General support thread 2

[Helplessandheartbroke]

All welcome. No judgement and kindness all around x

@Whycantgiraffesdance love that! And yes to our children! The reason I drag myself to work every day. Cheers 🍻 x

Hi all!

Checking in after a while. I hope everyone is okay.

I'm feeling a bit sorry for myself tonight.

I have recently been diagnosed with ADHD and I can see how it's impacted my life along with anxiety, depression and low self-confidence.

I mentioned that my last relationship ended. A lot of it being my fault. Now I am 34 I'm really sick of my own bullshit. But im thinking...what do I change? How do I change?

Being an adult is tough!

One positive thing...I like that! I got to spend quality time with people I love this week and I have a great job.

@JamSandle sorry I'm laid up in bed with a sickness bug. Do you need to change? I believe there's someone out there for everyone and noone should have to change who they are x

Hope u feel better soon lovely 🥰 @Helplessandheartbroke

Hi everyone,

I made a mistake. I reduced my AD from 5 MG of Escitalopram to 2.5 MG. Mistake. Initially, I did feel more talkative, assertive, and energetic.

However last 3 or 4 days were horrible. I felt anxious, crying, and guilty for existing. I learned today that one shouldn't taper off Escitalopram so quickly and that much because one experiences withdrawal symptoms.

I just wanted to experience motivation, and desire again, and feel zest for learning things.

I feel like rubbish and horrible today. Crying and just wishing for MH pain to go away. So back to 5 MG per day.

I hope it's okay I wrote this here, I just wanted to document it.

My positive thing is that I'm able to chat with people who understand me on MN. Sending you hugs lovely @Helplessandheartbroke 💐 I hope you heal xx

@Whycantgiraffesdance thank you. How are you feeling? Not been sick since this morning and just decided to get in the bath as I feel rotten x

@snowfoxglove that's what our threads are for lovely! Stop questioning yourself. I for one am so glad you exist you've been a real comfort to me. I'm not going to say 'don't think like that' as of course you can't help it and I too often feel the same. Give us a positive thing you've managed? X

@Helplessandheartbroke my anxiety is overwhelming at the moment, I don’t really know what’s going on as I thought I was doing better but it’s rocketed again and I feel like I need a tranquilliser or something to calm me down!! I went back on the pill 3 weeks ago and I’m beginning to think that’s what’s making me worse! But do I come off again or persevere?! 😣

@Whycantgiraffesdance can you go on a different pill type? Hormones definitely won't help. Speak to the nurse and see what they recommend. Are you still focusing on the what if this happens etc? X

I see the perinatal psychiatrist Friday so hoping he can shed some light on things! 🤞🏻

Fingers crossed! I told my therapist on Monday. The worst part of all this, is knowing you're doing it to yourself but not knowing how to stop x

Thank you so much @Helplessandheartbroke

It feels so good to be able to connect with people who truly understand and who are going through something similar. Yes, one can't help but think like that.

Sometimes we just need to get through the day. At least I understand that tapering too much too quick isn't the best idea. I did manage to iron my clothes so I suppose it's a positive thing because it's been hard. You have been a real comfort for me too.

@snowfoxglove you've done better than me! I've got to iron mine and ds clothes in the morning. I wished we all lived local and could go for a drink!

Sending hugs to you all. I've had a shit day 😒🥹

Basically the psychiatrist told me that it's just bad luck I'm this way and there's nothing else he can do for me or prescribe me or tell me whats wrong with me. There is no clarity or clear diagnosis but a mixture of amxiety, depression, ocd and some sort of emotional distress disorder. He was so condescending and contradicting and has basically told me that im just one of the unlucky ones 🥹 he is referring me back to community team. So I'm hoping for someone nicer ❤️

@hk1993x no bedside manners. It's not uncommon with some NHS workers as I believe they become hardened to these things as they see them day in and day out. It's the norm to them. My sil is a nurse and her view on death etc is a lot different to mine but she's hardened to it. Dont take it personally. Are you done with your ect now? X

Yeah, so all that and nothings changed 🥹 hopefully the new doc at community hospital is alot nicer xx

@hk1993x should you have noticed a difference by now? X

Yep! 🥹 xx

@hk1993x ok don't worry. On to the next thing to try.... I'm with you as it's been over 4 months for me now and although I'm not calapsing qny more I'm still hurting badly. This isn't the answer at all but I've got a holiday booked for the end of May that I'm looking forward to. First thing I've looked forward to in a long time x

@hk1993x This has been my experience, as well. Sadly, it's common to run into an arrogant psychiatrist with no empathy.
I know how disheartening it is to finally ask for help and then be treated like that. It's not you or your fault. It's just how a lot of them are.
I hope you have better luck with someone nicer

Hi all,

still here plodding along! How is everyone today?

i saw the perinatal psychiatrist today, he was so lovely! He’s adjusted my meds and we will review in a month.

a holiday sounds lovely @Helplessandheartbroke were going away for half term too, I’m looking forward to it but I’m also mega anxious 😟

how are u today @hk1993x ? X

Hi ladies how are you all? I'm still poorly feeling very sorry for myself. Been asleep for hours so awake now if anyone wants to keep me company.

@Whycantgiraffesdance I feel similar. I also feel like I don't deserve a nice holiday if that makes sense? Where you off to? X

@Helplessandheartbroke Why do you think you don’t deserve it sweet? We’re going to Portugal, what about u? X

@Whycantgiraffesdance it boils down to my main issue atm the self hatred. The what's ifs and self doubt. I'm waiting on high intensity therapy now to try and tackle this.

Never been Portugal looks lovely though. Were off the lanzarote x

I’m looking forward to some sun and just relaxing although it won’t be that chilled with the two kids! My biggest worry is that I’ll still feel anxious and panicy on holiday and will spoil it for everyone 🙈