I'm so so sorry

[essbee]

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[big hug] essbee - you WILL get through this

You're going to take that first step, by going to the GP tomorrow, and try and grab as much help as is on offer to you. As long as you take the first step, there should be support to you. Just booking that appointment, and speaking honestly to your GP is a great thing for you to have managed.

There's no magic bullets for dealing with depressive periods - you just have to ride through the worst bits in the best way you can, and look through to happier times ahead. alcohol doesn't work, as it depresses you further afterwards.

Essbee it's good to see you back. Take care of yourself.

essbee, lots and lots of luck for today and your GP meeting. I think soupy is a star too.

It might be good if possible to have a bit more time away from your children and work so you can rest (whether at your home or at a friends home) Is this the longest time your parents and exh have looked after your children alone? If so, it will be interesting to see how they are coping (especially your parents) and if this changes their attitudes to you once they experience for themselves how much you have been taking on.

So glad to hear you sound more determined essbee. Telling the gp everything should help - hopefully they'll find something that works for you now. All the things you're doing sound really positive. Good luck for the gp today, hope this is the start of things getting a lot better xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Essbee, I'm so glad you're going to talk honestly to your gp, good for you.

Essbee - I wasn't in work yesterday so just caught this. Don't apologise, it must have been very scary for you.... and probably still is! You have a fight ahead of you but the fight is just SO worht it in the end.

WELCOME BACK!!!

Thinking of you Essbee. So many people think so highly of you. Please don't run yourself down. Good luck at the GP. Today is a new day. xxxxx

essbee.. well done on taking the first step.

Tell the GP everything, and hopefully things will start rolling, and you will finally get the help you have been needing for so long.

You have many, many friends who care (despite not knowing you in RL!!!).

You will get through this.

Well done essbee. Glad to hear you are feeling a bit more positive and ready to take steps forward. Remember...baby steps, take one day at a time.

I know how you feel right now, having been there myself. If you want to chat off board, feel free to email or msn me. antlxstew at yahoo.co.uk

xx

es - well done you, as thre others have said, baby steps at fist, one hour at a time or not thinking about 'it' is definatly progress. I hope all goes well for you today at the doctors, remeber thou as much as u'll have bad times, u'll also have good times, when u feel a bad one coming on, sit down and think about all the good in your life - your children for one thing. we've all had depression so u're not alone with ur thinking. Allow urself to be supported by ppl in RL, and look to the confort of them helping you back on ur feet. also if u can ask the dr for a referal to a councillor - they're lovely, and they don't judge you. (((((hugs)))))) you're a braver person for coming back than one who didn't. so big hugs honney.

I think if you know you cant trust yourself alone then it is paramount you take yourself back to hospital. It is not safe for your children either. Could you get help off social services with childcare until you are better. In my opinion it is not worth the risk yet of you trying to cope alone yet. Please tell the doctor everything, for you and your childrens safety.

She is at the docs now. Fingers, toes, eyes and everything else crossed please you lot

Essbee - I think you are being very brave and strong facing up to how you are feeling and trying to do something about it. It is definitely not the 'easy' option. I hope you manage to tell your GP everything and that they are able to offer you appropriate help and support but I think you are in a good place recognising that you need to do it for yourself. I don't 'know' you but I have a lot of respect and admiration for how you are handling this. I wish you all the very best of everything. RD xxx

Thinking of you essbee....hope the GP was able to offer you the advice and support to help you get through this.
take care.
JMxxx

essbee, i know you are really ill and have been for some time and I am sorry about this. I am just a bit concerned that your son is with his Father who, in the past, has assaulted him. Would it not be better for him to go to emergency foster care? Have soial services not been in touch at all to give you some support?

Essbee, I hope it went well at the GPs. Going to my GP and telling her exactly how I felt, what I had done/thought about doing to myself and ds and the baby in my belly was so so painful, but it was a complete turning point for me. Eventually I saw it all written down in a psych report, and that certainly shocked me into determination to feel better. I know what you mean about "craving it", there are times when it feels such a comforting thought, but hopefully those times will become less and less frequent. They are with me!

Thinking about you lots. xx

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(((hugs)))) essbee - glad things went ok at the GPs.

Essbee, that's fantastic, what a lot you have achieved today.

hi honey. You sound like you are doing all the right things. Don't try and do too much and use any help that is offered. Hope to see you very soon.

XX

congratulations on taking some very positive first steps. xxx

Essbee - we just all wanted to help so much and with your troubles recently we all couldn't decide what would be best from house cleaning to child care to pampering you! I know we all hope it's a help to you, because we all think you are pretty great

I'm glad your GP listened to you.
Good luck with camhs tomorrow. I hope they finally give ds the help he needs. xx