hi guys - ive just caught up on the last 3 pages so forgive me cos though i can remember bits i cant remember who said what....
ed - although i am always glad to see you - whats happened? ? i thought you were well and truly on the mend? i was so pleased for you - what has brought you back? and into bed?
you know i have always found myself retreating back to bed at the worst times....whats happened? i do hope its just a glitch lovely....you were sounding so upbeat when we last "spoke".
fluffy - im getting a peacock feather down my leg. quite bold, but i like the meaning of them - they mean different things in different cultures but they mean renewal, purity, integrity, and generally nice things that i strive toward being....im going on a retreat to learn to meditate later this month, figure it cant hurt to try.
To the lady beginning with P (apologies - my memory is truly crap) who is applying for jobs - did you manage to convey what it was you wanted to do with structure? if not im quite wordy and will give it some thought....what job is it? (if you want to say)
snowy - please dont take the ESA thing to heart - you know that to make sure you get it you have to lay it on with a trowel....dont overthink what the cpn has advised you put - when i filled in DS DLA application i felt a bit of a fraud at times because although everything was true - it was worse case scenario and seemed quite exaggerated at times....but the advisor i saw said you do have to lay it on a bit thick otherwise the assessors dont always "get" it....they have no medical knowledge.
kat - sorry you are having a rubbish time - maybe see a different gp next time?
insuchamess - hope you are ok. I also had a rubbish time as a child but i try very hard not to let that hold me back. I was talking to my oldest childhood friend today, who also came from a terrible start....i was saying we should allow ourselves some flaws, because our past shapes us, but on the whole we (him and i) have come through to live pretty normal lives and that no one would know what we came from.....him from severe neglect and me from abuse....he was saying he has some difficulty with emotional empathy, and i have issues around self esteem, which people do seize upon like vultures going in for the kill....im not guarded enough. Its something i am trying to be aware of - i will give much less of myself away in new situations from now on - its done me no end of harm at work because people see it as weakness....i see it as honesty, but its not always such a good idea. for a woman of my age i can be horribly naive at times. I think ive dealt with most of my issues around my past - just some feelings are very difficult to shake. As a rule ive not been ill before now, and i have been on sertraline for almost 2 years now - and do feel so much better on it. I havent really helped myself by throwing myself into challenging situations.....i chose probably the most difficult job i could have for myself....
anyway. thats enough of that. Im a wee bit cheesed off because ive only been paid a week ago and im skint. skint as a skint thing. had to cancel all my plans for today.
and its not often i actually have plans so not a happy bunny.
shout out to anyone else on the thread....silvery, and anyone else i will have inevitably forgotten about....forgive me its not deliberate if ive not namechecked but my memory is truly buggered.....i think i may be peri menopausal....