Recovering from breakdown

[EmmaEmerald]

Does anyone have any experience of this?
I thought I'd had a nervous breakdown in my 20s but carried on working. This time I'm knocked out. I got up at 8 and need a nap already!

I am so sorry to hear that. Tough at any time, but now...how are you holding up?

I haven't been checking this thread which is a good sign, though I recall saying I'd stop before.

I think medication is making me more motivated. I am very stroppy and feeling the impacts of the poor life choices I made this year, but in a way I think that's healthy. I'm not just hiding away but trying to get stuff done and making plans to mitigate those poor choices, though the effects will be very long.

I'm making plans generally and trying to piece together all the stuff that's descended into chaos - which is most things. So I feel like there's a lot to do but I am doing it, albeit slowly.

I'm a bit pissed off with a friend who was all "I'm here whenever you need me" but went on holiday without telling me, didn't take her phone. It feels like a false promise of support now.

@TheBuggerlugs oh no, hope you are ok.
Still feeling very anxious. Not being helped by having a chest infection so really don't feel well. Intrusive thoughts are upping their game atm. Trying to plod on but so scared of having a major dip again. X

I'm so sorry to see that @TheBuggerlugs. Give yourself a few days for the nerves to settle

How is everyone?

I am experiencing such bad restless legs I might have to switch meds

but, should I bother taking meds at all? It is increasingly clear that mum is the problem. Honestly if there was a way I could get someone else to be her legal guardian, I would take it.

my life aside from her, and all the trouble she is bringing, is actually very good. So I wonder if it’s worth trying no meds. My doctor is too busy to think to interfere, I’m not due to report in now for two months.

i used to think I’d be on meds for life. But I’m not working much now so perhaps it’s a good time to do an experiment.

@EmmaEmerald I totally hear you re meds. I've been on medication for years and often wonder if it's working.
I think that adjusting behaviour and commitments (such as your mum) is a big game changer. I know it's a cliche but regular rest breaks and eating regularly really is important to keep you feeling ok.
The world is far to fast and people feel guilty if they sit down for 10 minutes.
You don't see a lion in the wild running from one task to the next. They spend a lot of time just chilling.
Sorry feel like that was a bit of a ramble.

Thank you for this, you're not rambling and I really appreciate your points

I have moaned here on other threads, but modern life with all the bloody tech, really takes it out of me. If there was work I could do without using a computer, I would go straight for it. I

I have spent most of my life thinking I don't do enough but clearly what I have to do already completely overwhelms me.

I do think meds help me but this lot are causing me terrible restless legs - I did a post about it - and also there's a distinct increase in my teeth grinding.

I've decided to dramatically reduce my dose, I'm not telling my doctor but I'm going to see if that helps.

I obviously can't do anything about my mum but I am going to start looking at other ways to help myself. I would really like a cleaner - it's just me in a one bed flat but if I can afford it, it's being spared one hassle.

I should probably start doing things like getting food delivered, I hate cooking but always do it to save money.

I was chatting to a client who has membership to a super posh gym and spa. I don't have that kind of money, but she was saying she spends most of her time there. That must be really helpful. She also said she never cooks. Sounds fab.

Hey. How's everyone doing?

Thanks for asking

i was borderline hysterical on Thursday and really wondered about the meds. Then on Friday I was much better. So currently very hard to gauge what is life related and what isn’t.

how are you?

That’s great that you are doing so well @TheBuggerlugs Best of luck with the phased return.
I’ve had a difficult few days. I had been doing better but feeling overwhelmed again - I’m worried that I’m not going to cope with full time longer term. It’s what I’ve always done so feels very odd.

Hey everyone. Been a couple of weeks, how's everyone doing?