summer heat - in the village we'll meet....oh, those summer nights! support for MH issues, depression, anxiety, what ever the issue come visit the village [titled edited by MNHQ]

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new thread guys....feels funny doing the threads again! but nice....

so. for any newbies....the purpose of the "village" threads is to support anyone with MH issues....depression, anxiety, anything at all, for what ever reason.

there is an open door policy in the village! so pull up a pew and get stuck in....

Yes, fluffy, all the time. Sadly my MH makes it's own time. Hey ho!

You are lucky katkins, when I'm hearing voices I can't concentrate, let alone reason academically.

Enjoy your tea, fluffy I don't have time for MH issues, I've only signed up for 30 credits this year as I dropped out of both modules when I did 60 last year, but it's causing problems because you have to study 50% equivalence to get disabled students allowance.

I'd only just started hearing them then, Snowy- I recall writing my thesis and sitting on my laptop at around Easter time and when I first heard my voices calling my name...my heart skipped a beat and I panicked...then more and more, but it was so intermittent that I paid no attention (I dismissed it). Then by the end of May I was hearing them a lot , and even saw one in the mirror when I was in full blown psychosis. The voices 'ruled' my psychosis really- they charted it. I have 5 in total now: all different characthers with different names and personalities. One comforted me through my writing in the late stages- she even sings to me sometimes.

I still wish if I'd paid attention when I first heard voices (there were two), rather than dismissing them, it might not have got so bad...I can't reason / read or do anything now; I hope it comes back soon! I still recall that moment so clearly, too. Sorry, thinking out loud there.

Fuffy, I feel like that too. I'm glad your review went well :)

Sitting at my laptop....:/ I need to put my specs on! :D

I have to say that I am always glad that I don't hear voices, it sounds so difficult. My psychosis is more delusions (it is called ideas of reference because they say I interpret normal things as having special meaning for me), sometimes I hear the odd word/sound and see things out of the corner of my eyes but nothing too bad. Delusions are frustrating though because I can see why people think they are delusions but actually for me, it is very real and I can't persuade people of that :(

On the plus side my tea was really nice and now I am slobbing in my PJs with my DH and watching telly, still struggling with thoughts of hurting myself but trying to keep distracted and not let things get to me. It is annoying because I don't want to kill myself but I feel like I ought to! Hmm.

Keema - how are you getting on? I saw your posts about being in hospital.

katkins I am now very very cautious about things going downhill for me MH wise, I think you do right to be the same

I feel like I have just arrived on this thread and posted too much, I am sorry!!

The thread is here to post on, fluffy - it's good to hear from you

Evening all

Hey all,
Horrible night thanks to upset stomach coupled with voices and psychosis :( just can't get a bloody break from this shite aarrgggghhhh
I've got no patient for DD either today thankfully DH is home already so I can go back to my duvet & bed with a as that's the only thing I can keep down.

How is everyone doing today? Thinking of u all

Hi all. Hope you feel better soon pulled. I'm really really struggling with pain today, can barely do anything. Need to get essentials from the shop, but can barely move. I feel so so sick, too.

Pulled, have you tried putting your hands over your ears or listening to music on your headphones? That helps me a lot, my cpn said to use it if I need to. Sorry if that sounds really trite, or you've already tried that.

I really want to phone my friend to help me, but I feel as though I can't. I'll get dd a sandwich in a bit then try to get out and get my things. Lying on bed with wet hair right now. I was crying in pain earlier.

Sorry you had a bad night pulled. Duvet and tea sounds nice.

Fluffy you are more than welcome to post as much as you need on here. I find people tend to post lots or little depending on how they are feeling. two words or an essay it matter s not if it is helping.

I am ok. Finding dd really difficult. Lots of defiance and answering back. She is 9 so its only gonna get harder.

So sorry about the pain katkins. Do they know whats causing it. Why can't you phone your friend? Maybe some company might help?

Thanks katkins & ((( hugs ))) I've been trying to distract myself with music which usually works but hasn't this time. Tv is playing in the background but I'm not paying attention.

Could you ask perhaps ur friend to pick up the essential shopping for u & pop round for a bit?

lem they are defiant from an early age my 4 yr old DD lately has an answer for everything!

They don't know lem, they think depression. I think so too, because it only happens on some days and not others. I've been to the shop, but now am exhausted and there's lots of housework to do. It's so horrible being in pain like this, and I don't know anyone Melrose who has had depression with pain: has any one on here?

I don't want to bother my friend though, that's the thing.

katkins I suffer pains all day and night but it's not related to my mental health but more my physical health. Although I've been told that there is overlap between the two I've been diagnosed with fibromyalgia & arthritis (so both my bones and muscles are screwed). Before I was diagnosed they (professionals) thought the pains were all in my head IYSWIM. For me the pains are definitely much worse on days I'm more depressed & feeling low but them exhaustion has a direct impact on my illnesses.

Sorry for rambling on but the point I was trying to make was make sure they investigate the pain properly and don't just put it down to the depression just in case there is a physical reason for it.

Just popping in to say the same as pulled re making sure pains are investigated properly and not just bundled in with depression

I haven't noticed any pain from anything that I don't already have an issue with but I have noticed on days that the depression is worse that I feel really heavy and weighed down, like my bones are full of lead.

Yes, that's exactly the same for me. Muscle pain, joint pain, sicknesses, sore throat, tender spots, needing to lie down and not being able to keep my eyes open, hands shaking,migraines, can't eat. Gets worse on down days, but it's really horrible now.

I don't know what to do. I'm so shattered and in pain and I have to stay awake for dd. I want to phone my friend but I can't. I really don't want to bother her. Am trying not to cry but it's hard.

Oh katkins phone your friend I'm sure she wouldn't mind!!! Have you got any painkillers at home that might help with the pain?

I've sent her a text instead saying can I ring you? Nothing serious, don't worry if busy. I have migraine tablets and I think general painkillers somewhere. If it's all related to my depression, would that help though? I don't know

Painkillers may help with the pain - no harm in trying. Well done for texting ur friend!

I have taken some painkillers, that has helped a bit. My arms and legs are still really sore, and now I have to make tea and wash up and everything. I know it doesn't seem much, but on days like this it's the last thing I want to do. Sorry, i know there are bigger problems in the world. I just feel as though there's something seriously wrong with me, and I don't know what. It's horrible. I really feel like crying, but I can't anymore. I don't have the energy. I'm sorry for posting so much. I'll go away now.

My ESA questionnaire arrived today It would happen at the weekend.

katkins please keep posting if it helps. Were all here to support one another. No problem is too trivial it's all part of our mental health experience. Have you not seen the self absorbed posts I do when I'm feeling like that I.e just earlier today.

((( snowy ))) those forms are long to complete. Just pace urself with it do bit by bit. Can you possibly get someone to help you with it?

I've just put on a movie "analyse that" hoping it will allow me to switch off from my mind for a bit and maybe even make me laugh

Ah those ed s questions are a pain, snowy. Are you on it long term? Try not to worry, if you can't work then you can't work, you can't be forced into it.

Thanks, pulled, I'm really struggling. Have cold sweats because of the pain and struggling to keep my eyes open. I lay down on the bed and nearly phoned a friend to bring tea. In the end, I made us both fresh pasta with meatballs (dds favourite), but I'm struggling to swallow or eat. I never knew it could get this bad.