To think this was unbelievably cruel and evil?

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having flashbacks, again. So panicked. So stupid it was 7 years ago.
How can they do this to me but they are ok, they get to have good lives!
I was suicidal and struggling, undiagnosed autism. Id been very supportive to a friend. The whole group cut me out, with no warning. they stood in the way so I couodnt have dinner with them, and called the police to take me away. i trusted them. it keeps going through ym head

How could they be so evil? One of them used to always get horribly pissed and disrupt parties and be violent to people, and she never got exlcuded. why did I? how could they? WHy do they get to be happy but i struggle so much, cos im so worthless and terrified of everyone cos i cant trust anyone, im so scared

How cn anyone see someone in pain and be so cruel? Its psychopathic.
I trusted them, it keeps going through ym head seeing them physically bar the door and look at me so coldy. the look frightens me so much, people do it when they dont see you as human any more.

The police took you away? Can you say more about this?

You sound like you were in a terrible place but it's hard to comment on what you've written here.

I think you need to contact your GP OP. Are you on medication right now? Do you have someone in real life you can talk to?

Why did they call the police sweetheart, were you sectioned and taken to a place of safety?

Have you taken your medication today? Try deep breathing or go for a nice walk and clear your head. Try to appreciate the good things in life don't dwell on the past.

Hi op. What happened for them to call the police?

I think there is a lot more to this, you sound very desperate, do you have someone with you or someone you can talk to now?

I can only imagine if they stood in your way to prevent you getting into a restaurant and the police had to take you away, it was for your own good.

Has something else happened for them to react like that?

Aibu isn’t the place you need right now.

What a twatty tone you've taken there sweetcheeks...

OP - speak to your GO if you're struggling right now

*GP

Have you got anyone supporting you at the moment? Are you involved with mental health services? If so, it sounds like giving them a call would be a good idea- you sound like you're really struggling today. And if not, seeing your GP and asking to get that sort of help would be a good start.

Hello op.

Are you getting any RL help or support at the moment?

If you cant get a GP appointment please go to your neared A&E or walk in centre - they can also refer to to MH support teams.

I'm so sorry, lovely that sounds awful. I can relate. Keep talking here.

Its hard to go on the information youve given, but clearly you're not thinking straight, have you got anyone in real life to talk to? Are you seeing anyone for your mental health?

GP etc knows.
But the wrold sees it as a little thing, im not supposed to havr flashbacks of it.
It takes my breath away people can be so cruel - the look that your not human is terrifying.
It wasnt a restaurant, we'd all been having dinner at each others houses, mine included, then one day I was feeling v. v. low and tried to call a friend. Told myself i was being paranoid to think they were all ignoring me, and went to knock (this was quite normal for us at the time, to rnadomly knock). They were all having dinner together. I didnt do anything wrong i just couldnt stop crying and was so terrified, I didnt know how to cope with it so they called the police to take me (one of them was speaking to me in the hall so it must have been another of them). The police were confused at first but nice saying theyd get me help and I could come back and they had to spell it out they never wanted me back.

I just dont know how you can see someone in pain and do that to them.
One of them apologised a couple of years later but I've never really recovered from it, it didn't undo the hurt and fear and Ive never really belonged anywhere since.

and I find it so odd and unfair that people who choose to drink too much etc. and become horrible, are still welcomed.

Do you have professional councillors or psychiatrists? This possibly isn't the best place for you if you are feeling vulnerable. We c an only see a very one sided view of events, but - sorry to speak for us all - we can see you're not coping at the moment and seem to be very unwell. Is there anywhere or any one IRL you can contact? the crisis team?

I don't think we can help with this specific situation as there is so much about this that we don't know, but we do care and it's horrible hearing you sound so distressed. Can you get an emergency GP appointment today? It sounds like you urgently need more help than whatever you're currently receiving.

This is just a low point. You will feel better in the future.

I'm sorry OP. Don't think AIBU is right for you at the moment if you're feeling distressed about it and having flashbacks?

ok I will call crisis team.