Full Mental Normality

[Enpoid]

Kubricking it.

Enpoid I raise you on your -10 eye with my right eye at -10.25! Left is -9.75 so crapola eyes here too. I really want eye surgery but you can't have it when pregnant or breastfeeding which has ruled me out for the last 4 and a bit years.

she won't take any meds, not that she could have an antidepressant anyway but there are other things that people find helpful like quetiapine? but she won't - her psychiatrist is organising some actual therapy though so maybe that will be good? do not feel excessively optimistic

you lot have shockingly bad eyesight

no wonder I can manage without my glasses when my prescription is so mild

Is that lenses or glasses, Ivy? The -10 eye is a -11 for glasses.

TBH at this kind of level it doesn't make a lot of difference

I looked at eye surgery but our prescription is kind of borderline as to whether laser surgery or implanted lenses is the better option.

When did she crash Mitch? Poor #1 (and poor you)

I don't know, she was never exactly euphoric even at her worst but now there is this air of defeat and she's far too quiet and looks exhausted. Which is how you are meant to feel when you work such ridiculous hours and study and have a child etc

At least she has something soft to sleep on and my electric blanket

Also, some providers won't lase mentals, apparently.

Why can't she have antidepressants? There's not a total ban on bipolars having them, is there?

Mitchy I'm supposedly bipolar and doing ok on a lowish dose of antidepressants. Mind you I'm still pretty low but they won't increase dose in case I go high. Am not convinced about safety of antipsychotics in pregnancy which I'd normally take.

That's my lens prescription Enpo.

Why won't they laser mentals Enpo???

I've read studies that showed similar success rates for people with psych disorders as those who don't, but I heard some clinics won't treat people with depression - maybe they think they have worse outcomes or are more likely to be unsatisfied with a bad outcome?

You win on the myopia, Ivy

she's just had a 'touch of mania' while taking antidepressants, who would prescribe them for her without lithium or whatever now?

I know lots of people with bipolar who are on antidepressants but not antidepressants alone and not after antidepressants have made them high

thrill of blood test this morning

then rearrange other appointment for when house less densely populated, CAMHS this afternoon anyway

is probably all too stimulating for one day

Good show Mitch. Hope bloods go okay.

I'd forgotten she was on antidepressants.

Thanks :)

woke up feeling weirdly mentally normal, as if brain had reset overnight, and with realisation that it's true what They say, I just don't like myself very much

have been waiting FIVE minutes for test

whats not to like? You're great

You're great, we like you.
Also, no one likes themselves.

well you lot say all the right things don't you :)

have left it bit late to cancel appointment, will just send #1 out into the wild for an hour or so - she's not washing or brushing her teeth but she is dressed and she can do Talking if you persist

Good luck with the appointment, mitchy I've had bloods today too.

I'm waiting for bloods. Clearly it's blood day today.

Friday is fingerprick day for me - fbg was 3.3.

I wish the suicidal thoughts would go away.

I now have two prescriptions for the anti depressants (one from Freud and one from my gp). Anyone want some citalopram or escacitalopram?

Hey Snowy. Sorry, I'm not so good with words, but I'm thinking of you today.

I've taken double citalopram this morning, caulk, thanks for the offer though.

Thanks enpo. I would contact cpn, but all she'd say is distract (listen to music/audiobooks, watch tv, do jigsaw).