Am I amazing for not wanting to do this **TRIGGER WARNING**

[callmehannahbaker]

At 3.38 this day 2 years ago I was pulled from the wrong side of a bridge by policemen.

I have worked bloody hard to sort my head out.

I have put on nearly 6 stone (and counting) through meds.

I am allowed to live with DD alone

I'm doing bloody good

Thank you for bravely sharing this.
I wish you and your all the happiness in the world.
And I hope your story inspires someone else to seek help and gives them hope.

• you and your daughter

Mumsnet has helped me through my darkest hours. It's only right to share the good bits too

Congratulations

great job OP. We're all rooting for you

This is lovely
Thank you everybody

I normally write threads to myself with no one else on! All teary now

Wow you are amazing !! all the best to you and your dd
Enjoy your new life

Amazing OP.

Charity shops can be great can't they?

Keep going. What an inspiration.

Congratulations! I'm all teary too. You have achieved amazing things and deserve to feel proud of yourself. Wishing you all the very best of luck for you and your DD. xx

Go you

Next goals are sleep and weight, I currently sleep 2 or 3 nights a week but manage. My weight from antipsychotics is awful though, gone from a size 6 to a 14 (not a nice 14 either).
I have to remember one thing at a time though, I'm a bit of an overachiever and try to do everything all at once.

Well Done! You've done the hardest bit. Just babysteps from now on.

Amazing ❤ wishing you all the happiness in the world

well done you ... this is really good news to read on here !! Every day you get through feeling good about yourself & the love you have for your DD will make the next one a little bit easier. Be very proud :)

You deserve to be incredibly proud of yourself!! Don't even know you and I welled up with pride. Long may your good times continue x

That's wonderful! You must have had to work through so much; you're amazing.

Well done! Feeling very emotional for you!

Lovely news. Well done you (and a Thank You to Mr/Mrs Policeman also).

Oh I embarrass policemen these days, I walk up to any I see and tell them how amazing they are! After many, many suicide attempts I became familiar with a fair few-I want them to know I'm thankful now

You've made me all teary, OP! I've never been quite where you were, but I've had my own MH battles that I've mostly won and so I know how wonderful it feels to look around your life and see how much it's changed for the better. You should be so proud of yourself.

You're saying you want to deal with weight and sleep. If I may, I'd suggest working on sleep first - getting enough sleep helps with weight loss anyway and of course supports mental health which is far more important than losing weight.

Sleep will come, I have the option of taking zopiclone every night but it makes me horrid the next day as it takes three 7.5s at least to knock me out!

And we'll done for winning mrs

You are amazing

This is brilliant to read