They are sectioning me

[Chocolatethief]

Basically the title I got admitted last night by the police was assessed and I agreed to go into hospital so waiting for a bed but I dont want to. Today i asked to go home as I feel fine but they wont let me they have all agreed I have to go in and are waiting for a hed to be available to place me on the section so I'm stuck in a room with 2 members off staff and cant go anywhere I hate it. The staff are nice but I'm taking up space I dont need to be here.

Why do they think you need to be there?

I tried to end my life yesterday and because of how low my mood is and I'm not taking care of myself but I dont care about any of that stuff nothing matters to me anymore and a stay in hospital wont change that so its just wasting a bed for someone who wants and needs help.

What's happened? I'm off to bed but wanted to pop and say hello. I hope you get some sleep

I tried to end my life yesterday and because of how low my mood is and I'm not taking care of myself but I dont care about any of that stuff nothing matters to me anymore and a stay in hospital wont change that so its just wasting a bed for someone who wants and needs help

You definitely need to be there. Let them try and help you.

Trying to end your life is an indicator of a serious MH issue.
It doesn’t matter to you because you’re unwell.
Being in hospital will keep you safe whilst you receive the help you need.

You matter that's why they try and help. The mind is so powerful and when it's not well can make is feel allsorts of emotions. Or even non.

Caring about people doesn't work that way. They won't stop caring about you just because you don't think you're worth it

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They cant help though that's the problem if I thought they could I would agree to be there but they cant and wont I have been in before so know the score with it.

Give them a chance to help you, and good luck. I really hope you start to feel better soon

I'll post again in the morning. Keep talking to us all x

Chocolate thief, I'm sorry you are feeling like this. You are clearly very upset, I don't know what about, but I do know that it is getting on for midnight and I think the best place for you tonight is where you are.

MH teams are short of beds, they don't say someone needs a bed unless they are sure it is the right place for them to be.

No one wants you to hurt yourself, or put yourself in a vunerable position, stay safe tonight, try to get some sleep and talk to the MH team tomorrow, and I hope things will get sorted for you.

How do you know that no treatment would help?
My first AD didn’t help. Or the second. Or the third. But now I’m doing brilliantly. Better than in years.

Sometimes it takes a few tries to be able to get the right help. It's so complicated.

Please stay. You really do need help if you think it or not! I took an overdose before and I insisted I didn't need help but I did. Whatever your going through it will get better . Please help yourself and get the help you need. I really didn't want to go to bed knowing I hadn't tried to help. People do care and you life is worth living. I know it seems like I'm talking rubbish at this moment in time because of the state of mine your in but please just stop and think. Sending you all the support in the world right now please choose the right choice

Please let them help you, you have nothing to lose by letting them.

Hi @Chocolatethief
It probably feels like they can't help you right now but if they didn't think they could, they wouldn't be trying.
Sometimes when we reach the point in our lives when we feel like there's no way out, everything seems hopeless. It feels like nobody can do anything to make a difference but, they can. It won't be a quick fix and it sounds like you've struggled previously, so you know it's not an easy road.
You are however worth saving.
Your life is important.
You do matter, regardless of what you think at the moment.
Please let these people help you and it will get better. It won't seem like it at the moment as you're obviously at rock bottom to have tried to take your own life but once you've been that low, things can only get better.
Please don't give up hope x

For your sake and theres' they need to try. Imagine the person next to you who tried to end their life this morning, saying they are fine today. They get released but then try to end their life tomorrow. Would you think they'd had appropriate care? I wouldn't.

It's been going on for 6 years and in and out of hospital for the past 4 years. I have done medication I have done therapy and just tried to get on with it but I dont want to anymore and I cant make them understand that. It's the most calm I have been in years im not upset ornthinking irrationally im calm and have thought it all through so why cant they understand that. Its different when its other people they aren't me.

I was sectioned last year with severe depression and anxiety. I too thought that it could make no difference. I was in for 7 weeks (though off the section after 4 days) and for most of that time still thought it was making no difference. Then I suddenly got better, to my surprise. During that time they added to my previous medication and found suitable dosages, which can take time. Give it a go, who knows being in might be different this time, you never know. IMHE the boredom is one of the hardest things to deal with as an in-patient.

It's the most calm I have been in years im not upset ornthinking irrationally im calm and have thought it all through

This is actually the biggest risk signal that someone is so ill they are at the highest risk of dying by suicide.

I think the cruel thing about mental health is that the illness prevents the person from recognising they are ill.

At the moment, you can't change your circumstances, so roll with it.

Let them look after you, you deserve it.

I hope you can get the help they offer and I hope you realise you are worth it and so is your life. I know you have said you have been here before but please take the help they offer. Things do get better it can takes months even years but it will get better xxx

Hang in there, @Chocolatethief . 💐

As another said that feeling of calm is a serious pointer that you are very ill. To the point that you just don't care anymore. I have been where you are right now as in sectioning and also where you are in your mind. When you reach this point of not caring it is almost a relief but it is not right to think this way.

Give yourself time as what you are thinking right now could change in a few days. The mind is so powerful and can go from one extreme to another. if nothing else you will be able to rest and just concentrate on yourself. Give them a chance and talk to the nurses if you feel up to it. There are so many meds out there and not one size fits all. I went through so many before finding one that works somewhat, although not perfect.

Remember that this is a state of mind. Suicide does not solve a problem, it just passes the problem on to other people. Think of the people that love you and what it would do to them. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

The police have had your best interests at heart to protect yourself from yourself. I know it is no walk in the park being in there. Listen to music if you can or watch the tv. Anything to get you through the night. Night time is always the worse time as it seems to drag.

I am not trying to trivialise this at all as I still have my down days, believe me. I know how quickly that lever can go in your head. It will seem to you right now that there is no way out. There is. Please hang on in there and try and work with them. They are there to help you.

In the meantime I am sending you a big hug. Please take care xxx