General support thread - come on in

[Kielyflower]

I couldn’t see a recent one of these so thought I’d start one.

I just feel I need to do something positive so will hopefully share some more thoughts later that I hope will help - others as well as myself.

In the meantime, feel free to check in as, if nothing else, it helps to feel less alone.

How is everyone today? I didn't sleep well at all. My thoughts turned into dreams and I was disturbed all night. @JamSandle I'm using my phone too. If you click on someone's post in the top right where the ... is there should be a drop down option to pm x

Hi ladies. Sorry I have been gone. I tried adjusting my sleeping pattern back to normal, and I was worried I'd jinx myself if I posted to soon.

I finally realised I have PTSD. Yesterday I spent time with the dreaded family member, and something (small) they did started that stream of intrusive thoughts and OCD.

I had a breakdown of sorts. Everything felt so bleak and hopeless and numb. I did manage to cry a bit.

It feels a bit hopeless tbf. No matter how much I eat healthy, walk, have a bit sunshine and make progress in feeling better. As soon as I spend time with them, I get back to feeling dread, fear, and becoming ruminative, and it brings me back to the start.

I tried lowering contact a bit but I still spend my nights with migraines. I'm technically not alone. But in reality I am because I'm forced to spend time with someone who is bad for my MH.

I'm sorry for writing this long. I'm so fatigued by this 😥

@snowfoxglove I'm sorry to read this. You've wrote about this person before. Can you not cut contact completely? Is there anyone in rl you can speak to? X

Morning all, feeling better today than yesterday in as much as I’ve been out of the house this morning with my mum, got up much earlier than I have been and managed to go into a few places that I’ve been avoiding but I don’t feel any better for doing it! 🙈 I know it’s progress but doesn’t make me feel any happier or less anxiety 😟

sorry to those that had a bad night, doesn’t make for a good next day does it 🫠x

Hi all.

Had a bad day, seen the psychiatrist and he recommended I go into hospital for ECT. I am so scared as I don't want to leave my home, I want to be home with my kids etc and not stuck in a room on my own 😔

There is other options that may be available such as changing medications etc

I am so so scared I've been bawling my eyes out 😔

Any advice please x

@Whycantgiraffesdance 1 step at a time sweet.

@hk1993x can you refuse if you don't want to go ahead? What does dh think? X

Yeah it's voluntary, I don't need sectioned but my psychiatrist has seen how distressed I am getting and noticed how much medication I have tried in this short life time. I'm not sure what DH thinks, I think he hates me 😔 even though he always tells me he loves me etc I feel like this isn't fair on him x

Oh @hk1993x you poor thing 😔 has that ever been an option suggested to you before? How do you feel about trying another medication instead?

obviously I don’t know your husband but I’m almost certain he doesn’t hate you, that is the depression talking, he loves you and will just want you to get better ❤️‍🩹

How do you feel about going in for it? And no your dh doesn't hate you sweet x

Oh bless you my sweet! It’s voluntary. So you don’t have to. It’s about what you think would help. A short stay to feel better in the long run or a different medication. They’re just giving you all the options. And I’m pretty sure that the only thing your DH hates is seeing you suffer.

@hk1993x sorry your feeling so bad. I wasn't aware ECT was done in the uk, I thought you had to go abroad for it.
How does your OCD manifest if you don't mind me asking?
Mine is thoughts/doubts that I've done something wrong/bad but I can't remember. Usually about things I'd never do. Then I feel this guilt as if I'm responsible for something bad even though I know I'm not.

If anyone else suffers OCD in this way I'd be interested to know . @Jk24 I know you've suffered in this way.

@hk1993x what did you decide?

@Ilovedogs1 yes but recently I can't only think about things I should have done mainly for ddog as you know. Both horrible thoughts to deal with and I don't know the answer. Wish I could turn back time and do all the things I wish I'd have done but then I'd only have something else to worry about x

I haven't decided yet. I have an appointment again at 1.30 tomorrow to discuss options, he was testing me for bi polar etc but he said its more severe anxiety and depression. He offered me to come off the fluoxetine and start clomipramine which is a trycylic? Medication. He thinks lithium side effects will do more harm than good. I just feel stuck xx

My DH thinks I should be in the hospital, he said he would take care of everyone and that at home and I need to get better.

I don't know what to do, I'm scared of being stuck in a room alone all day myself 😔😔

How long would u need to be in hospital for lovely? X

I'm not sure 😔 I'm just scared because my intensive home treatment team has said that being in hospital I would be in a room most of the day myself, very isolated etc and wouldn't get the one on one time I have with them coming to my home. I just don't want to get worse and be alone xx

Yea that does sound really scary when you’ve been so used to being looked after at home 😔 I guess see what the psychiatrist says today, has he seen you a few times or just yesterday?

for me personally I think the idea of ECT sounds quite drastic and I’d be worried of any long term effects on my memory which I’ve heard can be an issue ( but obviously I’m no doctor!) but if they think this will be the best option for you at this stage then it might be worth a shot 😘 hope u get some clarity today, you deserve to feel better 💐 xxxxx

How is everyone else doing today?

a bit off topic but I had a bad morning and have been watching tv to try and distract myself from my anxious thoughts… if anyone hasn’t watched One Day on Netflix I’d recommend it. Bit of a weepy but sometimes u need that!

lots of love to anyone else that is struggling today ❤️‍🩹

@Whycantgiraffesdance I'm not having the best day. Not working today so wanted to get some jobs done at home but I've ended up stuck in my head. This in turn has made me feel really tired. Fed up of OCD causing anxiety and doubt. Why can't I just trust myself. 😕

Having a bit of a pity party day. I've got a wonderful DH, great DC have got a job I really like . The only fly in the ointment is this sodding OCD and anxiety.
I know they call OCD the doubting disease and it probably comes up for many of us in various ways. Health anxiety for example. You know really deep down that your ok but because you can't have that 100% certainty the doubt and anxiety this causes just chips away at you. I just can't seem to see a way of being less doubtful about things. Its occupying my every waking hour these last few days. Psychologists say you have to accept uncertainty but how can that be done. 🤷‍♀️

So sorry your having a bad day @Ilovedogs1 ❤️‍🩹 I can’t really help as I’ve not suffered from OCD but it sounds awful and I really feel for you.

im having a very ‘woe is me’ day too, I feel so guilty putting my family through everything at the moment, I’m so miserable, my kids and partner deserve more 😢xx

Hello, can I join this thread?

Feel tonight like I don't know if I'll ever be at peace. About to turn 40. Suffered with MH in teens and 20s and as a result lost all school friends, uni friends etc. kept starting again. And again. Does anyone relate?

Just back from lovely night out for friends birthday and spent whole night in awful state of anxiety at realisation that everyone else has someone else. I'm not ones main person. I'm awful in group situations, don't know how to behave. Like I'm too much or not enough.

Just feel this constant knot in stomach at the moment.

I can totally relate to this, so you are not alone!

I have always suffered social anxiety and now I’m battling PND my anxiety is horrendous and I have that constant knot in my stomach all the time. I’m also 40!

do u have family? Any children? I’m sure there are people that care about u even if it doesn’t feel like it ❤️ xxx

Thank you @Whycantgiraffesdance
Yep I have a lovely husband and 2 primary age children. Youngest has ASD and is hard work but totally gorgeous. I have so much to be grateful for and I have to remind myself to focus on that. Thanks so much for replying x

Looks like I will be going into the psych ward for a minimum of 2 weeks for ECT.

Just needing some hugs and hand holdings, I'm absolutely petrified 😔🥹