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They are sectioning me

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Chocolatethief · 11/09/2019 23:33

Basically the title I got admitted last night by the police was assessed and I agreed to go into hospital so waiting for a bed but I dont want to. Today i asked to go home as I feel fine but they wont let me they have all agreed I have to go in and are waiting for a hed to be available to place me on the section so I'm stuck in a room with 2 members off staff and cant go anywhere I hate it. The staff are nice but I'm taking up space I dont need to be here.

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joblotbubble · 14/09/2019 19:05

I just found your other thread. You say you have to see through the thing that brought you in, well yes of you feel you need to then you must, but at the same time, you do not have to do this just yet. To be as gentle as possible on yourself you can choose to hold off for a while; or you may find that getting things moved forward is more helpful. The most important thing is that you decide. It's entirely up to you and you have control Thanks

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Chocolatethief · 14/09/2019 19:30

That's the hard bit I dont know if waiting will make me feel like a failure and that I'm not looking out for other people if he has or does do it again and I want to get justice so he cant and for closure for me. At the same time going through it is currently making me worse i think it's a lose lose situation.

Talking on here really has helped as I've been able to get things out that normally I keep to myself even little annoyances that I bottle up until I explode. I do find mn great for support even if its just writing it down to get it out somewhere.

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incognitomum · 14/09/2019 19:36

Glad it's helping. We're not such a bad nest of vipers after all Wink

Have you chatted on any support groups for people in similar situations? Or is that too difficult? There'll be people on mn who have been through similar.

I had a lucky escape a couple of times from my parents weird friends. I had a big mouth thankfully and told them what for. I remember a friend french kissing me at a new year's party and I must have been about 7? I wasn't very protected by my parents tbh. I'd do time if anyone touched my dss.

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Chocolatethief · 14/09/2019 21:23

I'm on a couple of support groups on facebook but dont find them massively helpful unfortunately and really not a bad group at all, so supportive when its needed, its given me more support than I have had of anyone else really.

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Chocolatethief · 14/09/2019 23:43

Anyone around really not in a good place cant cope thoughts are racing and I dont know how to get past it or how to stay safe right now I'm trying my hardest but feel like I'm failing

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joblotbubble · 14/09/2019 23:54

I'm here, I am about to fall asleep but I didn't want you to think nobody cares or wants to help. I fully admit I don't know what to say now; but o just could t say nothing, if that makes sense.

Tell us about your day? What is the doctor saying? Have they changed any medication? Have you had anyone visit? Do you need anything sent in?

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Chocolatethief · 14/09/2019 23:58

Had a good day and just crashed now, only saw doctor to get leave medication hasn't been discussed. My mum came and took me to get my glasses fixed and brought me phone charger and e cig

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Leaningtoweroflisa · 14/09/2019 23:58

Hi Chocolate, it’s okay. You don’t have to get past it. If you don’t feel safe, then that’s what the night staff are for. If you’re not written up for some as required meds, then they can summon up the junior doctor on duty to prescribe something. If PRNs don’t work, what does?

Nighttime is awful for those racing thoughts. You are not failing. Can you concentrate on a mindfulness exercise even just trying to breathe and count?

goodwinter · 15/09/2019 00:02

Talk to us, there are people here to listen. The fact that you're asking for help means you're not failing.

HeartStrings · 15/09/2019 00:10

Hi OP! Didn't want to read and run so just wanted to say hang in there my lovely.
It may be pointless to you but looking from the outside in people are just concerned for your safety and believe it or not you matter! Sending lots of love and well wishes to you Thanks

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Chocolatethief · 15/09/2019 00:21

Thank you talked to a member of staff but she had to go mid way through to deal with an emergency going to summon up the courage to ask for something I dont normally so hopefully they will, sneaked a fag in the bathroom as I managed to get a light in which has helped a bit thank god but I wont sleep like this and will just get even worse and struggling to not hurt myself so badly I really want to but know I wont succeed and everyone will be pissed at me and cant deal with that, thank you for the continued support it means a lot

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Longlongsummer · 15/09/2019 00:25

Yep like others hang in there!

You are not going to feel great, I know, it’s rubbish. Definitely a case of just gather any tiny reserve of strength and go through the motions, don’t fight the staff. This is respite, you need to hand over part of your care and accept that hand up. Talk to staff about not being able to sleep. When you are in a tough place as they say, keep going!

Leaningtoweroflisa · 15/09/2019 00:51

Well done for talking to staff. That was brave. If you are feeling like this you need to let them know how desperate you’re feeling before you are an emergency too. Fingers crossed they will be sensible enough to give you some prn and it’ll help slow your thoughts down and sleep.

Have you got any apps on your phone as a distraction- even something like solitaire or spider solitaire can make time pass and take you out of yourself for a little while.

No one will be pissed at you. You are hurting and have been assessed as poorly enough to be on s2. You are doing all the right things.

Don’t let your mind trick you into putting a brave face on for staff. Being brave is telling them that you’re struggling and you need them to take you seriously. I know it’s difficult because the other patients are all poorly too and staff are trying to triage the emergencies but you’re doing everything right so far and fingers crossed they’ll be free again to help you soon.

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Chocolatethief · 15/09/2019 00:56

A member of staff has spoke to the nurse and she is trying to get something sorted, they have just gone to see if she has managed. It's hard I feel like I dont deserve there support and help and that others need it more. I dont feel like an emergency even when I want to die that's still not often an emergency to me as i get in that state often. I dont feel Ill enough for a section 2 though but at the same time I know they dont put people on them for nothing. Being discharged on Monday anyway so clearly not that ill but I'm glad as this place is hell want to go home now and obviously I can't but i know i wouldn't be safe although right now I dont want to be. Sorry for the ramble my minds all over the place

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incognitomum · 15/09/2019 01:04

Hi have you had a prn yet? Hope it helps you sleep if u do.

Like pp said mindfulness exercises can help. I used to have panic attacks and they helped distract me. Might be worth a try? Do you like reading or word games? I like playing tipping point on my phone.

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Chocolatethief · 15/09/2019 01:06

Being prescribed lorazepam just waiting for it to be on the system so they can give it to me hopefully that will calm me down and help me sleep, when I've had it in the past it normally does thank god

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Chocolatethief · 15/09/2019 01:11

Just had it so hopefully it will work, thank you all for the support tonight

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incognitomum · 15/09/2019 01:13

Good old loraz should do the trick. Hope you do get some rest.

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Chocolatethief · 15/09/2019 09:57

Managed to get some sleep but not feeling much better today unfortunately

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GreatBigNoise · 15/09/2019 10:03

I’m sorry your aren’t feeling great today. It must be so difficult for you. I’ve no useful advice at all but I wishing you well from afar. 💐💐💐💐💐

incognitomum · 15/09/2019 13:02

You'll be out tomorrow though?

BusterGonad · 15/09/2019 14:11

May I just ask op, have you ever talked to anyone about what happened to you when you were young?

granadagirl · 15/09/2019 14:38

So if they’ve kept you in over the weekend to keep you safe
I know you say you don’t what to be there because it kicks off and sometimes not a nice place
But do is there thinking
After 3 days you won’t want to or have the feelings anymore? And send you home?

Are you on meds?
Do you get any follow up help after being sectioned ?

I too have mh difficulties on daily basis sometimes, mh is truly the most awful thing to deal with

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Chocolatethief · 15/09/2019 21:15

They do it as a crisis admission so 72 hours it hasn't changed anything still really struggling and my friend thinks if I get out tomorrow I will be straight back in, find out if my grandad has cancer on tuesday so struggling with that but hopefully he doesn't. I'm on meds and they do what they are suppose to do but not on anything for suicidal thoughts I'm more emotional than I was which I suppose it a good sign but still dont feel like I will be safe, cant tell them that as they will think I want to be and I dont I just want out and out of everything

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Wilmalovescake · 15/09/2019 21:31

You’re important. You matter.

Your Grandad needs you x