Still Autumn days in the village with lots of support for all kinds of MH problems - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis etc thread 2

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The thread filled up!
I made a new one hope no one minds.

I'm planning on going into town tomorrow.

(((( CIQ )))) sounds rough

How is everyone doing today?

Quetiape reduction seems to be helping - I sleep, but am getting up more easily.

Stuck on Christmas presents though...

Dh is whining at me that he thinks I'm ill, the gp asked him to keep an eye on my behaviour, he's taking it too far, all I did was cut my hair with the clippers and dye it electric blue, which looks awesome! And I've been a little more energetic the last couple of days.
Seriously the minute I peek out from depression he decides I'm manic!

And I've got my appointment for the dietitian in January, so I get to sit in a room with a stranger for an hour while they whine that I don't eat enough, then I'll go home and carry on regardless, it'll just be like an ordinary day with Dh really, especially after he found the half a sandwich I hid yesterday.
Everyone has spent my entire life telling me to lose weight and as soon as o do they start saying "I'm worried about you" "you shouldn't get dizzy" I'm not eating as much as I used to yeah but if I was starving myself surely id be tired but I'm not. I could run a couple of miles right now if I didn't have ds poorly at home!

I don't need the constant texts from him "did you eat yet?" "What have you eaten?"
I don't need reminding to eat!

Hi guys can I join in for a little bit of support..
Ive suffered with anxiety most of my life I think I am very good at hiding it. Ive had one bout of depression about three years ago.. This was a shocker of an experience. I could just about get dressed, felt constantly sick. I was even signed off from work for a month..
However eventually I got through it. About a year ago I split with my partner although that was a difficult time I prided myself on just getting through it. I felt a low level anxiety throughout it all but it was managable..
However I started seeing someone about two months ago and they have decided to call things off.. I cant believe how I am feeling. Again I cant sleep, eat I feel shaky.. I only feel calm after a drink.. Now this Is good but its like I just survive the day until I can get home and have alcohol.. I dont have much it just takes the edge of it.. I am just so panicky that Im going to be alone for ever. He could not have picked a worse time to end it just before xmas but I am aware it was such a short thing but I really didnt see it ending so brutally.. its the anxious feelings that I just find unbearable. I have been here before and I know that this shall pass its just awful in the short term.. Im just venting really I need to keep a grip as Ive got a six yr old daughter, i need to paint a smile on my face and be strong for her but its so so hard ...

Good news: I went into town
Bad news: I forgot to go to the Christmas market

Welcome newstart

What presents are you stuck on, silvery?

welcome newstart

Great about going shopping snowy sorry you missed the Christmas market.

Glad the quetiapine reduction is working silvery

spidey that sounds tough, I am sure he is just worried

CIQ I hope you get the support you need very soon. On the therapy point not all therapy is about re-examining the past, I have spent the past year doing DBT and that is all about managing how you feel in the present and is helpful. Maybe something like that would be useful for your DH?

I am ok, my DBT 1:1 thinks I am heading for a fall, not sure just chugging on.

I'll just have to go into town next week too...

Just had a phone call asking me to go for another blood test, as my haemoglobin is high (2 months running). Very odd as I was anaemic. I think it's only mildly, so nothing to stress about, just hate blood tests.

Hi all thanks for the welcome.. Am feeling a bit calmer now.. Seems I always do in the evening. One thing that always helps me is exercise however I just haven't got any energy for it today it's hard for me to believe that this time a week ago I was without a trace of anxiety ! And managing to exercise every other day.. It wil pass has become my new mantra survival thing.. Do any of you suffer with anxiety ?

Yup newstart. Welcome. Sorry to hear you're having such a tough time.

I met last night with the counsellor I saw last year to try and get some help with my anger issues and that followed by a beer with my brother really did help.

Tv and wine now.

Glad to hear it helped ciq
Pity you missed the Christmas market snowy (although if ours is anything to go by, you didn't miss much!)
Keep chugging cream! Seems weird calling you that!
Hope your arm is not too painful collar and mending nicely.
Welcome newstart. Vent away!
What presents are you stuck on silvery? I think I'm sorted...well not really, but it'll have to do. Just need something extra for DD from us to match up what we've bought DS who is soooo much easier to buy for!

Hope everyone else is doing ok.

Glad the counsellor helped CIQ

Nice to see you pyrr

We picked up our new car yesterday which was exciting and I saw my CPN, I think the plan will be to discharge me from CMHT early next year. I thought I would freak out about it but it feels right I think. Still SIing but I have run out of things to say to my CPN, I am arranging counselling with a specialist trauma service so I will have onwards care and DBT is ending so it feels right. Bit scared but that is to be expected!

You sound in a good place, cream

Feel like I'm loosing it today. So exhausted, went back to bed after school run, slept til 11. My brain feels like it will explode very soon. Starting to feel paranoid about school mums, about parenting. This thread seems to be limping to its finish but hey ho. Off to find some alcohol

(((( CIQ ))))

Thanks snowy just had a singularly uninspiring chat to someone at our cmht. I know she cant wave a magic wand, and it seems I'm familiar with all the self care sh*t but wow. Really? Can't face going to bed with dh. Want to go to sleep and wake up at easter I think.

((( CIQ ))) How was your night?

Hi snowy thanks for replying. I'm doing better this evening following ranting to sister last night and chat with counsellor this eve, plus lovely bro here now. Have been abs exhausted this week, sleeping til 11 and then unable to get off the sofa all day, but am not beating myself up about it. I miss the original village thread. How have you been today?

I miss all the people that used to be on the village thread. I'm glad you're doing a little better

I'm stressing a bit over my blood test results, they've been abnormal for 2 months. Looking forward to Christmas though.

Do they know why snowy?

You must need a good rest ciq. I'm refusing to get up until 6! Glad to hear you have people to offload to.

They don't know why, pyrrh

Did you get some more sleep?

Fingers crossed about your bloods snowy

CIQ glad you have someone to talk to

I have five more sessions of DBT left, yay!

Glad you're upbeat about it, creamhearts!

Started a new thread here xx