General support thread 2

[Helplessandheartbroke]

All welcome. No judgement and kindness all around x

Curious.. can I go up to 80mg fluxoetine? Google is giving me mixed answers 🫠🫠

Thank you @EmmaEmerald for your message, I appreciate you writing to me. I guess I miss how my old home used to be when I had first moved in, but not how it was when I left. Different landlord, rent rises, noisy neighbours. I was finding it very stressful. I was so looking forward to moving. Since I found out I was losing my job I completely deflated. A lot of my stuff is still in boxes. I don't know if I'll be able to stay here if I can't find another job soon.
I realised last time I was in a bad way that even if I reach out, nobody can/will help.

Have u thought about seeing your gp @fara20 ? If you’re feeling low and it’s all getting on top of you it might be worth having a chat with a doctor and seeing if they can offer support? X

Hey, I’m new here!
Hope this is ok to post…

I started back on sertraline 2 days ago after being off them for 3 years, someone please tell me the jaw clenching and metal mouth is a side effect that will be gone soon😫 (last time i had it i was in the midst of PND, lockdown and a new baby so I can’t remember how long it lasted for).

I can just about deal with the feeling wired but the constant clenched jaw is enough to make me want to stop🤯 x

@Whycantgiraffesdance I haven't been to the GP surgery here yet. I registered, and I need to go there and fill out a form to set up my repeat prescription. I just haven't even done that yet.

Hi everyone.

Welcome @fara20 and @CPx08 and sorry to hear your both struggling. @fara20 defo speak to your gp and get your repeat prescription can you make it your job for tomorrow? @CPx08 I've not had sertraline have you read the leaflet? Or Google? Someone on here may be able to help x

@hk1993x my gp said 60mg is the highest x

@snowfoxglove hope you're doing ok. What triggered it with said relative to begin with? Can you share? X

Growing up it was very hard (not the most nurturing family) and focus was often on surival, not love. I have had a lot of bad memories and experiences and traumas from said family member. Come Easter I exploded and imploded when it was just too much stress.

There's no specific trigger because I can't forget how badly I was treated, and I find it exhausting trying to play happy family. It's a tad easier aiming for courtesy and co-existance. I am able to find and reciprocate love but not with said family member. My body is constantly on high-alert and survival mode.

How are things with you @Helplessandheartbroke ? How have you been? Have you been sleeping better? Thank you for thinking of me. Xx

Welcome @fara20 and @CPx08

This thread helped me a lot. Progress didn't happen at once but knowing I was writing here where people also struggled helped me a lot.

It's exhausting enough having bad MH days, let alone pretend you are okay when you're not. Keep writing! Someone else may have the answer to a piece of the puzzle that could help, and we are in this together. It's okay not to be okay and it helps to chat with people who struggle in similar ways.

@snowfoxglove agree with all the above and it does help a lot speaking to like minded people who understand what you're going through. It's hardly surprising you're triggered by said relative if you have past traumatic experiences. I guess you need to decide if you can forgive and not forget but move on?

I'm up and down a lot lately. It's the what's ifs and self hatred I'm struggling with. Blaming myself for everything and convincing myself It's not my ocd and my thoughts are right and just a constant knot in my stomach like constantly anxious or feeling guilty 😥i hope it is my ocd and I'm not such a shit person x

@Helplessandheartbroke I can't tomorrow, I have an interview for a temp job on Teams, and then a phone chat about another temp job. I have enough meds to last a while. I think I'll make an appointment though.
The mornings are the worst, I wake up and think "sh*t".
Thank you for setting up this thread. It does help to write it down and get opinions.

@Helplessandheartbroke You're a good person lovely. @Kielyflower also wrote that you help people get together and helped us connect. That's very hard and I couldn't have done that with my problems but you did.

Whilst having depression I noticed a lot of time my own self-hatred and guilt and this sense of being worthless came up. I completely empathise.

Waves of OCD and intrusive thinking come and go. But when it hits, it hits hard and it's a lot. It's easy to believe those gremlins. It really is hard. Other people don't understand how hard it is. It will subside though.

@fara20 best of luck with your interviews! I'm glad the thread has helped x

@snowfoxglove I have been quite outing on here haven't I... thank you for your kind post. I wish I could believe you! 😪 how are you today? X

Hope everyone has a nice day x

Morning ladies. @Helplessandheartbroke I agree, you are a huge support on this thread.
Feeling slightly better than earlier in the week. @Helplessandheartbroke I'm also struggling with the 'what if's' . It's a bit more like background noise atm rather than dominating my brain as it was earlier in the week. I do wonder if it will always be about as I do have a diagnosis of OCD and maybe I have to accept that I need to manage it as best I can.🤷‍♀️
When I think about it, a lot of my thoughts/doubts could be true for a 'normal ' person but a 'normal' person just seems to have a confidence that I don't.
It's so hard to explain!
It's like the things I worry and doubt about I kind of know deep down they're boll**ks, there is this gut feeling that tells me it's the anxiety talking but then there is this lack of confidence, this doubt that comes and say's but 'what if' your wrong?
Anyone else relate??
Its exhausting. Sending love to you all. X

Just a continuation from my previous ramble 😉
How does a non anxious person 'just know'?
For example I get intrusive thoughts about 'what if' I've ran someone over on my drive home if I can't remember the whole journey.
Loads of people drive their regular journey's and can't remember the whole thing. Sometimes my DH will say he can't even remember which route home he took (there are 3 possibilities) and I'll say that would totally stress me out. If you can't remember the route you took then 'what if' you ran someone over and can't remember it. He say's if something happened he would just know. I just can't get my head around that. It just doesn't work like that for me. There is always doubts and possibilities and worry. How do people 'just know'???
Sorry for the rant, just feeling a little frustrated. X

@Ilovedogs1 I feel like we understand each other well from posts on here and private chats we've had. You know a lot of my worries and I relate to a lot of yours. I felt like this when ddog died. The horrendous guilt and what ifs but dh had none of that. He was very pragmatic and logical and went to work the next day where I didn't move out of bed hardly for a week. I too wonder how people can be like this.

You've also been a great support too, thank you x

I don’t suffer from OCD so I can’t really relate but I really feel for the ladies that do as it sounds relentless. But we are all still here fighting the good fight, we should be proud of ourselves for that! 💪🏻

Update:

My MH is doing a lot better since I started cutting pills in half. I have much more energy and less lethargy. This extra boost of energy helps me fight and carry on even when it's a bit hard. Finally had good rest today which I so desperately needed.

But what really helped was friendship and solidarity. I still have my core problem (family member who triggers me) so it's going to be ups and downs, but at least I'm in a somewhat better place. What really helped was these threads and friendships and ladies on here.

Thinking of you @Helplessandheartbroke @Ilovedogs1 @Whycantgiraffesdance and everyone else xx

My family member told me yesterday "You know I love you and that I'm not going to hurt you" yesterday. I could tell they were sincere but I just don't enjoy their company. I wish I could but I don't.

What I learned is whilst talking to some people you'll get in your head a bit too much. It's important to talk to people who get you out of your head and don't ruminate about ourselves that much.

Here we talk about our problems so sometimes it's a bit uncomfortable because healing our wounds does hurt a bit so to say, but it did help me, even though it's not easy sharing your problems even if people who get it. But it did help a lot.

Distraction helps me out a lot when I'm in the midst of anxiety or OCD moment. And some time just for myself so I can recharge my batteries.

@Whycantgiraffesdance we are all suffering in different ways and the support we show one another is important. Thank you. Hope you're doing ok x

@snowfoxglove thats great news! What meds is it youre on? I keep thinking of weening off mine but not sure I'm quite there yet. Did family member reassure you any? X

Hope everyone has a nice weekend x

Hello everyone. How was the weekend?
Feeling more positive than the beginning of last week but then there is that feeling of 'how long will it last' or ' where's the catch ' type feeling. It's kind of like a feeling that the anxiety/OCD is lingering about waiting to pounce but not knowing when. Maybe I just have to accept anxiety will just always be there and try to manage it as best I can. What do others think about giving yourself 'worry time' and physically writing down thoughts?

@Ilovedogs1 hey. Glad you're feeling better. Cognitive restructure is good if you know how to turn the thoughts positive.

I'm having a horrible time. I've now been referred for high intensity cbt.

Convinced myself that ddog gunky ear was an ear infection when he was pts and that I neglected him. (Bull bread often got gunky ears which dh cleaned) x

Hi ladies, so naturally we're all very gloomy at the min and I'm very grateful for this thread and the women on here. So is anyone up for a challenge tonight? To post 1 positive thing each? It could be a joke or a pic of something you're doing?

I'll start. I've just poured this for myself. Why? Because it's my guilty pleasure :) I don't usually drink on a Tuesday but sod it x

@Helplessandheartbroke it's needed! I was the same yesterday! At least we all have each other to cheer on x

gloomy is a really good description of how I feel today!

my positive from today is that I took my ds to the dentist today and he was so excited! 🤣 he was so proud when the nurse gave him a sticker 🥺 so grateful for my children ❤️xx