Am I amazing for not wanting to do this **TRIGGER WARNING**

[callmehannahbaker]

At 3.38 this day 2 years ago I was pulled from the wrong side of a bridge by policemen.

I have worked bloody hard to sort my head out.

I have put on nearly 6 stone (and counting) through meds.

I am allowed to live with DD alone

I'm doing bloody good

Wow, you are AMAZING! If you're ever feeling down again, read this thread as you're proof that things can get better!

Sending you allllll of the love

Oh bravo OP! It isn't big headed at all - you OWN that achievement!

I've also gained weight from MH medication and treatment at various times in my life. Weight comes and goes, it isn't permanent - and sometimes you have to prioritise having a strong, healthy body to support a healthy mind. Considering what you've been through, the size of your body is such a tiny irrelevant detail at the moment.

Well done!

What an AMAZING thread to read!!!!!! I'm 2 hours early for an interview in a different city & sitting in my car being pissed off. You made my day.

YOU ROCK!!!!!!! You are fabulous, amazing & STRONG! Congrats & all my love!

Yaaaaaayyyyyyy isnt it the best feeling in the whole entire world and you should be so god damn proud of yourself.

So happy for you OP I know how hard it is, so big hug from me and long may your positivity continue and 🎈 For your DD

Well done. Delighted for you. Good luck to you and DD

Oh gosh, aren't you all lovely!!!!

The weight gain is from antipsychotics but it is a small price to pay for having life again.

Wish I'd not put this in chat now so it wouldn't go poof!

Thank you, mumsnet is amazing xx

I'm sending so much love your way @callmehannahbaker.

You've done amazingly well, you are a fantastic inspiration.

My sister has gone through similar things, and is also on anti-psychotics.
I hope one day she feels the way you do now.

Keep on looking at your DD, keep on loving.

(You can ask MNHQ to move your thread if you report your own opening post, somewhere maybe where you can look back and re-read in years to come- never hurts to read nice things about yourself! )

An amazing and lovely thread. Be kind to yourself and squish your girl at all times!

Oh you're amazing! Thank you for sharing your fabulous achievement! 😘

Massive well done OP.
What an amazing story you have to tell.
Cherish your life and your little girl it's all that matters

Well done. X

Well done.

Well done - you are totally amazing!

Hi all,

The OP has requested that we move this thread over to our mental health topic so that it doesn't disappear and so we're going to send it over now.

callmehannahbaker, we're so happy that you found support on Mumsnet. It sounds like it has been awfully tough for you and so we're beyond pleased to hear that you're doing bloody good.

Wishing you all the best for the future and hoping the well-deserved haircut is worth the wait.

Wonderful you are amazing

Yaaayyyyy!!! So so proud of you this made me teary too

You are amazing and sound like a great mum

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Here's to lots more firsts and getting stronger every day. Yay!

You are amazing. This thread is amazing. I hope this thread can inspire others who might be reading and feeling hopeless.

Well done OP. I'm hoping to get where you are one day.

Very best wishes for you @MyGastIsFlabbered - you can do it!

Thank you. I'm finding I have good days and bad days, but I think of suicide every single day. I'd never do it because of my two boys, but it's hard sometimes.

Really hoping things get better for you you also have a bloody brilliant username

I've been there too. Picked up by police just before Christmas. I'm working hard too, getting there. It's encouraging to hear you're doing well now, thank you for posting.