They are sectioning me

[Chocolatethief]

Basically the title I got admitted last night by the police was assessed and I agreed to go into hospital so waiting for a bed but I dont want to. Today i asked to go home as I feel fine but they wont let me they have all agreed I have to go in and are waiting for a hed to be available to place me on the section so I'm stuck in a room with 2 members off staff and cant go anywhere I hate it. The staff are nice but I'm taking up space I dont need to be here.

your calm is a huge sign of things being seriously wrong hun.noone calmly wants to end it. not a well person.
and we can all come and say thats an irrational thought.but the trouble is yo uwont see it becasue that is the nature of being ill with mental health.you want to die or feel so crap and low and just want peace so thats all you see.all you feel.all you yearn for.
but that too is the illness.
becasue you shouldnt want to die.
you dont deserve to die.
and you are cared for because you are here and that is how its meant to be.
what if one day things could be different.and i know you will rage at me saying that because right now you dont want or feel that so everyone stop telling me i might or it might get better!!right?
but who the hell knows.i will not give up on that wish for you.
and i dont even know you in rl.
but ive seen you on here.and im afraid to say i already care.
and i wont give up on you.that in some time in the future you might feel happy again or hell just able to continue again.
you do not deserve to get to a place wher eyou feel there is no way out other than to stop it.
if they are doing this try not to fight it.getting upset when you feel so low jsut tends to heighten and heighten and heighten your feelings of distress and then you get into this spiral of them not listeningyou getting more upset then they get more concerned and so on and so forth.
try to just be held tonight.
i know its so hard to have that control or decision taken away.it feels like a scary scary place to be.
but for now you need help being safe.or simply just help being held.
try to rest.try to let go a bit.let them do what they can.
i know its really hard.i know its so so so hard.

Hugs to you chocolatethief I’ve got to go to bed now but just wanted to add my voice to the chorus.

You matter and you deserve to be well. There is a good chance that the hospital stay will help you and no chance of help if you were to leave.

I’ve been where you are and I get it, I really do. When we’re so mentally unwell we don’t always recognise it. It’s a fucking nasty business, mental ill health. I’ve been in the system a long time, including in patient stays. But I’m better than I was.

I’ve lost too many people to suicide, including my fiancé. All with different problems but all with the same identical factor. They were not able to see they needed, or were unwilling to accept that they needed medical intervention.

However, people recover from mental illness all the time. It can take years sometimes and recovery isn’t a straight road. There are many bumps and near misses along the way but if you keep going forward you have a good chance of getting better.

You matter, you are worth caring about and you deserve to live a life not marred by such severe ill health. I know you can’t see it now but could you say to yourself that you accept that you may feel differently in the future. You may well feel that life is worth living and you can only experience some sort of happiness, or contentment, if you’ve given yourself the chance of life.

I’m sorry if that’s all garbled, I’m really tired and I’ll try and pop back in the morning.

Hang on in there, you are definitely in the right place.

Thinking of you,

Hoof

It just feels like a waste of everyone's time the nurse has said so herself that with my diagnosis hospital wont help so why are they admitting me and I know I will only be in for about 3 days so it just feels like a waste of my time

I don't think I can give advice but I am thinking of you and I hope you find the doctors helpful.

You don’t need to say of course but is your diagnosis something like Borderline Personality Disorder (Emotionally Unstable PD)?

The nurse should not have said that but I know from experience that unfortunately you do get attitudes like that around certain diagnoses.

If it’s for such a short time then I imagine it’s designed to keep you safe whilst you are in crisis. Obviously you need a good Care Plan. Do you have anyone who can advocate for you?

Yeah it is exactly that

she was wrong to say that op.there is always options.help.a reason.and ways to cope or even manage and be happy!ive seen it.ive bloody seen it girl.and in the midst of it being ok you dont think what if it could come back becasue you live to embrace that for right then,its ok,its good.
and with bpd it can be managed and it can even be managed to a point you dont think on it.and your not simply coping but living.
and yes its a road to get there. but it can be done.and it can certainly be done to the extent of getting you a hell of a way away from how you are feeling now.
but you cant see that because you in the middle of the storm.let others guide yo uout if they can.
it ight be a medication.it might be finding a therapy or different way to cope.a doctor youve not seen before might come forward with something.or you might have to try things many times.some on repeat.but one day it can click.for some unkown reason it jsut does.and when it does you wont regret holding on.honestly you wont

she was wrong to say that op.there is always options.help.a reason.and ways to cope or even manage and be happy!ive seen it.ive bloody seen it girl.and in the midst of it being ok you dont think what if it could come back becasue you live to embrace that for right then,its ok,its good.
and with bpd it can be managed and it can even be managed to a point you dont think on it.and your not simply coping but living.
and yes its a road to get there. but it can be done.and it can certainly be done to the extent of getting you a hell of a way away from how you are feeling now.
but you cant see that because you in the middle of the storm.let others guide yo uout if they can.
it ight be a medication.it might be finding a therapy or different way to cope.a doctor youve not seen before might come forward with something.or you might have to try things many times.some on repeat.but one day it can click.for some unkown reason it jsut does.and when it does you wont regret holding on.honestly you wont

Chocolatethief Sending you love x Please don't give up.

I really hope you’re ok and soon feel better. I promise that one day you will xx

Get all the help you can OP. don't fight against things.There are people out there,who understand,and care about you. Don't be alone anywhere,when there are people to help you.

So whatever was going on before you attempted suicide & you needed to go to the hospital-- do you think they can help you with that?

You are not wasting anybody’s time.
I hope you feel better soon.

I am a borderline too. It sucks and some days are better than others. It will pass, just see it as the lever has gone again but it will swing back.

I know exactly how you feel. Keep going. The nurse should not have said that to you. You are there to keep safe. It is not up to her as to what treatment will benefit you. It is up to the doctor. Try and get some sleep if you can xxx

Hiw are you this morning OP?

I work with ladies who have pd.

Have you had any happy periods lately?

Do you have anyone supporting you in rl?

If you are calm, then just accept where you are for now. Go with it and give it a chance. Take care and update us when you can x

Stay and let them help xx

Haven't had any happy moments recently and so fed up of being here just want to leave and I cant, I've also not had a fag In 2 days and nicotine replacement is not the same. I want out of all of this

Is anyone visiting you?

I’m sorry it’s so crap, OP.
What has your day held so far?

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I have bpd too and it's the most unrelenting bastard of a thing to have. I know nothing anybody says can help when you feel like this, but I do hope you feel even a little better soon.

Can someone go outside with you so you can have a fag? When I was admitted they had a garden area just off the ward so we could smoke there.

I would be climbing the walls if I couldn't smoke. I feel your pain xxx

Is the food any good? Have you had a nice chat with any of the nurses or patients? Maybe you can go outside for some fresh air?

Technically hospitals are smoke free. But around here there are ways and means and a blind eye is turned in the right circumstances. Some staff are understanding, others like to catch smokers out. One of the hospitals I know of unofficially allowed patients to have "a breath of fresh air" in the little ward garden as long as it was fairly discreet, another it was unofficially explained where in the grounds would be turned a blind eye to.

(Don't tell anyone i told you this...)

@Chocolatethief I am a stranger on the internet and I have no experience of what you are going through personally, but I want you to know that I care. I saw your other post from the middle of the night a couple of days ago and it worried me. I am praying for you and I hope that you can find some peace in that calm head space somehow. Like I said I’m no expert but I want you to know that I’m thinking of you.