Still Autumn days in the village with lots of support for all kinds of MH problems - depression, anxiety, OCD, psychosis etc thread 2

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Thinking of you snowy I am a bit psychotic at the moment (apparently - obvs I disagree!!) and I know how frustrating it is.

Love love love Masterchef.

Had a lovely day :)

Thinking of you all, I'm not feeling great, had an ok couple of days but Dh is working away now till Friday so I'm alone with ds and we're having trouble with roadworks outside our house so I can't even get any peace.
Dh has said if I'm not doing ok he can be home in two hours but then he'll lose all the money from the shifts and he's already paid the hotel so he'd lose that too so as far as he'll know I'll be perfectly fine and happy till he comes home even if I'm not.
I have the crisis team number if I need them badly I doubt I'd call them but the psychiatrist I saw gave me her number so I can call her, she knows Dh was going away.

I hope you feel better soon, fluffy

Oh dear ((( spidey ))) Are you going to ring anyone? (hope you're feeling better this afternoon than this morning).

Hi everyone,
have been thinking about you all.

snowy sorry to hear about your CBT person - there's no-one else that can replace her? You've been doing an amazing job supporting everyone here.

spidey how are you doing now? Its hard at the best of times to look after kids on your own. Good to hear you have some numbers tho if you need them. Take care.

fluffy how's things this evening?

Well dh came home at 4. I am finding it sooooooo weird. He seems so "normal" jolly with the kids etc that its frying my brain at the moment.

Thanks CIQ, I don't think there is anyone, ah well.

Good luck with DH, CIQ hugs.

Well I got through last night, didn't go up to bed till 2 though couldn't bring myself to go up.

Ds slept through the night which was nice, then when he woke up we decided to have a cuddle in my bed while watching cbeebies and having a cuddle.
I wish he'd warned me about the tummyache though, explosive diarrhoea wasn't in my plans for the day. Luckily he still had his bedtime pull-up on but it was a proper poonami the likes of which I'd hoped id seen the end of, bed stripped, rinsed and on a boil wash my poor electric blanket might be going to the comfy warm bed in the sky...
No school for ds for the rest of the week although I'm pretty sure it's a side effect of the worming medicine he had.
Ugh lovely start to the morning.
I'm annoyed at myself for last night, I didn't sh even though I wanted to but I couldn't stop myself eating, it's ages since I binged.

Oh dear spidey Not what you or DS need, hugs Well done on not sh'ing...thinking of you!

Oh spidey you poor thing! Kids are great sometimes aren't they. Well, well done for not sh'ing. take care.

snowy how's your day been?

Last night was hard, when I'd put ds to bed I had some fruit then sat up till 2:30am staring at the knife on the coffee table. don't even know that I wanted to use it but I couldn't stop staring at it.
Dh is home tonight so he will keep an eye on me.
I was too scared to tell anyone or do anything because I am alone with Ds and i couldn't bare the thought of someone taking him out of his bed and telling him what I'd done.

I'm safe this morning I can't face the idea of outside or seeing people so ds and I are having a pj day with all the curtains closed.
Hope everyone else is feeling a bit better than me today.

(((( spidey )))) Is there anyone you can tell how you're feeling?

I've been up and down,CIQ, how's it going with you and yours?

Not really snowy, I don't want to bother the crisis team because they have properly poorly people to see to.
I don't want to disturb Dh at work and I don't want to upset anyone, they worry if they know I'm not doing well.

I'm sure that they'd prefer you to ring, and see what they say...

spidey how are you this eve/night? Really hope you're ok.

snowy hope today's been more up than down. Thanks for asking.

Bit spaced today. Wondering if I am over reacting a bit and should carry on as normal as dh seems to be doing? Confusing

Ciq im not so bad today, Dh is home, although he's gone to work but he's home tonight, ds has been up most of the night with earache again, he's only just finished his antibiotics from the last ear infection.
I'm pretty down still, I'm trying to pick myself up, I was going to go shopping today with ds and try to find a dress for Christmas day, really want a red tartan dress but ds is poorly so we're staying home, going to put up my second christmas tree (the main tree in the livingroom is up already but the kitchen tree isn't done yet and Ive yet to persuade Dh that we need bedroom trees too..)
I've got six loves of bread to bake too at some point and the ironing so no time to wallow really.
The roadworks are right outside my house now, it's a lovely sunny day so I wanted to open the curtains but the workmen keep staring in the livingroom window, ive written "piss off" in big letters on the notice board but I think I'm going to have to close them again.

Hi all, long time no see.

spidey you gritted your teeth and you hung on in there. Do not push yourself too hard re Christmas

My own Christmas preparations (fairly minimal this year - cards, pressies, to send, no huge meal to do on the day) are going fairly well. My main battles have been a) to cope without my computer - which has been away being fixed, and b) what dose (if any) of quetiapine is compatible with me actually waking up enough to get up at a reasonable time in the morning. They do help me get to sleep though. So am on 75mg to see what difference that makes - I had been cutting them out all together on the nights when I had to get up the next day, and taking 150 other nights, but have agreed to try the reduced dose as CPN wasn't happy about skipping them some nights.

All this is fairly minor stuff, I seem to be doing pretty well.

Particular hugs to snowy, fluffy, CIQ and pulled

Gosh, you sound busy spidey! Good luck with getting it all done. Sorry the workmen are being intrusive

Wow spidey sounds like a demanding day. Hope the baking is therapeutic. Can you do some dress research online today?

I have a busy day but its going ok. Got out with kids in the sun this morning which was good. Hoping tto make Christmas cake this pm! Phew.

((( silvery! ))) Good to see you!

Well done on the Christmas prep, I'm all done apart from cards and wrapping that I can't do til the 23rd.

Good luck with the cake CIQ, tough stirring the batter.

Decorations are. Up, bread is proving. I'm going to have a look for dresses later, ds has thankfully stayed distracted with his lego today and the workmen seem to have finished for the day early. I love Christmas but this year is going to be a bit stressful, we're hosting at our house for the first time, it's the first year we've lived alone with ds, I'm cooking for seven on the day, they all want my homemade tomato soup for starters and they're expecting a beautiful homemade christmas cake etc, the bread I'm baking today some of it is to freeze for Christmas dinner then mincepies to make soon too.
Mil is bringing the meat precooked so that's one less thing.

I've screwed myself over basically, ive spent so long telling people that I'm ok and making sure people think I can cope that people expect me to be able to cope iyswim

You know, you have the choice of telling people you have been "faking it - but still making it" so to speak. There is nothing wrong with asking people (DH? your Christmas visitors?) for a bit of specific support.

I'm scared of people thinking I can't cope, even if I can't.

Are there any tasks you could assign DH or your visitors? Most people should be willing to help if asked, it's not not coping.

What's everyone having for tea? I'm having Chinese takeaway.

I don't know if this is the right place to ask but can anyone tell me what to expect from a psychiatrist appointment?