General support thread 2

[Helplessandheartbroke]

All welcome. No judgement and kindness all around x

@Helplessandheartbroke I was wondering. 😁

@hk1993x I really feel for you love. When I was in the middle of my breakdown last year I remember thinking 'what am I going to do, this will never end' and people kept saying it will get better and I just couldn't see it. But it did. I know it's a cliche but it did. Keep fighting, you will get there.
Having a bit of a dip myself atm and that terrifies me that I'll be really ill again but you have to look out for the 'glimmers' I think it was somebody on here that called it a glimmer. Those fleeting moments of clarity and calm. Hold onto them. X

Just genuinely had enough of it all, just want it all to stop 😔 my 10 year old daughter asked me today can I go back to being happy again and it broke my heart 🥹. This mental health shit is breaking me. How are you doing? x

@hk1993x sorry to hear that. I hope you're better soon! Sleep as much as possible it will help in all aspects x

@Ilovedogs1 I read it and thought oh shit 😂hope you're better soon too x

@Whycantgiraffesdance I did 3 days after mat leave it was bliss! X

I feel like I'm having a panic attack right now x

I was where u are a few months ago @hk1993x so I totally understand just wanting everything to go away, i didn’t want to die but I just wanted the mental torture to stop. Touch wood, I am beginning to come out of the other side but I couldn’t see any light or hope at the end of the tunnel for a long time BUT it did come. And it will for you too ❤️

do u think the ECT has made any difference at all? Will they offer u more sessions if not? Xx

Concentrate on your breathing @Helplessandheartbroke are u ok lovely? What’s bought it on? X

I'm just so down and unwell I genuinely wish I go to sleep tonight and don't wake up in the morning and it breaks my heart saying that cause I want to live. I want to be alive but I want to be happy. I'm not happy, I'm miserable, I'm on survival mode everyday and I need to wait till these new meds kick in. My Dr is on annual leave this week so no idea what's happening and the home treatment team have been as helpful as a chocolate fire guard, I don't think they know what to do with me 🥹 I don't need sectioned, I just want to feel alive again xx

I try to sleep as I'm absolutely exhausted but leaving dh to tend to kids etc is making me feel so guilty. I have my first app with a private Councillor tomorrow for therapy as nhs is a long waiting list 😪

Think my immune system is down as I now have a sore chest and sore throat so that's fabulous.

I hope your panic attack passes soon hun. Get yourself a nice cuppa and watch something you like on TV for a wee distraction. Please vent on here 💚

Sorry to hear several of you have been having a tough day 😞 I hope you all manage to get a good night's rest

I thought I was feeling a bit better the last couple of days, but I've booked a couple of things in for tomorrow (hair cut and a pottery lesson which was my mother's day present) but instead of looking forward to them, my anxiety is now sky high. Apparently I'm not feeling as ok as I thought!

@Whycantgiraffesdance I'm 46 but had symptoms since 37? Both my grans and mum went thru menopause at 40 so I knew I would be early. Just when I thought I was done at 40 I discovered I was actually 🤰. Since having him the symptoms have been nuts and it's not a one type fits all or does in the long term it constantly needs tweaked.
@Helplessandheartbroke who are you kidding? X

Hi all not sure If it was a panic attack or palpitations as it's still ongoing... so fed up with my head. Window cleaner was asking after ddog yesterday one that's not been for a while and we both cried..... then dm had her dcat pts today so it's just sad all around. Hooe everyone has a good night's sleep! Will check in tomorrow. Solidarity ladies x

Thank you for sharing @Dawn1331 I’m 41, had my dd at 39. I have no doubt that I’m suffering from PND but I just feel like there something else going on as well which could be hormone related. It’s so hard to get help for both at the same time though and to know what’s working and what’s not! I went back on the pill a few weeks ago in desperation as I feel like I need the stability of not having ovulation/ periods etc but worried now I might make myself worse!

hope everyone is ok today x

Back to the firey pits of depression and anxiety today. 🥹 it never ends x

Is your counselling today lovely? X

May I join? I'm feeling so lost at the moment and very alone

@fara20 of course lovely, anyone can join! Has anything in particular happened to make u feel like this? x

@Whycantgiraffesdance thank you. I don't know where to start. I lost my job last month. I moved to a totally new area just before that, which is quite rural. I wanted quiet. Now I think I made a mistake.

Keep talking to us if it helps! Do you have a family or live alone? x

I live alone, and I was quite OK with that until now. I'm almost a year into menopause and have been on anti depressants for years. I was going to adopt a pet, but now I don't feel secure enough.

I implemented some boundaries. I change my mobile number so I no longer get annoying calls. I also implemented boundaries so when we're together at home, we spend a lot of time apart (me and that family member that triggers me). I also take half of Escitalopram instead of one tablet.

I find that I have more energy and that I'm not tired all the time. I still have moments of OCD and chronic stress and anxiety but it's a bit better.

I'm wondering -- why can't I get along with that family member? They do nice things for me, but I am just so tense when they are around me. Weird. It would be so much eaiser if I had thicker skin around them but I don't.

A bit better but not 100%. How is everyone else doing?

Yeah the therapist was lovely. Had a few chats today and feel a little better this evening. Just praying it continues, still excited for bedtime though lol. Was very bad today, lots of suicidal ideation etc 😕 How is everyone this evening?

I’m glad u got on well with the therapist, it always makes me feel better to talk things through with someone. I’m ok, feel like I’m stuck somewhere in the middle between crisis and recovery at the moment! lol x

It's annoying isn't it. What I would give to be free from it all 💚🥹

I just hopped on to say hi. I had a much better weekend than I was expecting.

@fara20 your situation caught my eye

I moved last year and mostly I think it was a mistake but tbh it depends on many things....i can't know what things would have been like if I hadn't moved. I can make assumptions but they might not be correct IYSWIM.

So I understand the feeling. Losing your job on top of that is really hard, I'm so sorry.

I wish I was more resilient to life's ups and downs. I'm still very glad to live alone and wouldn't want a pet, but I know loneliness is hard 💐

I was having loads of issues with it before moving so one thing hasn't had too much of an effect on the other though. It's just moving is such a huge thing to do. I'm still dealing with the fallout and have no idea where things are half the time. Also really miss my old home.

@Whycantgiraffesdance menopause is the worst. The Dr's aren't really trained in it and lump it and the mental health side together. Some days I'm so lost and detached and I just want it to be over so I can deal with one thing at a time x