightens your anxiety/emotions! {{{{{{{{{{{{Big Hugs}}}}}}}}}

Morning - Your poor ds and the angry teacher! Its so hard for kids I think at times - especially when the ae not used to that type of shouting at home! No wonder he is feeling worried about going in!

SM13 - How is the transition going? Hope you are okay! How was your swimming yesterday with ds? My ds 1 loves swimming but I fine it difficult to build up enough courage to take him - worry about panicing and not being abel to get out of the building fast enough! Daft I know! Stupid anxiety!

Railentless - Welcome to the thread! Hope to hear a lot more from you! Glad to hear your HV is going to refer you! Have you never spoken to anyone in 13 year of suffering???

Will post later to let you all know how the appointment goes!
x x x

Yommy - hope your appointment goes well
chat to you later

Hi girls

It's a bit belated moose but have a ((((hug))). Your poor ds. God I hate bullying. I hope the meeting goes well today and the school do what they need to do to stop it. I was bullied at school and it can really affect your confidence. It's great that he talks to you about it and that you're giving him all the support you are. Are you at work today too? If so I hope it's going ok, I'm sorry you feel so pressurized (sp?), can you talk to your manager again?

I hope your ds is having a better day at school morning. Dd1 used to have a teacher who shouted a lot and she was sometimes reluctant to go in. I will be asking the gp lots of questions tomorrow! I haven't mentioned to him that my sister has SLE and Lupus, just Hughes. I was tested for Lupus about 7 years ago.

Hope your appointment goes well yommy. I hope it helps you feel more like your old self. I know exactly what you mean when you say you're just getting through the day, rather than really enjoying life at the moment.

How was swimming SM13? Hope you are having a good day

Hi Railentless, well done for talking to your HV. Hopefully your referral will come through quickly.

I've been ok the past few days, trying not to think about things. Drove over to my sisters in Kent for my nephews birthday on Sunday, really didn't enjoy the drive there and back, but I did it! It's a beautiful day here, I hope it is where you all are. I've done some housework and some gardening and now ds is pestering me for a sandwich!

Yommy- meant to say- as far as I know I don't have a condition! I had clots on my lungs (PE) totally out of the blue the week before christmas.

Following that I have been on Warfarin (blood thinner) for 6 months. I need to come off them and then wait 6 weeks before having lots of blood tests to see if I have a condition that caused the clots.

I think I suffered from anxiety before but didn't recognise it but being hospitalised really kicked it off.

The worst thing for me was not having a reason for the PE, except being on the pill, but I had been for 11 years. A couple of months ago I wanted the future blood tests to come back positive for some clotting disorder, now though I don't want to have anything and just to be able to say to myself that it was a one off.

blissa - well done with the driving!
I also went further than usual and round a motorway roundabout on sunday but still feel a wuss for next time!

Hi blissa and yommymommy , How are you? Its not stupid not being able to go swimming with him, you will get there. Are you having any CBT?

Well last few days coming off the mirtazapine has been hell, anxiety all day long and can't sleep. I am going to take a Diazepam the Doctor prescribed 2mg (been too anxious to take them!).

Is it just me or does anyone go over and over things in their mind? At the moment i'm hooked on this anxiety thing and the meds, side effects - no wonder ive gone fuzzy headed again!!

Nice to know we are not alone!

I have just got some chickens that keep me and kids occupied, great getting the eggs as well!

Keep in touch

Hi sm13,welcome to the thread and hope you have had a better day

Hi Girls,

Hope you are all well! The weather has been brilliant here today! Really hot - think its a one off though

Well had my appointment today and I think it went okay! The therapist was nice ( a bit airy fairy) but she mad me laugh so thats a good thing Anyway, we are going to do relaxation things and CBT. Although she has only booked me in for 3 session, with the possiblility of 2 more if I need them? I am a little worried that its not enough! We'll see how the first 3 go and take it from there! I have had a good day today, not really been feeling anxious at all today! I love days like that!

My ds1 is not well! Not sure what the matter with him. He was sick all over my bed on sunday, but it was a one off I kept him off nursery on monday as he was a little hot. He seemed fine until he got back form nursery today and fell asleep with in minute of gettng in! He has been hot most of the day, not wanting to eat, etc! Anyway, he is sleeping now so will see what tomorrow brings!

SM13 - I hope you find meds that work for you soon! And I hope you start feeling better soon!

Hope everyone else is good!
x x x

Hi girls, hello sm13!

Work was ok today - no tears so that good. Oh but i did cry when i woke - dh sent me a nice text to ask how i was mid morn.

School think prob sorted with ds, but he come home and told me his best friend has got friendly with the bully! He is upset - I am outraged! The bully said to a circle of boys 'put your hands in the middle if you like ds' and pulled his right out behind him. Ds friend didn't move his! I told him to let him get on with it, he'll end up being in trouble too. He is the boy who told the head all about hitting with rulers etc to stick up for ds!

Am really tired now. Not slept for a few nights.

Yommy, glad session went well, perhaps you are more relaxed now?
xx

moose sorry there is still some problems with ds friends and the troublemakers,hope it settles down soon.
My ds came out of school crying a bit yesterday couldn't really tell what was wrong..oh well end of term perhaps!

Hope all well today!

blissa hope appt goes well

Thanks morning appointment's at 4pm, I'll try and get back on later to tell you how it went. I hope ds is happier when he comes out of school today.

I'm sorry things are still not sorted for your ds, do you think talking to his teacher about what happened yesterday would be a good idea? So that the school know it's not all sorted.

Hi to everyone else xx

Hi Girls,

How are you all today?

How did your appointment go Blissa? Hope you are okay!

Moose - hope ur ds had a better day at school today! It must be a nightmare! Thats is one of my biggest fears about dc going to school! I hope no of them ever have to go through it! I just can;t stand bullying! Where you are work today? How was it?

Morning - hope ur ds has a better day tomorrow!

Hi to everyone else - if ypu are still around!

Have my ds presentation day tomorrow so hopefully he will be going. He was off of nursery again today with really high temp, but he is wanting to eat again and seems a lot brighter! So fingers crossed!

Going to bed shortly hardly slept last night with worry about ds's temp!

x x x

I'm off the warfarin

I have the thrombophilia screening in 4 weeks, which includes lupus. The dr said that all the results should be back within 6 weeks afterwards, so I have 10 weeks to get through.

He was pretty dismissive of my questions, and has told me the most thing I can do is to keep active and to have a good diet. He's also said that it's unneccesary for me to wear the compression stockings for 2 years and I can stop wearing them now. It's so confussing being told different things by different people.

I've had a few tears tonight, I'm pretty scared tbh.

Hope your ds has a good night yommy and that he feels better in the morning

blissa hi hope you are feeling a bit better tonight .
I was tested for lupus last week as part of my antibody screen for arthritis and it was back in about 2 days;of course the rarer ones might take longer.
If someone more"medical" who treated you for the PE advised you differently re the stockings,I would follow the physician if it was me,not the GP[no offence to GPs obviously].

Other than that don't worry,do drink lots of water and you will be fine x

sorry forgot to say hope your ds is better yommy and your ds is ok moose

Thanks morning

I've managed Tesco today- stocked up on cranberry juice! And I've had a bowl of fruit, I don't usually eat much fruit so I need to get into the habit. It's not that I don't like it it's just I tend to leave it for the dcs to eat.

The gps point about the stockings was that I was never found to have a DVT in my leg, and they never found where the clots came from so what is the point of the stockings? He said I could be wearing them on my arms! It made sense but I have decided to keep wearing them until I have my results. Although the dr said they don't offer much protection, it kind of makes me feel better.

How has your ds been at school?

Hope everyone is having a good day today xx

Evening all,

How are you all today???

Blissa - I know its hard not to worry so I hope you are okay! Hopefully the weeks will fly by until you get your results! {{{{Big hugs for you}}}}}! As for the stockings, wear them if help you feel better. I had to wear them for 6 weeks after my c section! Sexy things!!!

I have had a sore/tight chest all day today! Had my ds presentation day, but he was crying this morning and didn;t want to take part so he sat with me Its his last day tomorrow before the summer hols so hopefully he is going to go

My dh is home on Sat morning, hes been away for 5 weeks now so really looking forward to seeing him - not looking forward to the drive to the airport to collect him though! Ds1 would be gutted of we never went to get him so we'll go! I have to admit I do love the airport, but the though of going on a plane terifies me! Are you all the same? I only started feeling like that after the anxiety started! Last time I was on a plne was when ds1 was 8 months old! I have been holidaying in UK ever since! lol! Would love to go abroad again, but will def have to wait until I am in control of the anxiety!

Hope you are all well!
x x x

Hi all, hope you all had a good weekend. It's so flippin hot!

Bet it's good to have your dh home yommy , it doesn't seem like 5 weeks since you were posting about him going away, that's gone scarily fast (although maybe not for you!).

How was your drive to the airport? I can't even contemplate getting on a plain at the moment, the thought of it scares me, and I was like this before being ill. I've not flown since I was about 18 or 19!

I've been ok over the weekend. I'm fine as long as I don't allow myself to think about things! I have dd2s parents evening tonight, got both dds reports home on Friday and they were very good [proud mummy].