I'm so so sorry

[essbee]

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you can see your children if they go into foster care, I just thought it might be safer. How do you know he wont hit them again? and didnt you tell SS last time about him? you dont want to make yourself look bad

I am glad you ahve been honest with your GP and she is being understanding. That must really help. Are you being reffered for counselling?

My Mum is a good example of how good counselling helps. She attempted suicide and received very good counselling and is a very very happy person now

You're not home alone.

There are loads of us at the end of phone & keyboard here for you. You just have to ask

So glad you have been able to get some help at last and take some positive steps. [hugs]] to you Essbee XXX

Oh essbee Im so glad you have got the support from your GP. Your post cetainly sounds like you are feeling a little more positive. Have a good rest and take care.
JMxxxxxxxxxx

Well done essbee for pulling yourself out of the quagmire inch by inch-keep going honey-you are setting a fantastic example to all who are reading this feeling despair/desperation/nothing and wanting that way out like you did.

Essbee, we don't want to hear you say sorry again, we are all just releived that Lou got to you in time.

Just remember when the going gets tough that we are here with you every step of the way.

Nooooooo, don't stop her saying sorry. I'm going to make a fortune out of the "sorry" box I made up for her. Costs her 50p every time she apologises. I'm well on the way to a holiday for me & DH in Mauritius with the proceeds.

Come on, apologise away dear...

LOL Soupy

{{hugs}} essbee. I think you are incredibly brave to start to face up to all this. You have had so much on your plate. Pleased that your GP is being helpful and hope you continue to get more positive support and help.

Good luck with camhs tomorrow - is anyone able to go with you and can you write down your thoughts before you go so that you are not too stressed about remembering it all at the time.

Get that early night too ! Take care of yourself and the little ones .

Huge hugs to you and there is no need for apologies.
You are very lucky that you have some wonderful friends close by.
Hope your world becomes brighter.

essbee, so glad you're making progress. Regarding the collection, yes it does seem like a large amount, but remember you have loads of friends who all gave a small amount to help get you back on your feet

essbee, it is inspiring to hear you taking these positive steps to help yourself. It sounds like those around you have risen to it too and are giving you some real, practical help.

Good luck, thinking of you x E

Soupy! Tissy, that's a brilliantly put point about the collection. Hope it helps you get your head round the idea Essbee and that spending it helps you on many levels.

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Honey, I haven't read through all this thread, but I just wanted to say I'm so glad to hear you're ok, so many people have been worried about you. For the most part I've been avoiding the 'feeling depressed' threads, because I'm pretty low myself, and just can't take on other people's problems at the moment, but I have been thinking about you. I just want to wish you well and let you know that we are all here to listen. Don't apologise or feel bad. Just good to know you're ok (((hugs))).

glad to hear your day went well xx think you are right about the going to bed early thing. it really is the hardest time in the early hours and so easy to feel like your the only one in the world..strange feeling. thats not to say i wont be here if you need me...i will be skulking around as ever! lots of love xx

essbee.. you are doing so well - I wish you a super peaceful sleep tonight.

nightowl - do you not sleep in the dark?

(maybe mumsnet could do with you as a nightime moderator... ?)

Hi essbee, glad to hear you're home, keep in touch xx

essbee, sleep well I'm so glad you're feeling more yourself.

Just wanted to let you know that am still thinking about you.

Yesterday as I was driving along the motorway I realised that after almost 2 months of grey skies, heavy snow fall and cloud it was a beautiful sunny, warm (well, above freezing at least!) clear day with thick snow still lying on the ground. It was such an uplifting feeling that I wanted to share it with you. I expect this all sounds really naff, but I hope you can find some such moments in the next few days, weeks and months to help you through this.

just caught up with this. Glad you're back at home and things are going ok essbee.
hang in there ladyeee, we're all routing for you

just want to echo what everyone else has said really i'm glad you're home essbee xxx

Me too essbee - although I don't think we've ever chatted online I have been thinking about you a great deal and wishing you a peaceful heart. (sorry if that sounds naf but couldn't think of a better description)