Is anyone up? Feel so down

[Thecatgotmytongue]

Just that really .. I've been struggling with depression for ages. Tonight it's bad .. After a few ok days, it just hit me tonight for no real reason. I'm sat on the sofa crying. My boyfriend went home two hours ago and has gone to bed, I've no one to talk to.

My kids aren't back at school yet so no school run tomorrow. They'll think it's like Christmas when I tell them to make themselves coco pops and put the TV on in the morning.

I'd stopped using sleeping tablets but might need to get more. Insomnia has been ramping up, but I'm waiting to see if it is a blip first.

X post bless you Cat, can I have wine?

You sound a bit brighter, cat.

Do you have to be anywhere/do anything early tomorrow?

The recycling's done too.

I've been reading the thread on here snot the Germans being told to stock up for ten days in an emergency. Quite alarming. I used to live there and they really aren't prone to such announcements. Do you have stocks in case of an emergency? What do you think?

Nothing much to do tomorrow, no. I'll run my.bf to work probably, the dog's having a haircut tomorrow too.

Thanks, I feel a little better, not crying anymore anyway. I'm just fed up of life feeling so hopeless, pointless and so difficult.

Yes help yourself to wine, I've only red though.

Two kids, two dogs and a cat here. Wine if I do nursery run with buggy looking like a deranged mess.

Not that I care at this hour.

I stopped reading the hoarding thread as it was making me super anxious. I don't think it's good for us. We need light fluff. Perhaps some kitten photos? Sorry to be flippant but I'm not at my best when sleep deprived.

Shall try and think of something useful?

Top skills on cupboards and washing!

Meh. It's them being over cautious, I think. 10 days supplies would only cover a very minor emergency, anyway. Doesn't alarm me.

I don't intentionally stock up, but I have greedy teenagers so usually have a well stocked pantry. But right now, toward the end of the holidays, it's almost empty. (Why do kids have to eat flipping 3 times a day?!!)

One teenager, one dog and three cats here. I've just given one cat ear drops .. He hates me now. Can't cope with the scratching any more though.

My house is very small, no outbuildings for storage, a minute kitchen, I don't know where I would store emergency supplies. I just wonder what the German authorities are expecting ...

I just thank you I'm not the only one. It helps to know I'm not alone.

I'm trying to keep the tears for nights, away from the children. I don't want them to know I'm broken (again ffs).Big brave smile and happy face.

My teenager is the same, from early evening onwards she never stops eating. All that's left in the house is healthy stuff she would never touch!

I was crying yesterday, and lots of MNers were very kind to me.

We all struggle sometimes and it's okay to ask for help and distractions.

Hope life improves for you soon, cat.

Hey - we all have dogs. Are yours with you? Mine starts crying if I interrupt her beauty sleep at night!

Yes yes to hiding the tears from the child/children. Dd gets alarmed if she finds me crying, and it happens too often these days. In a tiny house there's not a lot of privacy and if I go to my bedroom she knows something's wrong.

One of my staffies and my four year old are in my bed. Second staffie has left in disgust at pathetic behaviour. I'm going for the wine, sod it.

Aww somer, poor dog. What breed is it?

Mine is a cavalier and she's snoring on the other sofa. She sleeps well!!

I'm trying to keep the tears for nights, away from the children. I don't want them to know I'm broken (again ffs).Big brave smile and happy face.

Oh God, I so empathise with this. Have been in that crying inside but plastered on smile for the DC place so much over th past few years.

It has got better. very, very gradually. But it has.

And then there are blips and I get sadder and can't sleep and then grouchy... Then feel guilt and get sadder...

I have to shout for help to try to break the cycle now. (My parents just had the kids for 24 hours for me.)

I hope you both have support.

I'd like to be my dog...

One of the cats is just waiting for me to go to bed. He likes to sleep under the duvet curled around my feet.

What do you think about going to bed then, cat? Worth a try?

Have a cat snuggle? Even if you can't sleep?

No support here .. Dm lives five hours drive away and isn't well. No other close family. No friends either. It makes me very sad, a lot.

somer, what is a typical counselling session like? How do I get the best out of it? Sorry for the stupid question, but I'm hopeless at talking about things and can't really work out why I feel the way I do. The gp tells me I'm grieving for my dad, but this was there before that.

My DD loves a dog hug

I'll try in a few minutes when I've finished my wine.

Cute pic!

Here's the bed sharer!

You need to find a counsellor you click with. Are your problems long term or just situational?

CBT works if it's just a now thing, proper talking therapy is better if things have been going on for years.

I've had tons, ask me anything, I've been through more counselling than wine!

Well you've got a friend there! Is he/she a blue?