@Notgettingbetter
Thank you for starting this thread and big hugs to everyone struggling at the moment.
I’m having a really difficult time at the moment due to a sudden onset of, as yet undiagnosed, ill health a few months ago. I also lost my Dad to Covid last year, my uncle to cancer and most recently MIL to heart problems last month. All such sad endings for them.
Like many of you on here I’m also ruminating over decisions I’ve made or actions I’ve taken on behalf of my DCs over the years which at the time I felt were done in their best interests but with hindsight may not have been. I worry about them all the time.
I have always been a slightly anxious person but the stress of the last two years of Covid and now the whole Omicron nightmare has really ramped up my anxiety to new levels.
My mental health is taking such a downward spiral that even my usually supportive and sympathetic DH is finding it hard to deal with now and I feel like he’s losing patience with me. I think even my friends and wider family are growing weary of me just not getting any better. Meanwhile they are busy getting on with their lives. It makes me feel so lost and lonely.
I’m having counselling and am on ADs but I’m sitting here this morning mentally making plans for my funeral because, due to my health and state of mind, I honestly don’t feel like I will make it through the next year. 