They are sectioning me

[Chocolatethief]

Basically the title I got admitted last night by the police was assessed and I agreed to go into hospital so waiting for a bed but I dont want to. Today i asked to go home as I feel fine but they wont let me they have all agreed I have to go in and are waiting for a hed to be available to place me on the section so I'm stuck in a room with 2 members off staff and cant go anywhere I hate it. The staff are nice but I'm taking up space I dont need to be here.

Well done you. The hair looks amazing. Love the colour too.
Small steps and accept any help you can. You can do this. X

Your hair looks amazing! x

It looks beautiful! Second the colour too, love it! I bet it feels amazing having it sorted. That’s all we can do, small steps. Sleep is huge though, will make you feel better day to day. I know I feel so much more with it if I’ve had a full nights sleep from e decent time. Should probably take a leaf out of my own book! What’s your evening routine at the moment?

Wow! Your hair is amazing!

Your hair is beautiful!
It should feel good on your pillow tonight. Get some sleep!

I love my hair at the moment so much easier to deal with, just found out my care coordinator is leaving so I have to get a new one it will be my 5th one in 3 and a half years. Part of me just doesn't see the point as the either never stay or move me on to someone else and I dont want to open up to the new one as how long will it be till I have to get a new one

It really is beautiful! I’m sorry to hear you need to change care co-ordinator again, what a pain! I’m not sure exactly how it works with them but I completely understand not wanting to open up all over again. If you’re finding the idea of it too much then maybe (and I don’t know how feasible this would be) but maybe you could write the new one a letter and get the current one to pass it on for you before you meet?
How was your weekend and your Monday?

How are you today chocolate?

Bad and struggling to stay safe massively, 2 of my carers are pregnant so while I'm so happy for them they are obviously going to be on maternity from February so I'm scared about the change and the I got nosey on facebook today about someone from my past and feel even worse really shouldn't have done that.

Hopefully you’ll like the replacement carers. No need to worry about a problem that may not happen.

Did it seem like the person from your past was doing really well?
In a lot of cases, it should be called “Fakebook”.

It's not so much about her doing well more that she is still friends with People we were at high school and uni with and none of them bother me anymore and I knowing that makes me scared about what them people will say if the police stuff goes anywhere it makes me want to not do it but I cant do nothing and then I go back and forth and go in a downward spiral and it feels like the only way put is suicide

So they are all still friends and you are completely left out. I am so sorry this has happened to you.

You’ve had a rough time & you are getting help. Things will keep getting better for you.

I just worry that everyone is going to find out what I have reported and that scares me so much especially high school people as I worry everyone will find out

Would they say something to you? Would they do something to you?
Do you think they would all look down on you?

I dont know I have no idea what would happen and dont know what people would think, I'm scared of people thinking I'm lying I wouldn't do that but it's on my mind and has stopped me reporting in the past and is making me want to not go through with it. I have nightmares about people finding out and having a go and calling me a liar. I doubt myself sometimes even though I know it happened but I've been told that's normal but if I doubt myself at times why wouldn't other people.

They can think or say you are lying.
They can think or say all sorts of bad things about you.
But you know what is true.

Had posted but cant see it, I keep telling myself what they think doesn't matter but it's hard, been colouring to distract myself

That’s great! Did you enjoy that when you were very young? I did!

Yeah it helps calm me down sometimes been doing a colour by numbers as otherwise I get stressed trying to figure out what colour to use, I like quite childish things might get my play doh out next as I dont feel like sleep is going to happen anytime soon.

I’m glad you have some ideas for calming activities.
Stay safe tonight.
I hope you get some good sleep later.

Just saying hello. I get what you mean about colouring by numbers, when I was very poorly I could barely make the smallest decision.

Managed to sleep about 6 now got an appointment and feel like shit really dont want to go but I have to

I hope your appointment went well & you sleep better tonight.