I am alone and scared witless.

[DumbledoresGirl]

I know there is nothing anyone can do, except me perhaps, but I just feel the need to let you know that dh left for his 2 week business trip this morning, and so here I am, scared silly, crying whenever I stop for five seconds to think of my situation, and having panic attacks every time I think how long 2 weeks is.

I don't even know if I will spend every waking moment on MN or bury myself away in a hole, but in case I am here, I wanted you to know this is the state I am in right now. Please forgive anything I might say in the next 2 weeks. I am so wrapped up in myself, I don't know what I am doing half the time.

If you need to know why I am in this state, there was a thread in "feeling depressed" last week explaining.

DG - I had a three day labour and I think I had half of Southmead Hospital up there so am now totally at ease and at one with my fanjo and talking about it!! lol

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DG, I'm in Solihull and would be happy to meet up. Hypnosis is a state of mind (no pun intended) and letting go is hard. Sometimes you have to realise that letting go is a way of controlling the fear and that it can make things better. Just try for one minute imagining life without that fear, surely the fear of failing or letting go and maybe making a fool of yourself is worth that. I cried with my lady and felt an idiot but didn't smoke again. Case proved. If it helps, you could e-mail me and I could give you my phone number, 'cos sometimes the fear of being alone outwighs all other fears. My kids are 17, 14, 12 and 8, what are yours?

DG - Home Start is an organisation which provides voluteer helpers to come around & offer support, friendship & practical help for parents with young children.

Hi DG - haven't had time to read the whole thread and am off to bed in a minute, but just wanted to say hello and pass on some empathy from dp, who has the same phobia as you and dreads it when I go away. Fortunately I only have to go away at the moment for 2 days a year (a development thing I go to with work), but she really hates it just in case ds's are sick.

I'm so sorry you've got 2 weeks to cope with - no helpful advice other than keep yourself as busy as you can and don't worry about feeding the kids bland food you know they like and have had before without being ill - you'll know what that is because I know dp has a catalogue in her head of everything that has ever made ds's ill (fortunately not much - they're very hardy!) and she would never give them the same thing again unless I was near by - even if there's no direct proof it's what made them ill.

Good luck and hopefully you'll get into a rhythm over the next few days and it'll start to go by a lot quicker than it feels at the moment.

hope you ar sleeping soundly DG.. {{{{{hugs winging their way to you through the air}}}}}

Hope you're feeling a bit better today. I CATd you my contact details just in case you need to feel that there is someone there who you can get hold of should anything go happen or if you just need to talk to someone.

Good luck

{{{{DG}}}}

DG!!! Loads of hugs and sending you ~~~~~support vibes~~~~~~ in plentiful amounts! xxxxxxxxxx

Hi DG, how are you this morning?

thinking of you this morning!

Hope you are ok today

Thanks everyone. It is so nice to see all the messages. I hope at least some of you are still there for me at the end of next week as I will still need the support. As Dottydot says (and you clearly live with a fellow emetophobe as I can recognise everything you described!) even one night is hard, so even the last night of 11 nights will be a hurdle I have to overcome.

So, one night down, 10 more to go. It still feels too much to contemplate. It always will tbh. I am overwhelmed by people's offers to be there for me or to discuss their therapies with me. If I do not reply straightaway, it is only because I am overwhelmed and I find it hard to confront my fears without the safety net of dh with me. Please don't think I am refusing your offers - just maybe not able to consider them right now.

If anyone wants to contact me, my email is [email protected]
Note the 1 at the end of my name: lately I have been forgetting it myself and people have been unable to contact me!

Thiking of you today DG
Hugs to you.

Hope your feeling a little better today, DG.

Thanks Claifrau. Dh rang today and is exceited that it is minus 10 in Detroit today. I expect he will have snow too. (He is Australian so cold weather and snow excite him, poor dear).

Califrau Sorry

You are not alone, I, my mother and sister have this phobia to a degree. My mum gets anti-emetic tablets as she has an ear condition which makes her feel sick...I have to admit that I do nick these quite often...going through a rough patch myself at the moment.

You are not alone...it is something like the 4th most common phobia, but people don't often tell others about it because they are embarrassed. Try this site, it maybe helpful, if not just google there are loads more out there: www.emetonline.co.uk/

First day almost over

Thank you Rocklover. It is awful isn't it? And for some reason, it feels so shameful.

Saltire, better than that: completing second day now!

Of course it's the second day - doh! I was confused. I emailed you BTW

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Oh DG....

You are right back where LonelyMum was when her husband moved ahead of them for his job.

But baby look at her now.

This will pass, I promise.