HTT are handing me over

[EnpoTree]

Woop! Just got a call asking if I wanted to be visited today (er, no, ta) and telling me that they're about to call CMHT to hand me over to them. Finally getting off this daily checking up soon I hope

Any way to go back?

I don't know you and I certainly can't diagnose you over the internet so don't worry about it too much.

Last time I wobbled off I skipped sleeping for a couple of nights and seemed to go back up.

Ha, no not really.

Lack of sleep is a contributing factor but I wouldn't do that with your appointment tomorrow.

No i dont particularly want random internet diagnoses off people who I have no idea who they are but slightly surprised when people use that adjective about my posts.

hello new favourite people

I get anxious when my mood is on the move in either direction I think, not anxious about it, it's more like a general can't-leave-the-house or oh-no-I-have-forgotten-how-to-drive/walk/swim mid-activity

I get very agitated when my mood changes.

Hi mitchy.

Bloody sleeping. It's ridiculous that something so important is so uncontrollable. Who thought up that plan? Probably whoever decided we should be able to close our eyes but not our ears.

Hi Mitch! How late were you?

I am a zolpidem addict because I'm obsessed with my sleep

Mmm, pennies.

Or does zolpidem not do that?

Zolpidem doesn't do it, unlike zopiclone.

So. Should I ring the HTT again or just leave it?

Ah it's zopiclone I'm thinking of

At this time of day I'd be inclined to leave it unless you're feeling very bad. Do you have the out of hours number for your CMHT?

I'm not sure. There's a crisis line number.

I've given my CPN up as lost. I hate when people don't call back. Now I'll worry if I'm being a pest if I call her again tomorrow. She spoke to me and promised she'd call back.

I wonder why they didn't ring me back.

It really depends on what you want them to do for you.

And I can see you're in the same boat Mental

Stupid over-thinking brain.....

hello :) (I missed another appointment but of course managed to be on time for personal trainer )

call again if you are feeling bad, is unsurprising really

mp where do you prefer your lithium levels? am definitely more functional when they are between 0.8 and 1 (in fact was unaware even at 1.3 that anything much was wrong) but the thirst is annoying and am convinced it slows me down (running, not in general) but I don't have to take much to achieve those blurry heights, about 1g or 800mg

is weird how differently it behaves with everyone

Well, I was hoping that they were going to ring me as usual at lunchtime and ask ifni wanted anyone to come round, and I was hoping to be able to tell someone how I'm feeling, either on the phone or in person, and all the shitty things I want to do, in the hope that they might have some ideas how not to do shitty things and to basically tell me that I need to go to this appointment tomorrow and not squash myself under a train or something, so when I didn't get a call, I rang them, asking if it would be okay to talk to someone today, and they said they'd ring me back.