Simpsons ((hugs)) about your DD, I know how awful 'bottom' problems can be, DD2 tore her bottom a few times recently from consipation and it wasn't very pleasant at all! Hope she's continuing to do well - is it a relief to now know what you're dealing with? Hope DH's work continues to go smoothly too.
honeybunmum, sounds like you've had a tough time of it too but I'm glad to hear the St. Johns wort is helping - go for it girl!!!
daisy - oh my goodness, how is DD now? You poor thing! We took DD2 to the emergency doctor on Christmas day as she ended up having an ear infection and chest infection and we all had the 'lurgy' cold thing thats been going around too
Hello to everybody else and (((hugs))) xxxx
Well, I've had a rough couple of weeks - Christmas itself was nice but then it all went downhill in the New Year really - here's a condensed version of events:
DH had been going on about 'giving up' the green in the New Year for months now, I haven't said a thing apart from pointing out the obvious effects his habit has on the rest of us (he gets very withdrawn, the financial implications etc). He's had to go without many a time recently because I've had to put my foot down and make sure the kids get fed rather than him getting his smoke. Anyway, I mentioned a while ago that I dobbed him in to the doctor didn't I? Basically, the green stops his anti-depressants from doing their job so he's making himself more ill really. When I told the doctor, DH wasn't happy at all but started coming round to the idea of the clinic. (as mentioned before, it helps with drug dependency of all kinds including cannabis). I told him he needed their help in order to stop properly but he kept putting it off and basically acting like a typical addict. Forward wind to this New Year - he tried to give up but kept relapsing and I got to the point where I laid down an ultimatum and told him he had to go to the clinic or he would have to move out. I've been a single parent before and if I have to do it again then I will. It wasn't an easy thing to do and I was of course worried it might backfire but I couldn't see any other way forward. In the meantime, I had a doctors appointment for a repeat prescription. So, I went to the doctors and lo and behold, I broke down into a sobbing mess and pretty much begged him to help me (he knows everything about DH and DD2 etc). He's put me on anti-depressants and said he thinks its a mixture of pnd, living with DH and also everything that happened with DD2 as he's kept an eye on me since she was born. I've not been sleeping or eating properly, my periods are all over the place and I'm generally a wreck to be honest so I took the offer of help with both hands and I'm now in the same ad's as DH!!!
That clinic didn't open until the afternoon and I was over at my parents, waiting to find out if he had gone or not - thankfully he did and I have to say it was such a relief! I'm not under any illusions that him going is suddenly going to fix everything but at least he has made a move in the right direction. They have a plan in place for him to give up in three months time and in that time he'll be going to one-on-one sessions and keeping a diary etc. He said that although its one of the hardest things he's ever done, it was awesome!!!!!!! From what he's told me, they will do more in six months there than the community psychiatric unit has done in the last six years!!!
So, there it is, of course there's lots more to it than that but it gives you an idea. I started on the ad's on Thursday and have been spaced out and a little emotional and sicky but not too bad. I was on a small dose last time but he's put me straight on the 20 mg this time but I'm determined not to let them keep me on the sofa for more than a day or so. DH keeps telling me he knows how I feel and saying that I'll be out of action for at least a week but I'm not like him - I won't give in to it and wallow in it, I'm a mum and I have to get on with things. Saying that, he has been looking after me as much as he can but I'm wondering if thats the guilt lol!
Sorry its all me, me, me, I keep doing this don't I! I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself and slightly frustrated that I'm now officially 'depressed' too but at the same time, its a good thing because these tablets might actually help me get my life back on track. As far as DH goes with the clinic, well the proof is in the pudding as they say so I'll keep you posted!!
Love to you all and I truly do think about you all every day, even if I don't post very often xxxxxxxxxxx