Suicidal today but don’t dare tell anyone

[PumpkinSpicedLatte]

I wrote a post the other day on here asking if things get better , and had some lovely people comment on it with their experiences. I have PND. I have a 5 week old .

I’m getting worse and it’s the weekend so I’m even more scared than usual to reach out to anyone . Two of my very close friends know I’m struggling and so does my husband . My husband has been out all day with some friends (which I am ok with ), I’ve come out on a walk with my daughter and I just feel awful. I look at her and I think she deserves so much better than me. My husband deserves a better wife and would my two friends be ok without me as I just burden them with my worries. Who wants a suicidal friend anyway?
I don’t know what to do . I don’t want to kill myself but I don’t want to go on anymore .

@PumpkinSpicedLatte

How are you doing? Really hope it all feels a little easier x

Yes we are all here!

On my way to a&e to be seen. I’ll update everyone on what they put in place for me because I can’t go on like this anymore

They sent me home with distraction techniques and numbers for helplines

Did they give you the number for the mental health crisis team in your area? Open 24/7

@buttons766 yes I’ve called them before , they’re usually very good

@PumpkinSpicedLatte how are you doing I do hope you're getting the help and support you deserve.

Just to update everyone who followed this thread, I am now in recovery and recently got my dream job. My daughter is two and a half now and life is so much brighter. Thanks for sticking around :)

You have no idea how happy I am to read your update. I can’t believe your daughter is 2.5 now!

Huge congratulations on your dream job, you must be over the moon.

So glad to hear everything is going well and you are recovering. ❤️

Ahhh what a fabulous update! So glad things are vastly better.

I got tablets from the doctor which helped a lot. Felt so much better and got better each week.
Please go to your Dr on Monday. X

Fantastic news. You've made me really happy. 2023 sounds like it will be your year.

Fantastic news so happy for you, life does get better and is worth living for you and your daughter. X

Revived an old username for this too to say that's brilliant! Well done OP, I wish you continued recovery and happiness

So so happy to hear this. Nothing lasts forever and you are proof of that! Well done for sticking around and getting yourself to the doctors. What an inspiration to those who themselves are in the position you was in xxx

@PumpkinSpicedLatte I am so happy for you. Wishing you all the best!

And well done (a huge, massive well done) on getting through it. You're so strong - never forget that!

That is such brilliant news.

I often checked back on this thread and wondered how you were.

Hi everyone, someone recently messaged me regarding this thread so I thought it would be good to do another update.
I am a year and a half into my job now, my daughter turns 4 in August and starts reception in September. Very thankful for you all seeing me through such dark times.

@PumpkinSpicedLatte this is the best update! I am so happy things are going so well for you and HOW is your daughter turning 4?!

So lovely to hear from you ❤️

@PumpkinSpicedLatte the best of updates! I hope life keeps you well. ❤️

Fantastic news @PumpkinSpicedLatte what a fabulous update

You deserve every happiness 💐

OP,
I only just read your update. Really pleased to see your life is in a good place.

I bet that's taken a hell of a lot of effort and determination on your part. You so deserve the easier ride.

Keep going, all the best x