Is anyone up? Feel so down

[Thecatgotmytongue]

Just that really .. I've been struggling with depression for ages. Tonight it's bad .. After a few ok days, it just hit me tonight for no real reason. I'm sat on the sofa crying. My boyfriend went home two hours ago and has gone to bed, I've no one to talk to.

You still up Cat? Want to talk?

I'm here

Sorry ohthat, that sounds rough.

I'm not great. I just finished with my bf .. And there's no going back. He doesn't understand how I feel .. And I guess I don't understand how he feels. It's just dragging me more down.

Oh Cat I'm so sorry. What a miserable time you are having.

Being depressed, and a partner coping with a depressed person is so hard. Me and DH had been together 14 years before I proper flipped out.

How long had you been together, time is definitely a factor. Long term relationships have a slightly better chance of surviving it.

God I'm glad I'm not in the depths right now, you have my sympathy. It's hell, sheer hell.

My DH has been depressed, had some Prozac and some CBT (got himself sorted out, not to belittle it but it wasn't MDD). When I explained my depression to him he was shocked. I think he realised he was depressed, but not anywhere like I had been.

There are levels of depression, all very valid but when you are right down there it's a different thing. Well at least for me. I'd say I'm depressed now but functioning, when I hit the real low I do not function at all. I've been lucky and had 6 months of relative stability, that is like a holiday for me.

Talk to us lot on here. we can't say we know how you feel...but we kind of know what it's like to be really bloody low and can share experiences. Hugs xx

We've only been together a year. I've been very difficult. He's ill, I'm depressed. I can't cope with it anymore.

I'm going to completely out myself here and will need to name change soon .. When he's ill he goes really quiet, is miserable .. It drags me down too, makes me even more depressed. I can't cope with it. We're just blaming each other and getting nowhere There seems no point. It'll just repeat itself again and again. I can't bear it.

He lives just round the corner. I told him if he cares to come over and talk. He said no, I should.

I'm not surprised that makes you more depressed. You need support, to support each other even?

If that isn't happening maybe try taking a break from each other. It sounds really tough. Being depressed and ending a relationship is a double misery (stating the obvious).

I've got to get the kids out to nursery, I'll be back later. We can chat if you're about.

Thanks.

I haven't slept, have to take dd to the station, will try and sleep a bit when I get back.

I don't think I'm in the right place for a relationship. He can't help being ill, but I can't cope with it anymore.

Hope you got a nap today, and, actually, that you are sleeping soundly now and don't see this until tomorrow.

Sorry you split with your boyfriend. I know, unfortunately, all too much about supporting an ill partner. It was very tough despite the strong foundation of our long and loving marriage. We both needed good, individual, support systems, as well as needing to communicate well with each other. If it was a new relationship or I had been ill too I don't know that I'd have managed it. So I totally understand and I think you need to put yourself and your dependant child first, here.

I have had a very busy day with my DC and trying to get some work done but felt okay as I got to sleep before 2pm last night. Am going for that again tonight... We'll see.

I got to bed about 1.30 and slept til the cats woke me up at 7, chasing around, leaping on me After shutting them downstairs I managed to go back to sleep til 10.

Bf came round last night, but neither of us were really in a fit state to talk. We'll try again today.

3:20, still wandering around the house. Why? Someone tell me how to sleep?

The children will be up at 7:30 at the latest and I can't really say put your iPad on and be quiet when they want to go to the park after breakfast. I have to be mum, DH is prowling around too. We are resigned to this now. We are just not able to sleep. It's horrible.

This is breaking me, nothing works, I've taken sleeping pills (enough to knock out a horse), had a small.G&T. Eaten properly, exercised today, cleaned the house, mowed the lawn. Not had a nap during the day. Nothing works. What gives? I'm in bed, podcast on, but nothing works. Any ideas?

6:08, not a bloody wink. May as well get up now

Sorry ohthat. I've been talking to bf all weekend and stayed over there last night. I struggled to get to sleep, restless arms and legs, but managed eventually.

Hope you manage to get through the day. Do the park thing early, get it out of the way and then relax with the children, let them watch tv. It won't harm them.

It's just the whole stress of NDN and the police and stuff. They come and go at all hours, banging car doors. I've put the children in the back rooms so they are not subjected to it. But I'm getting it full force. It's like slow torture.

You can't call the police for people slamming doors though, or even noise abatement. I just have to keep evidence.

It'll be over soon. I will win

Have you got any further with your BF cat?

We've talked about things. We're still together. I hope it'll be a bit easier now.

That sounds like an awful situation. I hope an end is in sight.

I've terribly restless legs and arms again. Heading to bed soon after a shower. Hope I can sleep!

I'm sat in bed again unable to sleep . I get this spasm (or indigestion, the doctor isn't sure) in my throat/chest, it's scary .. And I've got that now. I've taken a tablet and hope it goes soon. I think I need to go back to the doctor about it.

I actually slept, but only because I was so sad. Spoke to a friend who has lost two younger relatives in two weeks. She was sitting at home with two urns, not crying. Just broken.

And I think my life is shit. Get over yourself woman!

Cat are you on ADs? I could never sleep when I was on ADs (I'm not anti med, I know they work for loads of people). But I had weird restless legs and could only half sleep, it was like my dreams were half awake.

Sorry you had a rough night, I wish I'd been up to say hi

Get back to your GP as soon as you can, something isn't right with that. Glad you and BF talked, hopefully you can help each other through this now.

Oh that's so sad.

Yes I'm in anti depressants. I need to go back to the gp. I also had terrible heartburn or something similar all night.

Maybe try a different med, not sure what you are on but the SSRIs and the SNRIs all sent me sleepless with terrible restless legs.

The older Tricyclics work better for me. But hey I'm not a doctor. It's worth asking about meds though?

I'm taking sertraline, never tried a tri cyclic.

Maybe try a different SSRI, they are known for causing restless legs. I can't take SSRIs, I'm bipolar and they send me manic.

I have to use older style meds and a mood stabiliser.

I'd deffo try Prozac or Citalopram if you've been on it a good long while and not feeling any better. But as I said I'm no doctor.

I've tried others before .. I put on lots of weight. Sertraline works a bit .. I should increase my dose.

Try upping it, it's worth a go?

I'm getting CCTV installed tomorrow, NDN is in for a surprise

How are you doing Sommer?

I'm worried if I up the dose, the restlessness will be worse.

That's a good idea with the cctv.