I'm so so sorry

[essbee]

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essbee - I only just caught up on this all last night as I have not been online much recently. PLease don't feel you need to apologise, I am only so very sorry that you felt such terrible despair on Monday. Take care of yourself and I hope that your road to recovery is a smooth and swift one. Thinking of you.

Just had to say that Ive been thinking of you soo much the last few days. I understand how you may feel, but please please accept all the help being given. I think in some way with what happened, thats what you were asking for. Im so glad youve come on and spoken. Just think this time last year on here I told people I was strapped in an ambulance and carted to pschye unit.

I havent yet read what was posted , but you know thats not how 99.99 % of people think. I think youve been very brave to have carried yuorself along as you have done so. Now is some time for you to heal YOU and then the rest will follow.

Essbee I didn't follow your thread at all, but my immediate thought on reading your first post here, is that anyone who has been through what you have, really doesn't owe anyone any apologies. You don't need to feel apologetic or guilty, you just need support. I do hope you get it, and wish you all the best.
x

Essbee, today is a new day. Welcome back, how brave you are. Stand tall and start again....next time you get really low - and it is human to be low - don't let it grip you and take you down. Just be aware that the feeling is there and that it will pass, it will always pass....

Hugs.....

welcome back Essbee. Look forward to tomorrow. It will be an uphill journey, but it will be so worth it when you get to the top and can breathe fresh air again and enjoy life. wishing you all the luck in the world, and take good care of yourself - don't be too hard on yourself. Love DH x

Really glad to see you posting, Essbee. Grab all the support you can (on here and in Real Life) with both hands, there's nothing to be ashamed of in asking for help. XXX

Like everyone else I'm just so pleased that you're back and I hope that each day is better than the last.
You're never far from my thoughts.

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essbee good to hear from you - get well soon

HI essbee I know you saw the email I sent soupy- haven't got anywhere with names yet (sorry ) I re-read your thread on SN the other day - and honestly I know how absolutely exhausting it is dealing with the behaviour you are dealing with on a daily basis. it is utterly wearing. I hope that you all start to get into the system soon. Please try and ask about getting an extra pair of hands to help out- it can make a huge difference.

In the meantime if you want a number to ring (now or in the future) just to offload about the behaviour issues feel free to email me and I'll send you my phone number. I can't do anything much else but I do understand what it is like living with that behavour (as ds1 is being vile at the moment- and the mindless destruction is exhausting!) Swapping stories can help. I ring friend's facing the same sort of issues daily- and without that I think would end up in a heap

Please don't call yourself selfiish, you reached the end of your tether- and you've had an awful lot to deal with.

good to hear from you essbee. LOL re: HRH Soupy!

Essbee - nice to see you online, and that you are getting the support and help available. Take care of yourself. Everyone really does care.

Only read your first post here but wanted to send a big hug your way and I'm not normally a huggy person.

Essbee

Head up, tits out, bum in and walk tall, you are an amaxzing woman.

lots of love

LGJ

Why is it that whenever I just type and post, I end up looking like a CODette ??

Obviously I meant amazing

Essbee, glad to hear that Soupy is looking after you fantastically well (not that for a second I doubted she would!!) I hope your meeting with your GP goes well.

xxx

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Wishing you all the best xxx

essbee, I haven't seen the comment you refer to - can't find it in the sea of support that's here for you. Surely that says something. There's a card in the post from me and you are in my thoughts. There's been suicidal depression in my family and I would always take thoughts and actions like yours seriously. You did the right thing for yourself AND YOUR CHILDREN by posting here - give yourself some credit. Take it easy on yourself - guilt and self-blame are wasted emotions. Onwards and upwards.

A big hug from me.

EB - big hugs honney((((((hugs)))))) just hope you manage to work thru your bits and bobs, remeber we're all here for u on here, if u wanna chat/ let things out, better to vent on here than do something silly.

you've been having a rought trot hon, don't beat urself up about it, i'm sure u're a wonderful mum and very loving, i'm sure u'll find ur way again. just hang on in there, it will get better hon, promise.

Remember, we're all here for you.

Silly moo.

essbee - really good to see you back.

Keep talking when you feel like it. Take care.

xx