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summer heat - in the village we'll meet....oh, those summer nights! support for MH issues, depression, anxiety, what ever the issue come visit the village [titled edited by MNHQ]

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SomethingVicardThisWayComes · 27/07/2014 18:09

well a well a well a oh tell me more tell me more.....Smile

new thread guys....feels funny doing the threads again! but nice....

so. for any newbies....the purpose of the "village" threads is to support anyone with MH issues....depression, anxiety, anything at all, for what ever reason.

there is an open door policy in the village! so pull up a pew and get stuck in....

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Victrix · 27/08/2014 09:01

Yep, 'twas anxiety Sad

Bad night. Really bad idea to read spooky chat threads at 3am. I am clever when I'm tired.

Katkins1 · 27/08/2014 12:56

I have the start of another episode...I can feel it. Cpn is coming in a bit, I'm going to try and get an urgent referral in the next day or two. I'm ok, functioning and dd is absolutely fine, but I need meds asap. I will post as and when I can, because i feel a bit out of it and can't take things in properly.

Victrix · 27/08/2014 13:32

((Katkins))

Katkins1 · 27/08/2014 13:55

Oh, I'm not worried victrix. It's a second episode and I'm surrounded by good friends- we will be fine. I just think right now is a good time to catch it, before I become very unwell again. I'm actually pretty much fine; no worries at all. Just need to talk to my CpN and sort it all out really.

Victrix · 27/08/2014 13:59

That's good Smile

Does anyone have some spare energy they can give me? Ta.

Katkins1 · 27/08/2014 17:15

My cpn was a bit useless really.she kept talking about cbt and managing things, when I need a diagnosis and medication. Apparently that could be 6/7 assessments away eith a consultant! ,I told her I was worried about getting into a crisis, she wasn't too bothered. She said will speak to the Dr though. This sounds bad, but I'm start in to wonder what I need to do to get help, lie in bed all day and not look after my dd? I know that sounds awful, but still..they are so reluctant to do anything useful.

SnowyMouse · 27/08/2014 17:34

Diagnoses have set criteria, I think I've said before that they need time to see if you have any more episodes, and what they fit with. Using myself as an example, I had a severe depressive episode, which became psychotic depression and is now labelled as schizoaffective disorder. This took a year.

At the end of the day, effective treatment is more important than diagnosis which may change.

fluffydressinggown · 27/08/2014 17:44

Sorry it wasn't what you expected Katkins Snowy is right, diagnosis can be a slow process. I have been in the CMHT for over two years now and my CPN still won't confirm that my diagnosis is BPD (even though an inpatient consultant told me it was!) It is the treatment that matters, hopefully they will come up with something to help you. When do you see your CPN next?

I have had a nice day with my Mum, going to Weight Watchers soon. Really want to self harm, like really really, but I won't. Just feel a bit crappy really and I can't tell anyone. They just all tell me to be positive and to keep going which just feels a bit trite. I hate having MH problems.

I hope you are ok victrix

Victrix · 27/08/2014 18:24

I'm getting there fluffy, just really panicky and weepy and low last night. DP got a bit teary as well which set me off again Sad

I just want to be fixed and I'm annoyed.

Had a duvet day with lots of coffee and chocs and am writing myself a note to take to my GP appointment tomorrow to discuss how I've been feeling.

Katkins1 · 27/08/2014 18:43

(fluffy) and (victrix). My cpn was good: she says they know now they are dealing with psychotic illness, rather than a psychotic episode, but that the DR wants to get it right.

I see her next week, fluffy. Snowy, I've decided I'm not going to have another acute episode (!). I just have psychosis on some days more than others, and that are encouraging me to self manage, rather than be medicated. I did ask her to talk to the Dr, as I was getting more psychosis and it was scaring me. The cars outside had tails and whiskers today, as well as my lips being numb (!). How I get anything done I don't know....

They said if I have 6/7 assesments with the DR, they will diagnose. I appreciate them taking it seriously, but I feel frustrated sometimes. Sorry if it sounded horrible, I just get fed up looking after DD alone and trying to deal with something I haven't got a clue about!

TheSilveryPussycat · 27/08/2014 18:55

katkins remember to make things as easy for yourself as poss. eg when I was depressed and a SAHM looking after 2 LOs, I would often do a "help yourself tea" of bread and butter, ham, cheese, cucumber, maybe fish fingers. And I used to watch kids TV with them (which was a lot better then AFAICT) which lifted me slightly, and was a nice sharing of time.

fluffydressinggown · 27/08/2014 19:07

The wait for a diagnosis is annoying but it is encouraging that they want to get it right for you!

I put a pound on at WW so I am a bit :( about that and then had weird thoughts on the way home, but will be fine. I have DBT tomorrow which I don't really enjoy but needs must. Bought a meal for two from M&S for £6 tonight so DH is 'cooking' and it will be yummy!

Katkins1 · 27/08/2014 19:25

We call that a snack plate, snowy! We had fish and chips tonight, though I do want to start going to slimming world. I think it might be good for me. What weird thoughts did you have fluffy? I thought a toy alien was real yesterday Grin

SnowyMouse · 27/08/2014 19:27

I'm struggling with the depression side of things at the moment, wondering what's the point. The voices are still there but much better than they were. Just had a Chinese takeaway. I hope my OU stuff comes soon, it's a good distraction.

fluffydressinggown · 27/08/2014 19:52

Well, it is a bit embarrassing. Basically there was a song on the radio put there by God telling me to hurt myself. However, I am reality checking big style and not going to be listening to that bit of my brain. I wish I could tell my husband but he will panic!

I am jelly of fish and chips and chinese!

Have you done SW before katkins I have got on really well with WW, I put on weight after being on quetiapine/mirtazipine and all the other medications I have been on for the past few years! I have lost 33 pounds this year which I am pleased with especially as anti-psychotics can make it hard to lose weight but still annoyed about putting a pound on tonight.

I hope your OU stuff comes soon snowy what are you studying?

SnowyMouse · 27/08/2014 19:55

I'm trying maths this year, fluffy - I couldn't concentrate enough for the sociology and psychology I tried last year.

SnowyMouse · 27/08/2014 19:56

PS well done on the weight loss, that's amazing.

fluffydressinggown · 27/08/2014 20:19

Thank you :) Maths sounds hard, I would not be able to manage that!!

SnowyMouse · 27/08/2014 20:22

I'm hoping it'll require less concentration than essays, I used to be really academic but since being unwell everything seems to go badly with academics, some of that is due to meds side effects, but I've been told the meds I take aren't negotiable Hmm

fluffydressinggown · 27/08/2014 20:45

Yes I can relate to meds making things harder, although I feel less fuzzy since I stopped risperidone! Lots of luck with your maths xx

Katkins1 · 27/08/2014 21:14

That's great about the weightloss, Fluffy! I haven't done sw before, but I did go down from a 24 to 12- but I've put lots on, so want to loose them. I can relate to the meds, too, haven't read anything in ages.

I feel realy tearful tonight. It seems to have made a difference, being told I have an illness, rather than an episode. My friend came to see me and I was getting a bit tearful, but didn't cry. I don't want to seem vunerable.

TheSilveryPussycat · 27/08/2014 22:20

katkins I have just spent the last nearly 6 months coming to terms with what seems to be a firm diagnosis of bi-polar. And I am 62. No-one has been really sure about me, especially as my main symptom before my late 30s was an underlying and intractable depression.

Stress is a trigger, although my hypomanic episodes are rare. One in late 1980's (undiagnosed), two in early 1990s, one in early 2000's, one in 2012 after a year spent sorting out my divorce. With all those, the stresses were bad; and in between I was very unhappy - for good reason (my Ex). Before this most recent one, I had had a year of overdoing it, though twas a very happy year.

So I know not to overdo it. I hope! And depakote is not making me fuzzy now I'm taking it at the right dose. (Didn't realise that, on discharge, it had been put down to one at night; so for quite some take was taking one in the morning as well!)

TheSilveryPussycat · 27/08/2014 22:23

*this most recent one - I was in for 3 weeks in late Spring of this year.

Katkins1 · 27/08/2014 23:10

Ah sorry I got the wrong poster, i was reading without my glasses! It's hood advice you gave me there. I'm 27, and I think my age and proximity to past trauma is confusing them a little bit, so they want to be sure.

How did you feel after your diagnosis? I feel scared and relieved that they are looking at me more seriously.

LEMmingaround · 28/08/2014 09:41

Popping in for a Brew

I am very impressed with all the dieting going on here. I have seriously fallen off the wagon with regards to dieting. I need to get back on that as the weight is going back on.

Feeling v anxious. Its the pressure i put myself under to get a job i think and be positive when all i want to do is crawl under the duvet and hide.