Can anyone chat to me? Desperately lonely.

[Needalisteningear]

I am so lonely. This is going to be long.

My mum passed on xmas day last year. She had cancer and wasn't very old. She didn't die of cancer though, it was medical negligence.
My dad couldn't cope and moved to another country.
My ltr has just ended.
My kids are at their dads.
I have no friends. I've realised that. I have acquaintances from my dc groups. I've never really fit into friend groups. I was and still are, I suppose, hanging onto friend groups.
My past is an embarrassment (not my children) and I am so desperate to be happy that I just allow things that shouldn't happen in a relationship, to happen.
My life is a joke. The only good thing about it is my kids and tonight, I'm really struggling with loneliness.
I have no family left and the people who I have reached out to have finished the conversation after a couple of messages.
I suffer with ptsd and other mental health issues that stem from past relationships.

Is anyone around just to chat. Just so I can stop crying a bit?
Well done if you managed to read this far! And thank you x

YOU GO GIRL X

I feel like I've not 'achieved' much today so felt a little low and I've wasted a day so just gone through next weeks diary and picked a few tasks to do - wrote myself a task list for the day and ticked them off, sad of me but I can go to sleep happy now -haha-

See, I don't agree! This thread is my inspiration! Every reply on here is my inspiration! I've never had so many people have my back at potentially the lowest point in my life 🥲

Right back at you! X

That's an achievement! How are you feeling now? Are you ok?
Lists and tasks getting ticked off feels amazing! You've definitely not wasted a day! I'm currently writing my relationship journey out. It's quite cathartic! I'm getting everything that's in my head on paper x

Hi there. I feel similar to you. Lost my lovely mum when she was quite young. No family. No friends. Crap job I only stick with because it works around my kids. I also can't connect with other parents. I'm married but very alone. My husband doesn't understand basic human emotions. He works long shifts so I'm like a single mum and we are passing ships. It's very hard. I'm only starting to accept my loneliness to be honest.

This is so good to hear. Not about the tears but about your plans and the ways you're finding of coping. The evening with DD sounds lovely. And I'm inspired by reading about your exercise goals to go out in the rain to do Parkrun. Thought I was going to be accompanying DD to a uni open day but she's not well, so I have no excuse.

Happy Belated Birthday OP! xx

Morning all, morning @Needalisteningear .

@Needalisteningear I thought you were going to suggest a meet-up in the NW!

Great way of coping to exercise - two birds with one stone.

Cherish the time with your dd, it goes so fast x

Well hopefully one day you will be and I'd love to come to one of those classes, what an amazing idea.
What a lovely night with your Dd and the memories she'll remember, it really is the little things in life that help us. X

Hi! How are you feeling? It's horrible being lonely! I'm sorry to hear about your mum, it's hard being a mum without a mum! X

Aw no, I hope she's feeling better soon! I'm determined to change my mindset, and my whole life really! I want to live again! I haven't run yet, I'll get there once I'm a bit further with working out x

Thank you! It was an odd one but I suppose it can be the start of my new life! X

Good afternoon! How are you x

I would love a NW meetup if anyone is around?!

Exercise is really clearing my mind!

She's brilliant, they all are! Chaotic but brilliant x

Please do! There's a long way to go. I need to get myself fit first! But I'm determined.
You're absolutely right, it is the little things in life!

Awww north west couldn't be any further from me! Hope you manage to make it happen though x

Ah heck! We're talking hours, aren't we?! X

I call Newcastle the north west and I'd say about four hours.

I made a post this morning similar to yours! I struggle to make friends and am lonely, I also have mental health issues which impact how I am able to socialise and interact with people. I hope you are feeling a bit better now. It is really hard isn't it!

I'm up for a meet up - could we arrange somewhere like a national trust place and have a walk/coffee?

@Aspecialplaceinhell sorry NW is so far from you!

@Needalisteningear
It's brilliant you've noticed what makes you feel good & that you've identified a goal to work towards. You've made some great connections on here so I think you'd be awesome at bringing people together to get fit physically & emotionally. Do it!!! 😊

Sounds like you've got a lovely relationship with your kids. Lots to feel proud of!

I did not see your post but I understand how you feel. It can be so hard to make friends in a world that is so full of busy people.

I was there last year 🤣 yeah you're about 3 hours from me! We could do a central meet up and NE and west yorks could make it?! X