I am alone and scared witless.

[DumbledoresGirl]

I know there is nothing anyone can do, except me perhaps, but I just feel the need to let you know that dh left for his 2 week business trip this morning, and so here I am, scared silly, crying whenever I stop for five seconds to think of my situation, and having panic attacks every time I think how long 2 weeks is.

I don't even know if I will spend every waking moment on MN or bury myself away in a hole, but in case I am here, I wanted you to know this is the state I am in right now. Please forgive anything I might say in the next 2 weeks. I am so wrapped up in myself, I don't know what I am doing half the time.

If you need to know why I am in this state, there was a thread in "feeling depressed" last week explaining.

Big day - well done! Have a great weekend, Happy St Patrick's Day and make sure the kids remind dad it is mothers day.

Hi all! Dh due home any time now! I am determined not to let him catch me on Mumsnet (!) but I just wanted to quickly say, thank you to everyone who has contributed to this thread and especially to those of you who have contacted me oof Mumsnet or checked in on me over the 2 weeks. It was such a boost to log on and find messages waiting for me! I am so grateful to you all.

I can't say this will be the last time I will start a thread like this - there are bound to be other occasions too big for me to handle in silence - but for now, the sun is shining, the weekend is before us, and DG is ONE HAPPPY WOMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks again and bye for now!

(now get off mumsnet!)

Thanks. Joy shortlived though. Dh has already informed me he is back in the States in 2 weeks and then admitted he will be there for much of the foreseeable future. Single parenthood awaits. Bugger.

Yes. He has always been on a fair few business trips - with this job he has probably averaged a night or two away every fortnight, but now, the company is reorganising and dh is involved in that reorganisation and goodness knows what else, so now, suddenly, he is in constant demand in America where the head office is.

FGS! He has been home one hour having travelled all night to get here and he was about to go and ring the States to take part over the phone in their daily meeting! I have just told him not to. They have had him for 2 weeks solid, I think I am entitled to have him for a few hours now (especially as, technically, he is supposed to have Friday afternoons off but never does).

I am so fuming.

I can see why you are cross - esp. as I know how hard the last week has been for you. I hope he understands your position too.

The scoundrels! Mine is a way a lot at the minute, but only for one or two nights. Glad he is back safely anyway.

I'm pleased hes back now DG.
Little buggers though at his work!

You've done really well and you should give yourself a massive pat on the back and treat yourself something stuid now
Next time just keep telling yourself that you did it. Nothing happened, yes it was scary but you did it.

And just remember, we are always here for you

Thanks Nbg. Right at this moment, although he is home, live feels no different. He is upstairs in bed (OK sleeping off jetlag and a night without sleep the previous night!) and I have been up for hours with four children, doing their breakfast, cleaning the kitchen, etc etc. Only difference is, I am trying to keep them quiet for him whereas when he wasn't here, of course there was no need.

Well, it looks as though he has done his best for me at work. Apparently, America wanted him to work out there for 2 weeks and then work at home for 1 week for the next few months continuously, but dh said he would not stay out there over weekends so he will only go for single weeks in future (or that is what he has said anyway - of course, he will do exactly whatever his bosses tell him to do). Also, the trip out in 2 weeks has had to be cancelled because it clashes with when our youngest son is having an operation and dh is having that time off. Dh will probably have to go to America in 3 weeks time instead of 2 weeks - hmmmmmm.